Thanks, for the warm welcome! So, I think I may have hit improvement yesterday. I don't know if it was because I was on here reading before I fell asleep but anyway this is what happened. I went to bed without even trying to get into Sp or anything and I ended up knocking out and waking up at about 5 am. I thought to myself eh, this might be a good time to try and WILD. I was more awake than drowsy however, so I just laid down on my side and closed my eyes and tried to concentrate on falling asleep. Soon after I found myself feeling a tingly sensation throughout my body, it was Quick though, it was more like a wave than anything and it just came and passed in an interval of about 3 seconds. It definitely did Not feel like any SP I've ever had before, this was way too short and it still felt like I could move my body so I thought it was just in my head and I said to myself, Gah I've failed, and I got out of bed to go get some water. As soon as I left the door I noticed that it was sunny outside, and I said to myself, wasn't it raining a few seconds ago? That, and it was 5 AM, so there's no possibility of a super bright sun out at that time. As soon as this thought came to my mind EVERYTHING felt heavy and I started to spin, and all of a sudden it got dark and BAM, I was laying in my bed, awake and it was about 8 AM.
When I saw this, I didn't even think, I just said, Ok new try, and I just closed my eyes again. This time I didn't even feel anything, I just remember being in a building, following some random guy in a suit who was talking about how good the insurance he was selling was. Then I looked down, and looked up again, and he was wearing a red shirt. When I saw that, he said something and I remember saying, "no your not, I'm dreaming right now". The Moment those words came out of my mouth Boom, I was in front of a room in my house. I told myself ok I'm definitely dreaming because everything just felt Weird, I looked at my hand and proceeded to do the finger through the hand reality check and the moment my finger touched my hand Boom, I instantly appeared laying down in my bed. Everything still seemed weird though so I just went with the thought that I was still dreaming, and continued with the reality check while laying down.
This time I didn't even finish with the reality check because the moment I lifted my hands to do it, they looked sooo long, and when I saw this I said I'm definitely dreaming, so i started to sit up on my bed, but it felt soooooo slow. Like my body was moving very slow, and the closer I got to sitting up, me heart just started BEATING so fast! Like if it was popping out of my chest, but I just took some deep breathes and kept repeating the phrase "Im Dreaming". I don't know why I was sitting up so dang slowly though, it kind of annoyed me. Then all of a sudden I heard a loud BOOM, and I was awake laying in my bed. I figured it was the neighbors fixing something because after the boom, came hammer noises. Gosh I'm so close I can feel it in my bones!
So I have a few questions pertaining to this. Is there any way in which I can just realized I'm dreaming without having the dream crash? It almost feels like my brain doesn't want me to realize it (if that makes sense) because whenever I came to that point I would either instantly be teleported to another scene, like in the blink of an eye, Or I would wake up. Also, is there anything I can do to calm myself down when I get restless, other than telling myself there's nothing to be afraid of, because there have been times when all of a sudden while I'm laying down my eyes start move around so dang FAST after I hear something, it feels like they're vibrating! I can't even move them around like that when they're open.
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