Thread: Into the Rabbit Hole

Originally Posted by Aquanina

No clue where that dream came from really. But I liked it!
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Maybe there is some other (devilishly handsome) Greg you know of and have spent many waking moments falling into deep, longing thought over, who's name was floating around in your subconscious and just happened to get related to the Greg you work with, in the dream? *nudge nudge* Eh? EH?!


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LOL, Oneir! Hey, if you can't get into their pants, try their heads, right?

maybe because we was really aggressive and amazing and usually when I'm lucid my dream characters are quite passive,[/b]

Freud would probably say that was where the dream came from - you just happened to need a good hard bang so your mind provided you with one. Lucky you.

Originally Posted by Tornado

LOL, Oneir! Hey, if you can't get into their pants, try their heads, right?
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Whateva' works, man.

So last night I had a WILD. I don't really know how it happened. Most of my WILDs are unintentional anyways. I was going to sleep for the night...I lost consciousness, don't really know what happened...but suddenly became aware that my whole body was vibrating. I believe there were several attempts from the vibrational stage, through HI, and I made it into a lucid dream on a few of them but they were very short...I think I was trying to jump the gun, as it were...and not giving it enough time before I actually tried to become lucid. It was like...I was forcing it. I remember at one point, lifting up my arm...and I was unsure of whether or not I was really lifting it, or just hallucinating. Also...I thought at one point that I had opened my eyes and there was a fucking evil little clown looking thing standing next to my bed that scared the shit out of me. My heartrate rose and I could feel myself coming out of it all. I could fell my body again. That little fucker, he ruined it for me. I don't know when this happened...but at one point I thought I was asleep on the couch watching tv with my dad...and my eyes were slightly open...and I was trying really really hard to get a mumble out to him...trying to tell him that I was dreaming. But it failed. I don't know if this was HI or a dream...because I never left my bed all night so that never actually happened.

Even though the WILDs didn't end too successfully they set the stage for an amazing night of dreams...most of which I became lucid in at some point. I was at a sort of class reunion....maybe high school...thought there were friends of mine there from college as well. I don't remember much of it...this happened so early on in the night. I remember walking with a friend out to our cars. It was a huge, gravel, empty parking lot and I don't know why everyone parked so far away. I found my jeep...but when I got into it...it turned from being a jeep into a really kick ass bike. It looked and moved just like what Cloud had Advent Children except it was alot higher off the ground. I tore out past the front of the building where the reunion was taking place and waved at everyone...I was sorta lucid at this point. I didn't really OWN the dream though...I sort of just went along with it. This bike was intense...speeding through really narrow streets...almost wrecking...and I think, at one point...I did wreck. But my mind was like...no...let's keep going and it was like "edit" "undo" ...and i was back on the bike again. I rode it for awhile. I wasn't in any place I could recognize. The streets were too narrow and curved around hillsides...the buildings all looked european. It almost reminded me of San Francisco...if it were...like...in Italy or something. Confusing, but still beautiful. There's alot more that happened, I'm disappointed that I can't remember b/c this all took place very early in the night. I want this bike.

Had an unintentional WILD while taking a nap just now. But the contents of this...I fear...are not suitable for my public dream journal. Pisses me off. I wish we still had the private journal entry option. *sigh*

Night before last, had a dream with Elliott in it. He had come to visit me. I think I was living with my sister in L.A. Maybe. Anyway...he still had a girlfriend and everything. We were just laying down...hugging...holding each other...like we used to do for hours when we were together. My sister came home and was like, "Are you guys back together?" And I said, "No, he's my best friend." That's all I remember from that dream. Really made me miss my Elliott though.

This morning I took my time waking up. Got up...went potty...came back to bed...got lucid. When I sleep late...I sleep so light...I always just end up in WILDs. It's fantastic. Though I wish I could remember more from this one. It was absolutely amazing and I didn't just spend it humping hot boys as I have done lately in my lucids. Hah. My balcony has become a doorway for me. When I am in the vibrational stage, during WILD, and I feel the lucid dream coming on...it always starts out as an FA...and I always know it's an FA...and I go out my balcony door as if it was a huge window that opens in the middle when you push it, like two swinging doors. Anyways, lately I've always been using this to enter a lucid. It's amazing. Today when I went out the window or door or whatever...there was a huge stretch of ocean before me. There were hundreds of little islands. All covered with thick green folliage. It was as if, the planet was just made up of a bunch of little islands, each with it's own little civilization and personality. And you could pick and choose where you wanted to lived based on how you felt and who you got along best with. It was beautiful too. The water. I was flying just fine...but I decided I wanted wings. So I sprouted some wings and tried to get them moving. But they weren't, just I trying moving my arms up and down. I guess they ended up being more like bat wings than angel wings...but it allowed my to fly around to the little islands and meet things and people. There was even a spider island. O_o I stayed away from that. Though, the only annoying thing was that it was hard trying to land on some of the smaller islands. I'd keep swooping right past them when trying to land. At one point I ended up in the water. I emerged from the water. My wings had changed. I don't remember much else...other than waking up.

