First Post and would like an audience/help
Well hello members of Dreamviews! Im Karbonation and its nice to meet you.
Anyways lucid dreams have been a fascination of mine for as long as I can remember.
My mother, (long before I was born) was once one of those lucid dream gurus, who got others and had little courses and teachings, ( I imagine a 70's, flower power, Volkswagen van and tie dye shirts) with people in her town.
Interesting kinda, I know, but this is about me.
I have had lucid dreams when I was very young, I remember 2 specifically very well, but I know that for a while, I would get one maybe once a month. I remember telling my mom about it and her telling me about what they were. I know that I have had more than I can count during my early years.
fast forward to now (20 yr old college student)
For the past...maybe 8 years or so all my dreams, that I remember, are all in the same place. A mash up of basically every place I have lived, and been around for years. Before that I had "normal" dreams, you know, the occasional nightmare, flying, and those which you cant even explain. Now my dreams are me, doing normal awake stuff, just in a fake world.
Its gotten to the point I can draw out a map of this fantasy land, some parts don't really make sense, Theres beaches, and so many streets, and restaurants, etc. all places I know very well in real life, just mashed together in the most amazing way ever.
My brain made a perfect world based on my past experiences and likes....how could I NOT like that world more than my real life?
Being in a perfect world every night makes me very depressed when I'm awake. All I can think about is "i wish it was like in the dream" or "i would rather be asleep"
maybe if I can master my dreams, I can master my life too.
Does anybody else have a "problem(?)" like mine?
Is this a normal thing for the brain to do?
One side of me wants to have random , instantaneous dreams again,
but another part of me loves this fake world I created so much, I'm scared I'll never see it again...
