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I think I might had my first lucid dream this morning. I accidentally tried out WBTB, so that's what produced it, I guess. I woke up around 9:30AM and went to have my breakfast, thus I made myself completely awake and then at about 10:15AM went back to sleep reciting "I will remember my next dream" mantra. I remember two dreams, which is really awesome, because since I read about lucid dreaming (tuesday) and bonded myself to have at least one and experience it, I only had really vague recall. I could recall some type of music, just rhytm on Wednesday, and it was gone after a few seconds. I didn't have dream journal then, so I didn't catch the rhytm, unfortunately. On Thursday, I know I had some kind of dream, but I failed to remember and Friday was completely blank.
At first, I only wanted to recall my dreams, not become lucid at once, though I still did a lot of RCs everyday and read about LD all the time. But after waking up from today's dreams, I don't feel excited. I feel kinda numb, and it feels as if my brains made up all the info upon me waking up. Is this normal? I'm kind of confused and like I said, not excited nor happy at all. I feel also kind of surprised, seems so unreal for me. Also, when I woke up from my first dream, seconds ago, I became lucid. I looked around myself and remembered scene from earlier in dream and it went naturally like "Hey, something like that is impossible, this must be a dream", I did a reality check, trying to put my fingers into my palm, but it didn't work. After like 5 or 6 seconds, I woke up. (I'm not entirely sure here, the dream might have just ended, because I can't remember waking up, but it feels as if I woke up) Now, I have read a lot about being so overly excited when becoming lucid in dream, that you wake up. The weird thing is, I didn't feel excited at all, I didn't even have time to plan or think about what I was going to do, I just suddenly realised that I was dreaming and my mind went completely blank after that. I was thinking that maybe my awareness level was so little I didn't even have time to be excited. Am I right? Has something like that happened to you?
The second dream was me sitting in a car going through all kinds of landscapes and me looking in the window and seeing bunch of sceneries (I can't remember any of them) and then suddenly realizing I was dreaming. I tried to do "finger through palm" reality check again, but it didn't work, so I did "hold your nose for a bit" reality check. Now comes the weird thing again. As I was holding my nose, I could breath the air in, but only partially. Is it supposed to be like that? I can't remember if I held my nose fully, so there might have been a little space to come in, but again, my intuition tells me I was holding it tightly. After becoming lucid, I wanted to fly out of the car, but I wasn't able to move at all, the dream just kept continuing, me watching sceneries in a car, but being lucid, after that, nothing else happened, because I probably can't remember it, or I was woken up. Is it ok to be like this? I knew I wouldn't be able to control my dreams fully on my first try, but I thought I would be at least able to talk. I'm not disappointed at all, though. I think it was an amazing experience, but as I said, my brain doesn't want to fully accept it. If I continue with this, doing RCs every day, reciting mantras before sleep, thinking a lot about lucid dreaming, will my lucidity eventually improve?
EDIT: tl;dr: I'm not feeling excited after waking up from first lucid dream and my brain is confused thinking it wasn't a dream, but a mere fantasy. Is this ok? I didn't become excited after realising I was dreaming in dream and still woke up. Realization didn't even hit me hard, but I still woke up. Is this normal? I can't move upon becoming lucid, is this normal?
Thanks you for your time and reading it all if you did.