Wow, so many lucids. I'm impressed. Have they always come so easily to you?

Had a very vivid dream about a strange situation in school. I'm not sure how old we were. But there were some people I knew from gradeschool, some from high school, some from college. Mr. Trotta was the teacher. He's a teacher I had back in junior high who seriously fucked with me mentally...and I'm not surprised that I'd have this sort of dream about him. We were in class and I was angry with him. So angry. He was up to his usual shenannigans, making fun of students, having them call him The Sir, etc. At one point, he walked over to Erica's desk and he was making a joke, everyone was laughing a bit, and he was running his fingers through her pretty blonde hair, playing with it. I said, quite loud...that I did not think it was appropriate the way he touching her. I had caught him off guard. He got very upset. And was being sarcastic, and nasty. He wanted to humiliate me. Then he went over to his desk and sat down. There was a microphone attached to the school PA system, and over the microphone he said, Jeanine apparently doesn't think it's appropriate for a teach to have ANY physical contact or touch a student. He was trying to embarass me. I hated him so much. I knew that everyone in the school heard the message. The way he said it, it made me sound really stupid, and like I had made a big deal over nothing. A few moments later there was a reply on the PA system. It was the principal. She said, that after careful consideration, it was indeed inappropriate for a teacher to have physical contact with a student. Everyone was stunned. Mr. Trotta the most. He looked so angry and embarassed and ashamed. I couldn't have been more satisfied. It was a wonderful feeling. Standing up for something, then being made fun of for it, and then having a higher up tell you that you're right. That never really happens. I had no one to stick up for me when I was in grade school. Least of all, myself. Sometimes I really wish I could go back there...

Took a wrong turn with the car. I was driving a convertible with friends in it. We were skidding around in circles that ended in a dead end. Like a spiral. When it stopped we crashed into a pile of sand and it was everywhere. And I remember thinking why the FUCK did I have the top down. How the HELL did we all end up covered in sand. And what the heck was going on. It was in the middle of nowhere. There was construction everywhere though. Then I heard some cows mooing. I got out of the car and sort of became lucid at that point I think. I started flying over to the cows...there was a cliff...and an opening and I flew through and out onto this huge expanse of cow pasture. I was totally lucid by then and I just remember thinking why the hell there were cows everywhere. Unfortunately though, I had to get up for work so that was the end of that one. Moooo

I've been having some interesting dreams lately, and spurts of lucidity here and there. But I just can't seem to remember much of anything upon waking. I know I spent a good deal of time last night lucid, but I don't remember it. *sigh* Maybe it will come back to me. I need to start writing in here again...

Mental Note: WRITE MORE IN HERE!!!

I know I had lots of vivid dreams last night, and a few lucids but I just keep forgetting to write lately. All I can think about is writing in my book, and it's distracting. Oye! Remember nina...come on.

Noice lucid last night, er this morning, er twatever.

I remember having a birthday party for me and inviting a bunch of family and old friends in which I never keep in contact with anymore. Kelly and Gretchen showed up, I was really excited. Then I noticed that a bunch of guys I knew from St. X and some I didn't know showed up also and the little place was so packed I couldn't let them in but it was a huge party for me and I loved that since I really have no friends and no one would ever throw me a party.

