Former Lucid Dreamer (Childhood) and HEAVY problems to learn it again.

Hello Dear Dreamviews community.

First, I'm not a natural speaker so my grammar might be bad, I hope you forgive.

Okay.~

So,
I was a lucid dreamer in my childhood and lost this ability. It worked sometimes in my youth again but I had heavy concentration problems. Whenever I ONLY tried to change something in the dream... I got instantly awake. So I just could really really carefull "be me", trying to enjoy the lucid dream and hope to not wake up. To be honestly, that was a nightmare everytime because I couldn't be free, one wrong "step" and I awoke with open eyes in my bed. Horrible ;_;

The last lucid dream I had... I can remember was a ... wonderful one. *sarcasm*
I laid on the ground and couldn't move one finger. I heard voices, I got conscious about the fact, I'm dreaming and wanted to stay up. Because I knew this place, I wanted to be there (Fandom ... things) but no. Just no. I was forced on the ground and couldn't move one (dream) muscle. So I heard the voices calling for me and I really tried my best ... I cursed my fucked up brain and sub-conscious and tried with pure will. It didn't work ^^ Then I awoke and I probably stayed in the bed for at least an hour, thinking about the failed Lucid Dream.

So, however, this was ... one ~ two years ago(?)

The thing why I want to learn lucid dreaming again and 100% properly for instant WILD use is because my psychiatrist recommended it to me. I have ADD (...logically ^^) so the lucid dreaming in my childhood was a haven to get out of reality. I don't want to talk much about ADD, only if you have a question. Basically, yeah I want that too ... lucid dreaming "as a hobby" or something not only because I honestly miss it ... I need to clear my brain off this stupid 24/7 all day overstimulation which is really hard to handle sometimes.

Can you imagine ... I sat two hours on a ... "park bench" in the middle of nowhere, around me only sea and I waited and I waited and I waited and nothing. Had to move my body because it got everytime too "uncomfortable". That's my last 3, 5 WILD attempts. I just have really no idea how I can get from the "daydreaming" over to the lucid dream. That's my huge problem I have to work on and the reason why I registered myself in this forum.

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Well, basically, "hello." =D

Welcome Dinkalpo.

This forum has many useful tools for helping anyone to achieve lucid dreaming. Have you tried reality checks throughout the day?

I am an old lucid dreamer too, and am just returning after realising my desire to get in contact with the wisdom hidden in my subconscious!

A while ago when I use to practice lucid dreaming daily, I found that keeping a dream journal (like 99% of these user should do), doing reality checks (Breathing through a pinched nose, questioning the reality around you), and positive reinforcement (assuring yourself you will have a lucid dream tonight, and truly believing it), really helped.

When I became aware in the dream I would rub my hands together or hold an object within the dream (such as feeling the grass beneath your feet or holding onto a doorway), just to stabilise yourself into the dream and let your subconscious know your holding onto this dream, fixating yourself within it.

Hope this helps. You can find all this information and much more help on these points and more within the forum.

Good luck!

Thank you very much!

"I am an old lucid dreamer too, and am just returning after realising my desire to get in contact with the wisdom hidden in my subconscious!"

Well, I woudn't say ... "wisdom" ... because my subconscious is a *ç%* but I have my Fandom and I want it back. Day = Reality, Night = Home. Surviving life in my own ADD-style. ^_^''