Thread: Twoshadows' Dream Journal

Darn, I didn't save my "9 dream" night. But I still have my notes. Maybe I'll write them up. But later.


All right. I had a dream last night that I am somewhat reluctant to post here. It is one of those dreams that makes me out to be as "ridiculous" and "nerdy" as I could possibly be. But I am thinking that maybe it would be a good thing to write. I know there are several people here that have this mistaken view that I am rather "cool". And maybe I am finding it hard to have to live up to that expectation...and maybe that is where this dream came from.

Anyway....it is also a DV member dream....with Oneironaut...again.

The phone rings and it is one of Oneironaut's friends. I talk to him for a while, but I don't remember what we were talking about-- except that I think he was trying to talk me into coming and seeing O in person.

Then I was with a group of noisy people, and I was having trouble hearing. I was outside, so I walked over in front of my neighbors' house so I could hear better. I was still having to talk loud. Suddenly the front door of that house opens and it is O's friend that I am on the phone with. He had heard me talking loudly and knew I was outside his door.

I thought, "How could I have forgotten that O and his friends lived next door??"

I walked to the door with the friend. He went in to call for O to come out and meet me.

So I am standing there and I suddenly reach up and touch my hair. I realize that I have five very messy lopsided ponytails in my hair that not only look like a child put them in, but they are ratty like I had slept on them for several days.

I also suddenly realize that my eye make-up is smeared halfway down my cheeks.

And if that wasn't bad enough, I notice that I am wearing pants about 10 sizes too big, and that I am having to hold them up.

I thought, "There is no way I am going to meet O looking like this." I hear O coming down the hall. So I turned and started running back toward my house. But the pants are so big that I can only go a couple of steps before I have to stop to pull them back up.

I hear O calling for me to come back. But I am so humiliated so I keep trying to run and pull up my pants.

I get to my house and realize that now O knows that I live next door and that sooner or later I will have to face him.





Oh my gosh....could a dream be any worse.....LOL......

This dream totally exposed me for the nerd that I am.....

Originally Posted by Twoshadows

Oh my gosh....could a dream be any worse.....LOL......

This dream totally exposed me for the nerd that I am.....
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Heh, yes, but a cool nerd nonetheless.
I bet none of us are half as cool as our fancy nicknames and avatars make us out to be. Except me, of course, I *looks in mirror*, uh, oh, never mind.

Originally Posted by oneironut

Heh, yes, but a cool nerd nonetheless.
I bet none of us are half as cool as our fancy nicknames and avatars make us out to be. Except me, of course, I *looks in mirror*, uh, oh, never mind.
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haha i just got a pair of glasses and they make me look terribly nerdy. i still use contacs for when i go out to social events.

BTW twoshadows. i finally had a half decent lucid dream. check it out!

Haha, it's not that embarrasing!

And creepy black widow pictures...

Hahaha. Nice one, TS.

So I am standing there and I suddenly reach up and touch my hair. I realize that I have five very messy lopsided ponytails in my hair that not only look like a child put them in, but they are ratty like I had slept on them for several days.

I also suddenly realize that my eye make-up is smeared halfway down my cheeks.
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I thought, "There is no way I am going to meet O looking like this." I hear O coming down the hall. So I turned and started running back toward my house. But the pants are so big that I can only go a couple of steps before I have to stop to pull them back up.[/b]

Oh, man. The mental imagery running through my mind, right now.

But don't worry. I wouldn't have been that hard on you.

Originally Posted by Oneironaut

Hahaha. Nice one, TS.
Oh, man. The mental imagery running through my mind, right now.

But don't worry. I wouldn't have been that hard on you.
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Obviously it was a very bad self esteem dream for me. I made myself look as stupid as possible.

Thanks for the comments Ranma, oneironut, Onieronaut, and CB. I have been extremely busy. As couple of times I have gotten on to respond, but then am interrupted. I'll comment better and in your journals when I hopefully have more time soon.

WILD and short Lucid Dream</span>

I just want to quickly mention that I had a very interesting experience last night with WILDing.

I did WBTB. I wasn&#39;t actually going to WILD, but hoped to have a LD by DILD. But right as I lay in bed thinking "I&#39;m not tired enough to sleep", I realized that what I thought had been my own conscious thoughts were turning into dreams (Will write the details later. Notes: dog, jumping, wall, T-rex)

I then thought "Wow, I guess I am tired--maybe I should try to WILD". I then relaxed completely and focused.

What happened next was really incredible. When I had my first WILD I went straight from consciouness into the dream with out any --I can&#39;t remember the correct terms--the lights and sounds. (HI?)

