Did I go DILD on my first night???
Please tell me if what I experienced was lucid dream, or a transitive state, or is it something else? Relevant entry is in Bold.
Here's my journal entries from yesterday and today:
7/25/2010
The night before I went to bed telling myself "I will remember my dreams" over and over. First part of the night, I woke up multiple times.
Started off with only remembering 1 dream - spiraling staircase in middle of air and i'm falling through it in the middle.
I felt very tired so I told myself “ok no more remembering my dreams, I just want to get some sleep at this point.”
At this point, I was having problem falling asleep - I was tossing and turning.
I was looking at the lamp i had by my table and I was trying to fall asleep.
I was able to 'capture' the moment as I was passing out. Next thing I knew I was in a state where everything was dark and all I could see was faded outline of the lamp on the nightstand. I could not talk even though I tried, it was kind of like muffled mumbling. I couldn't move either. When I tried to move, I could feel my body shaking and vibrating violently, but I myself didn't move. I was fully self aware. Also, there was this loud noise, kind of like when I try to fall asleep and mosquito flies by my nose, I'll notice my hearing get a lot more sensitive - but this was 10x times that. This lasted less than 5 seconds, I think. I knew I was self aware, because at first I wanted to wake up from this, but I couldn’t. I guess it wasn’t until my heart was pumping fast enough...
Next, I kept fading in-and-out of this state and finally I "decided" to wake up out of it, because I wanted to.
At this point the lamp on the nightstand was no longer blurry. Only now do I realize it wasn't my lamp on my table - it had different construction. I woke up into a dream. Maybe the state I described earlier wasn't a dream at all - it was just the transitional state?
Next I recall telling my wife about how excited I was about having my first lucid dream, though it wasn't much. I was also telling her how I remembered why I stopped trying to explore Lucid Dreams some time over a year ago - because my dreams scared the shit out of me.
Next thing I remember I'm in my room and I decide to shut the door so i can watch some porn and masturbate...
Before I could proceed, I realized my father was in the house, and I didn’t want him to walk in on me. It’s strange because I don’t live with my parents.
Next thing, I'm in master bedroom and my mother is in there, in the bathroom. The drain that is normally in the shower is now right in front of the entrance to that shower, where normally I have carpet.
All of a sudden water starts coming out of it and so my mother throws towels on it, and I help her out. As I grab the towel off the holder on my right (which is out of place, because I'm facing the bathroom, so the straight holder would be on my left), the holder breaks off. I give my mom shit about it.
As we get the mess cleaned up, my dad comes from downstairs and hints at having a mess to clean up down there.
As we walk down stairs, the downstairs of my house is much bigger, but layout remains similar.
It looks like a "work in progress" - bare walls, and floors ripped out. It looks like my dad is trying to put in new brown tile flooring with a big X in the middle.
Next, I wake up and realize what just happened was a dream. It was longest lasting and clearest dream I've had in years. But the 1 part of it where I was self aware - I have no doubt about that part.
I was also in cold sweat, and fully awake, as I've just been exercising for 10 minutes.
7/24/2010
I had interest in Lucid Dreaming some over a year ago. For some reason I lost the interest - maybe I didn’t believe it enough. Today I went to see Inception the movie and it sparked my interest again. I read the whole WikiPedia page on Lucid Dreaming and decided I’ll start practicing dream recall. I haven’t remembered a dream for a long time now.