Change to me spending time in gym class, seemed to be a mix between college and high school, a large university that I'd never seen before, we were playing some sort of indoor street hockey that I forget the name of. After class I fell asleep on the huge windowsill of the gym. It was really really high up and I liked the view, and when I woke up...I asked the people playing what time it was and they said 9:30. I didn't believe them because I didn't believe that I could possibly sleep that long and miss my last two classes and everything so I checked the time on my phone and it said something like 9:10 I think. Anyways, I think I was starting to become lucid but left the gym and went walking around the inside of the campus where there was like a food court or something and this old guy was giving this old lady all the money that they had made that day. And I thought, hello, easy caper...so I grabbed the wad of cash and ran. Little did I know, little old man was fast as hell. I darted up the stairs, climbing higher and higher and flinging money down into the stairwell by the handfuls as I did so. More so to cause trouble for anyone who had to clean it up...I dunno what I was thinking. I met up with this girl, Erin, who I have no idea who she is but she was helping me. I think I had actually met her in the gym earlier. She and I reached the top floor, we were now being chased by a few older guys...and there was a large open window in the top of the stairwell. We were soooo high up, I took Erin's hand and told her we were going to jump. I looked at her and said, remember, we're lucid dreaming, so don't worry...I'll have a parachute. And we jumped!

It was the most amazing feeling, freefalling like that. But that's just it, we were falling...so I said ok, I'm going to pull the cord on the parachute...and fumbled around to make a cord and parachute appear but it didn't. The whole time Erin and I were clinging to each other very tightly. When I realized I couldn't conjure up a parachute we sort of lost our grip and were holding onto each other by one hand, the wind was ripping us apart and it was hard to hold onto her, the fall was amazing though. Eventually we lost grip and I fell for a very very very long time. I got to enjoy an amazing view as the fall almost seemed to happen in slow motion for a bit. Everything was dark but the area around where we were was lit up like a carnival and I remember singing a song as I was falling too. Something about living in one of the greatest places....I forget. I fell slowly past some children's carnival rides and games and such...and I remember thinking I must be nearing the ground. Then I sais, at least I got to enjoy the view. As if, I was going to die just then when I hit the ground. But instead, I very slowly fell to the ground like a leaf, and reached the ground on my back. I got up and right away for some reason I wanted to find Erin. For some reason I thought we were dream sharing...I dunno. I had fallen quite a distance from the window so I started running in the direction toward the school...through the dead or rather, ghost carnival as it appeared to be not working and no one there and yelling Erin! Erin! Then when I made it back to the campus I was shouting for her again and someone came running. But it wasn't Erin, it was this girl I know...Sarah...and she said she was calling for me, and I told her, no I was yelling Erin. With that I was suddely wisked back up with a blink of the eye to the same window that I had just jumped out of...but this time I decided to fly. I flew over everything, it was all so beautiful, lit up like that at night. Alot of pink lights. Somehow I reached the place where I lived...I remember walking down the back porch steps, there was a sea behind our house and I remember saying that I really did live in the most beautiful place ever. As I walked down the stairs there were some spider webs clinging to the wooden stairs and to the lawn furniture, and I remember thinking, this is my paradise, spiders don't bother me here. And so they didn't. That's the first time I've ever not been afraid of spiders. Pretty amazing. Alot of other stuff happened before and after but this is all I really have the energy to write.

Otay...don't know how I became lucid, and I don't really remember all that much from it. But I was in some sort of huge department store/warehouse thing and I was in the home furnishings section, I dunno maybe that's when I became lucid. There were beds all over and so first thing I went looking for Jakelles...and I was walking around the store looking for him. Then I saw him sitting on a bed and he stood up and I looked at him, but his hair was like...way too light. And I was thinking, hmm...maybe I can change that. So I tried to make his hair darker but it wouldn't work. So then I decided to put a hat on him, that Mickey Mouse hat he always wears in pictures, but it turned into a baseball cap instead and then I got frustrating and I was like, screw it, and we just started making out. Then I said something to him about trying to find a boat...so we could be on our boat in the water like we talked about, and figure out a game to play with cupcakes. So I took his hand and we were walking around the store...we'd stop to make out every now and again because it was like, really hard not to. He's so darn cute. Anyways! I began to realize that I couldn't really find a way out of this place...and I could have tried to teleport out, or dream spin out to some water, but I was afraid I might lose him. So then it occurred to me to try to dream share with the REAL Jake and not just the DC one. So I walked to this one area and I concentrated really hard...and I started yelling out his name as loud as I could...like, thinking he might hear me in his own dream or something heh. I dunno...by this point I was going a bit foggy. Anyways...I forget how that dream ended.