Well, this time I instantly saw green lights and heard and indescribable sound. It was a middle range tone...slightly digital sounding. The lights were crazy. I thought I saw a face in the lights and got a little scared. (I had heard people talking about getting scared in this transition. And now I know what they mean.) Then the sounds started sounding voice-like.

I actually started praying because I was freaking out and felt really out of control. And then slowly everything faded and I was laying back on my bed. During that time I didn&#39;t dare try to move because I know that if I found that I couldn&#39;t I would have been doubly freaked out. This whole thing probably lasted less than a minute. But it was so very intense. It was a really good exprience to have. Gives me more of an idea of what other people go through, and what might happen in the future when I try to WILD again.

I think I went to sleep after that. <span style="color:#3333FF">But I remember finding myself in my old computer room and lucid. I was sitting cross-legged on the floor and facing the North wall. It didn&#39;t feel very stable, and I knew that I didn&#39;t have long in this LD. Last night as I went to bed I decided that the next time I went lucid, more importanly than me completing the Task was for me to focus on detail, especially on myself.

So I did exactly what I had wanted-- I reached out my right arm and really looked at it. I took my other hand and rubbed it up and down that arm to feel the sensation of touch in this dream. It was wonderfully real...even as the dream faded.

Congrulations on the WILD, that sounds incredible. That&#39;s the easiest sounding method to me, and just look at those results&#33;

Originally Posted by CoLd

Congrulations on the WILD, that sounds incredible. That&#39;s the easiest sounding method to me, and just look at those results&#33;
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Well, it worked out for me this time. But the key is to find that exact moment to do it. I have tried a handful of other times and either I am too tired and fall right asleep...or I am not tired and I lay there for too long until I just want to go to sleep and stop trying. I haven&#39;t counted but I am guessing that I have tried about 7 total...and that two were a success. So it is alright...not great...but not terrible either.

So yeah...give this a try when you can.


A couple of things I wanted to add about my WILD. I did take a B6 at the beginning of my wake time instead of the end right before I went back to bed. Might have helped.

Also I want to point out that the sound in my WILD was so very loud, making it more intense.

And in my LD when I looked at my arm, I was wearing my long sleeved light green shirt and I had to push my sleeve up to touch my arm. Not a big detail, but one I want to add anyway.



Now last night...</span>

I went to bed not feeling very good. I felt sick to my stomach. As the night wore on felt worse and worse. My dreams were those unpleasant ones you have when you are sick. I felt trapped...had the same images shown over and over...and everything was tinted <span style="color:#CC6600">orange.

Finally by about 6:00 I started feeling just a little better and feel I had some normal sleep. The dreams I remember were about seeing Jim in a car and Jeff was there and the two meet for the first time. They do some sort of wrestle. Jeff is stronger.

Then Philip and I were in the backyard and we see a really big black widow spider. This black widow is extremely large and looks more like a large black crab than a spider. We decide that we need to kill it. Philip goes after it with a brick. He tried to crush it but only suceeds in cracking its exoskeleton a little. Then P gets a stick and stabs in into the cracked area. I think it died.

Wow i get similar effects when i Fild. i start seeing wierd stuff, hear voices etc. cool stuff&#33;

Originally Posted by ranma187

Wow i get similar effects when i Fild. i start seeing wierd stuff, hear voices etc. cool stuff&#33;
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YEah it was really weird and next time I will think it is really cool.

Well, I don&#39;r remember any dreams from last nigth...so I will post some pictures I took instead.

cool pics&#33; your experiences wasn&#39;t as scary as mine. during my first lucid i felt jolts of energy going through my body. like i was hitting waves of things... hard to describe lol.

Great Christmas pictures&#33;

Thanks guys.

I had a long dream involving moving to my grandparents&#39; home. There was lots to the dream, but I only remember certain clips.

I remember having my luggage out in the yard. I had this crate that my dog was supposed to be in. But when I opend it a bobcat jumped out and ran across the yard toward the mountains. I remember wondering if it was native to this area and if it would cause any trouble.

Then I opened this very small crate to find my dog. I felt really bad that I had packed my dog in such a tiny place where he had no extra room at all. This dream dog didn&#39;t even look like my dog.

I remember a scene where my aunt was sleeping in the gold room. I think I was with my grandma. She was going to wake my aunt up.

I also remember that I was going to be caring for my friend&#39;s three kids long term. Two were her real kids. The third was a fictional child my mind created for the dream. I remember wondering if I were up to that responsibility. I was writing down all their information like birthdates so I could check them into school there.

There was more to the dream that I can&#39;t remember-- images like boxes on a shelf....snow on some stairs etc.

Again, I seem to have a lot on my mind that seems to keep me from remembering dreams as much. I know I had several dreams last night. But none are coming to me now. I will post again if I do remember.

