Hi!
I am new to this forum although I've been studying my dreams since I was 13 (16 now). My "study" was mostly about their meanings and reccuring patterns,till about a week ago when i found out about LDs.
Following common advice I started keeping a dream journal (I always wrote down my dreams, but now i do it on a daily basis!). I had very good results till three days ago, when my grandma (dearest to me and most beloved ) died.
After her death and since last night I would remember no dreams although I would mentally self-propose "when you have a dream you will wake up remebering it" as usual. My first thought was that exhaustion was making it difficult for me to wake up in the night .
so I gave myself some time...
Last night I slept as usual still self-proposing "-wake-after-dream-" but I also wished for my grandma to visit me in my sleep for my pain to be alleviated.
I remember no dream in the night.
Around dawntime I woke up in order to drink some water and fell back to bed.My room ,heavy curtains closed so no light could enter, was -well...- dark. I felt very tired so I decided to try the HILD method. I closed my eyes and started tapping my fingers when ,out of the blue, I heard my grandma's voice saying "shhh,dont make noise". she was sitting on my bed ,around where my feet were, and she was caressing me as mothers carress babies. I tried to speak to her but she told me not to speak because the dream would fade away .I looked around and saw the curtains were pararell to the ceiling, so I knew it was a dream. Then all went black.
When i woke up in the morning all I could remember at first is the happiness i felt...it wasnt but two hours later that the whole dream dawned on me... So, what do you say? was I lucid? was it her soul or my subconcious?
I am really sorry if the length of the post tired you or if my use of english is tooooooo awkward but i felt I HAD to say it to someone!
after all that's what the board is for,right?
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