Then there was another dream I wasn't lucid in. We were making a scary movie, sorta like poltergeist, and I was in it, and I had a disagreement about some of the casting with the producer, and told him I was going to walk out of the movie. But then I decided, that I would indeed stay. The disagreement was over that little old lady who plays in all those Poltergeist movies, and I didn't want him to cast her because I thought it was so cliche, but then I decided, yeah she's a likeable character so it might be ok. We were all on the street. I dunno, something happened and our movie got dropped. And all the actors got dropped from their agents. I remember seeing Julianne Moore or however you spell it. And Lindsay Lohan and her twin sister (hah, not real, I know) were crouching down on the street corner arguing and Julie calls out "princess!" "princess!" "who are you girls with?" meaning, what agency were they with. And they told her. Then she asked if there agent could take her on and they were like all snobby and said, no we're full. Then they said that they were low on cash and apologized that they couldn't help. Some black lady....this was like...a New Orleans type of black lady overhears everyone and says, so you're looking for a director for your movie? You need to meet this lady. And she points to this enormously huge fat black woman...like...morbidly obese. And our actors and such talk to her and decide, why the hell not let's give it a try. Then we find out that she puts some voodoo spell on the actors so that they give amazing performances. It was weird. I dunno. But we didn't have funding for the movie. So that didn't happen. I dunno why I wasn't lucid at this point....*shrugs*....

Had alot of lucids...forget most of them by now. In one of them I was with Brad, and we were making out. And yeah, wow he is gorgeous. There was alot of craziness to my dreams because of the video games I've been playing lately I assume. So, weird things kept happening, and there were quests. At one point I remember playing the piano and I was amazing at it, like nothing heard before, and I remember trying to remember how I was playing it so that I might be able to play it when I woke up. But that never works. I flew around a bit. Sort of had a kingdom hearts type dream...interesting night. At least I got lucid.

Last night was alot of fun...I was like the flying queen. I don't know that I've ever had this much control while flying. I mean, I usually have alot of control but this was...different. I was with someone and we were meeting somewhere else. They were driving there, I was flying there. I definitely got lost up there in the sky, I was in a country I had never been to. It was beautiful, there were cathedrals and lots of things to see on the ground, and little hansel and gretle type of houses. So cute. Anyways....there was this tunnel, it was a huge bridge...and I remember flying through it. I actually had WARP speed....so I zoomed through the tunnel so effing fast it was amazing, and I never had trouble manuevering around the cars and trucks no matter how fast I was going. Also...I could fly really fast out in the open and then just...put on the breaks....like....you do when you are ice skating. So I could just stop in mid air, decide where I was trying to go, then speed off flying superman style as usual. I fly all over the dang place. The only annoying part was that I had someone with me and I was trying to teach them how to fly and they were a bit slow, so I was holding their hand with my left hand, and it was always sort of slowing me down a bit taking care of them. So I think I ditched them at one point. Anyways, I never got to where I was supposed to go...but I definitely didn't care. I just had too much fun flying around. It was strange though because the dream was very vivid, and I had complete control, but I wasn't like...fully and completely lucid. Maybe I didn't want to be. *shrugs*

Went to bed early...and slept in...which can only been one thing. Lots and lots of lucid dreams. I'm not about to try to remember them all. But one in particular stood out...I just realized I was dreaming, on a beach somewhere and I was talking to ...it may have been my two guy friends I'm not entirely sure. I changed some things about the scenery. And I remember going through the dream only semi-lucid, and also, sort of going along with it too because it was interesting. There was an enormous fountain, the size of a huge hill or a small mountain. Though it was made to look like a mountain. There was water flowing down one whole side of the enormous mountain-esque fountain. But it wasn't like a waterfall, it was soft water just flowing down hill. We walked up to the base of the fountain and I remember examining it, and reading what it said. It had cost $150 million to build this fountain. It said that not only was it a fountain, but it also provided the city with rain, when you turned a nozzle and instead of a fountain, it would spray water up into the air and make it seem like it was raining. I remember at the time thinking what an amazing thing it was, though now it doesn't make much sense. There were also spiders that hung out around the base of the fountain, and I didn't like that...so I moved on. I may have flown or floated around for a bit after that. I ended up in the water...the ocean...in the waves. It was shallow and the waves were small. There were people on the beach, and strange things in the water. I kept imagining the scenery differently, and things would change accordingly, so I had fun with that for awhile. I even made the whole fountain...uh...mountain...disappear, to reveal another sea on the other side of it. Hmm...I know I had some fun with a guy at some point, but i don't really remember much from that part of the dream.