I do have this brief image in my mind of Roman soldiers.

hey, it happens to all of us. I had another batch of small lucids. it seems your encouragemant is finally getting somewhere

I had the longest dream this morning that I have had in several days (Nothing I&#39;ve had the last few days was remembered enough to post--plus I haven&#39;t been near enough a computer to post either).

Dream:

I was driving a car. The traffic got worse and worse. I realized that I was in LA and was on the busy freeways. I was looking at a map and had no idea what freeway I was on or where I needed to go. Nothing on the map looked familiar. I got to a certain place where there were so many cars and so many pieces of road just twisting and turning all around me that I couldn&#39;t figure out where I was or how to even drive here. Finally the cars in front of me all came to a stop and people were gettting out of their cars. I got out too, to see what the problem was. I was in a line waiting for something.

Suddenly I realized that I was in a bus and it was taking off. I shouted to the driver that I had to get off--that I had left my car--unlocked--back on the freeway. I started to panic when they told me that they couldn&#39;t stop.

I was suddenly dropped off at my friends house in RI. I told him about that I was stranded without my car. He said he would help.

We talked for a while and he gave me a Christmas present, which was a teddy bear, along with a stuffed monkey. A girl walked in the room. He introduced me to Laticia, who he said was his exgirlfriend, and that she was only there because she hadn&#39;t had a chance to move out yet.

Then later another girl walked by. He told me that she was his current girlfriend named Liz.

Next I remember helping him clear off the table to get it ready for dinner. There seemed to be other people in the house now that I don&#39;t remember who. I remember wiping crumbs off the table.

I know there was more to this dream but that&#39;s all that I remember at this point many hours later.


Anyway, Merry Christmas everyone.

MERRY X-MAS&#33;

just thought i would drop by and wish this. i will update my DJ later&#33;

MERRY X-MAS&#33;

just thought i would drop by and wish this. i will update my DJ later&#33;[/b]

Thanks Ranma&#33;

Well, I had one fo those nights last night where if I only had had a pencil and a pad of paper by my bed last night, I could have gotten a ton of dreams. I remember having at least a dozen dreams. I got to sleep in until very late, so I kept waking and then falling back into a dream filled sleep, then waking, then back to sleep.

I only remember a few dreams now.

Dream 1:

I had very long dream that started with my standing on the bank net to a lake or ocean. The next thing I know is a great big fish jumped out of the water and swallowed the guy standing next to me. I went running fearing that another big fish was right behind me.

There was a lot more to this dream that I can&#39;t remember now. I remember that I was going to have to go down to the bottom of the ocean/lake to complete some sort of essential task. I was afraid of the big fish, but prepared to go down anyway.

Dream 2:


In another dream I was in a big marching band. We were about to march in the Rose Parade. I suddenly realized that I had forgotten my music...and I had no idea what songs we were playing. Geoff was there.

Dream 3:


In another dream I was with my uncle and he suddenly lifted up this whole bed with one hand. I remember thinking &#39;Oh no...he isn&#39;t supposed to pick up anything heavier than 3 pounds for months after his surgery". But then he started talking about this "other world" that was coming to the earth. And how even now it was only 17 miles away. And I realized that something special must have happened to him...something that had to do with this other world.


Dream 4:

I had a dream where I saw this tiny newborn baby laying alone on a bed. I realized that it was baby Jesus. I picked him up. He was naked and cold. I knew that I had to care for him. I snuggled him close to warm him, then I started to feed him some milk. I remember thinking, "Wow...I am actually holding Jesus.... the Savior.....".

Tuesday night:

I had another DV member dream. And yes, Oneironaut, it was you.....again. See what you get for being the first person to befriend me on this site. And actually I think it was the fact that I went to bed quite soon after your PM-- you must have still been on my mind. I am surprised at how much I remember for it being the first dream of the night.

Dream 1:

I was sitting and talking to Oneironaut. In this dream he was a really talented drummer. We were talking about music and what he had been doing on the drums. He then showed me a new drumset he had just gotten. One of the drums was a very large and unusual looking. It was more oval in shape, tapering down to the bottom. It was also very ornate--lots of color and designs on the sides.

The dream suddenly makes a drastic jump. O and I are getting on what looks like large pirate ship (like the Black Pearl). O is one of the Captains (along with Jack Sparrow, who unfortunately I never did see). We set sail....and are out on the open sea.

Suddenly the ship lurches to a halt. I&#39;ve seen the movie. I know what this means. I try to stay calm. I tell everyone that our only hope of survival is to abandon ship. That it is going to be attacked by a huge monster....but that it won&#39;t attack us if we leave the ship.


I remember jumping into the water. The next thing I remember is hanging onto some of the debris from the now destroyed ship. I have no idea who is left alive.

