My name is the Truthbearer.....
My name is the Truthbearer, and I am new to this forum. I discovered this site while I was trying to gain knowledge about dreams. It caught my attention because of an experience I had long ago, which I still remember, for it left an impression on me. I had a dream which was following the regular caotic order of one, until I decided to see what time it was. I looked at my hand and I had my watch on, a watch that I had just lost 2 days before. So, I stared at it for a moment and I remember thinking I had lost it. It couldn't be right. I am dreaming! That was my conclusion, but as I thought that I guess I decided to wake up, to prove it to myself.
I have already learned about lucid dreaming for a couple weeks now, I started to keep a dream journal, though lazy ass I am I only wrote about 3 entries.
Anyway last night I have what I believe is my first lucid dream, where I kind of took control of my dream. The problem is I don't know if I was really lucid. In the dream I was in weird old house with my parents and some weird things were happening. So, I don't remember why I decided it was a dream, and, my all time favorite dream happening, I started to fly away. Since I learned about lucid dreaming I always made that my first goal, to fly.
Anyway, I remember having problems going higher when I wanted too, and I kept saying I am dreaming, when I said that I momentarily did fly higher. I remembered some things I read and I thought I want to appear over there, in a building that was seemingly very far away. But I didn't, I couldn't. So I started to fly to it. When I got there I reminded my self I was dreaming again, but this time that made me wake up.
My question would be, how do I know if I was really lucid dreaming, and it wasn't just my unconscious' way of justifying my flying in the dream? I have been thinking about lucid dreaming, so that could be posible. Besided I didn't feel in total control of my dream, in fact the only thing that I could do was fly, which is as much as I wanted, but it would still be nice to feel more in control of it all. The way you guys have described it I can create my own universe, do as I please. In this dream I am doubtfull about being lucid, I was just able to bring this ability to a universe pre-established by my unconscious, I couldn't create one at my will. I felt like I wasn't really that lucid but playing along with the chaotic paths of my dreams.
That is my doubt, wheather there is the possiblity I didn't really have a lucid dream, I just thought I did. I do remember saying to myself that I was dreaming but couldn't that just be part of the plot of the dream? Could it be my minds way of justifying what was going on in the dream. I am rather confused about all this. All I can say is that I hope to continue to experience this sort of dreams, and eventhough I may have not been lucid, I still loved being able to fly. Feel free to post any comments or answers you might have.
Thanks for your posts and warm welcome
Yeah, I'm gonna have to try that as soon as I can get another lucid dream, I tried to do MILD last night but only slept like 6 hours, so I missed my whole REM period completely. Guess I'll try again tonight.
P.S Thanks for the suggestion Kaniaz, I have seen it.......about 50 times or so. As you guys will discover in upcoming months I am a big matrix enthusiast.
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