I haven't been able to sleep for a few days...so when I finally put down the Nintendo DS and went to bed around 6am...I was lucid for a few hours. Some of the time though, I was just so tired, that I decided I didn't want to be lucid so I was in and out of lucidity for awhile. I think I just made out with alot of guys haha. I have no idea why. I guess I was just in the mood to make out with hot guys...alot of random celebrities, which is strange, cause I don't usually care for celebs but hey I'll take whatever shows up in my dream. Anyways! It was alot of fun regardless. Maybe I'll remember some more later...

Hardly sleeping anymore means, hardly dreaming anymore. But when I do sleep, I seem to have loads of REM rebound...so I get lots of vivid dreams and many lucids.

I've been thinking for the past few months how much I've been dreading spring...and how much I wanted it to stay snowy winter. I don't know why, but the snow and the cold just seem so perfect to me right now. I really don't want it to get warm out. Anyways, that's been in the back of my mind.

So while I was taking a nap the other day, I had a FA, and in my bedroom whenever I have an FA I always just fly out my balcony doors. It's so easy. In my old house my room was in the basement and I'd have to either squeeze through a screen window or walk out into the tv room and go out through the basement door, but now it's so much easier. Anyway! When I pulled back my curtain and opened the door...I couldn't believe my eyes. It was snowing! It was so beautiful. There was just a light dusting on the ground, and snow flurries everywhere. I didn't make that happen. It was like...a gift, that my own subconscious had given to me. It was wonderful. I flew out my balcony doors and just flew around in the falling snow. I couldn't believe that my mind did that for me. I never would have expected something like that. Amazing.

Ah I know I know, I've been horrible at journaling, as usual. I wasn't sleeping for awhile...but lately I've been sleeping alot...and therefore, dreaming alot.

There's no way I could remember all the dreams I've had lately...but I had a lucid one this morning that was actually pretty interesting because this man was there...I dunno why but I just sort of assumed that he was a Dream Guide or something. I was able to control my dream, although I wasn't exactly lucid. It's hard to explain. Anyway, I asked him if he could changed into someone else for me, and he said he would try. So I closed my eyes in my dream and imagined the person I wanted him to change into, then he left the room and came back...and looked different but definitely wasn't who I was going for. I said no...and closed my eyes and again thought hard of the person I wanted him to turn into. He nodded, and left the room and when he came back he looked exactly like the person I wanted. It was this guy that I've had a bit of an obsession about for like 6 years now, heh...and he's just so sexy. Right away I got lost in his blue eyes. Then I started to wonder, is it wise to be hooking up with my dream guide? Oh well. I didn't really care haha. Afterwards he sat down on a couch next to me and turned back to his original form. Which was quite different than the blonde hair blue eyed guy he had just been...and was now quite handsome with dark spikey brown hair and dark eyes. I just stared at him and asked "Who are you?" And he smiled and just gave me this look like...you should already know. And then he said a name...but I didn't understand it. I asked again, what was that? What is your name? And he said "fifty-five". I said, your name is 55? And he nodded. But I felt as though I was missing something that I should have understood. And he sorta gave a little smirk...I still have no idea what any of that was about or what 55 means.

Strange volleyball dreams as well...involving me playing defense for my sister's college team, which was just odd. Definitely not lucid in those. Then I was back in grade school playing volleyball. Odd.

Maybe I'll make an effort to write more in here. Yeah, I always say that. *shrugs*

I'm sad that I haven't posted here in awhile. My dream recall had been pretty crappy I suppose. Dry spell. But lately my dreams have been vivid, intense, and extremely interesting.

So hopefully I'll start writing them here again.

Lately I've been dreaming about people from my past, friends from grade school, high school, college...friends I've played sports with, friends from this forum even. I wonder what that means. In the dreams, I'm always happy to be with my old friends. But in RL I'm not in contact with any of those people anymore. I think my subconscious wants me to try to reconnect with old friends perhaps.

Wow. It lives.

Haha. j/k. Glad to see you're trying to get back into DJing, Nina. Good luck with it.

Originally Posted by Oneironaut

Wow. It lives.

Haha. j/k. Glad to see you're trying to get back into DJing, Nina. Good luck with it.

Thanks baby! Your presence here should help encourage me.

Originally Posted by Aquanina

Thanks baby! Your presence here should help encourage me.

Well if you promise to keep writing them, I'll promise to keep stopping in, when I can, to check them out. Deal?

Yeah, just yesterday I updated my DJ for the first time in months. If you update so will I.