(Sorry, O--I don&#39;t know if you made it )

Dream 2:

I was babysitting these kids.I think they were all little girls. The house seemed neat, but when I looked behind the couch, I saw all kinds of toys and junk.

I also remember inthis dream I had been chewing gum. I went to spit it out and it was stuck on my teeth. I kept pulling it and I would get some out, then the gum would snap off leaving more in my teeth. It was just really gross.

Dream 3:

I was in a marching band. I was supposed to have taken my uniform home so I could wear it to the performance. I had forgotten. My best freind however had remembered hers , and I got frustrated at her for not reminding me. I had no idea what I was going to do now.

Dream 4:

I had to go to the bathroom. There was this toilet in this closet. I worked my way back through all the clothes hanging down. I found the toilet and sat down and went and went and went.

This was kind of nice, because usually in this sort of dream I am out in the open on a toilet that everyone can see. And also, the toilet in this dream was surprisingly clean.


Last night&#39;s dreams:

Dream 1:

I was in Alex&#39;s bedroom (son of a friend). The walls were covered with aquariums. In each tank was a lizard or salamander or an interesting fish. I was just fascinated.

Then I walked out into the other parts of their house. I came to this wonderful sunken living roon that was huge. It looked like it should be outdoors because of the way the walls around it were finished. I remember thinking that if this were my living roon I would fix it up with a pond and a patio type set up to give it the appearance of being an outdoor room. But as I looked I saw that they did have a pond...and tables like I had been thinking about. I was suddenly so envious at how gorgeous this whole place was. I thought, "If they ever want to sell it, I would love to buy this place."

Dream 2:

All I remember is the image of going to some sort of amusement park.

Originally Posted by Twoshadows

(Sorry, O--I don&#39;t know if you made it )
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Agh. That&#39;s alright. I know that, if I went down, that monster got one Hell of a fight&#33;

Haha. Cool dream.

Originally Posted by Oneironaut

Agh. That&#39;s alright. I know that, if I went down, that monster got one Hell of a fight&#33;
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I don&#39;t doubt. I&#39;m sure that&#39;s why I made you Captain. Just wish I could have been part of it. I&#39;m always envious of your great adventure dreams....and I guess this was my brain&#39;s less-than-adequate attempt at one. I&#39;m sure I&#39;ll get better with time.

Dream 1:

On the verge of being Lucid...

I don&#39;t remember anything but the very end. It was also a very very short DV member dream.....about pj--who I really don&#39;t know except that his dream journal is always up there with mine.

All I remember is holding some kind of electronic "thing" It looked a little like a cell phone, but wasn&#39;t. It belonged to pj. Suddenly I spilled something on it and totally ruined it. I was horrified at what I had done.

But then I thought, "Wait a minute. This is a dream. I don&#39;t have to deal with this." So I woke myself up.

Duh&#33;&#33;

It all happened so instantaneously that I didn&#39;t have time to realize what I was doing.

This is what I used to do in my youth. I think that&#39;s why I was able to pick up on LDing so fast in my adulthood.



Dream 2:

I also had a dream where I was stranded inside one of those Wildlife Parks...with all the African animals such as lions and hyenas. Again, detail isn&#39;t great. I remember seeing some hyenas and being quite nervous. I saw some metal bars (like rebar, only not as dense and more flexible). They were about 6-7 feet long. I swung one in front of me to intimidate the hyenas. It seemed to work as they didn&#39;t come any closer to me than about 10 feet or so. I also saw lions more in the distance. But they gave me no trouble.

I got through and suddenly I was by a school. I remember talking to some ladies/teachers that I was supposed to know. Seems like we were talking about food.

Originally Posted by Twoshadows

But then I thought, "Wait a minute. This is a dream. I don&#39;t have to deal with this." So I woke myself up.

Duh&#33;&#33;
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Lol, nice one&#33;

haha i once destroyed the dream universe when i realised i was dreaming in a nightmare once.

Originally Posted by oneironut

Lol, nice one&#33;
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Yeah....

But at least I realized I was dreaming.

Originally Posted by oneironut

haha i once destroyed the dream universe when i realised i was dreaming in a nightmare once.
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Oh that&#39;s good...if you destroy it all you won&#39;t have to deal with it. I&#39;ll keep that in mind.


Okay. I just decided that I am going to have an LD tonight. I really am. It has been a month since I have had a good one. I will think about it until I go to sleep. I will think about LDing...and Star Wars.

Oh, and by the way, I finally got my hands on a copy of Stephen LeBerge&#39;s book Exploring the World of Lucid Dreaming. I have read the first chapter and a half.

So maybe if I read another chapter or two while listening to some Star Wars music..........