Hello! Welcome to DV!
Man I know what you feel.
First of all, I hate studying, and am lazy, but I force myself cuz I now if I didn't, one day I will just regret it.
Second, I have a lot of fights with my family. divorced parents who start a war if the see each other. Pretty depressing, but be positive and the world throws all its beauty at you.
Third, I fear death too, a lot. I know what you mean, fear it and not at the same time. It's like you can't fear it 100% of the time cuz your instinct or whatever tells you you need to live.
Fourth, man, you wanna live, stop smoking and drinking! It only shortens the precious time you have left in this wonderful life! Especially wonderful with LDing!
Finally, I'm a muslim too. I am lazy, so I don't prey, but I became an atheist a few months ago. Haven't told anyone at my community, or, you know, I would be called "kafer". who wants that!?
Hang in there akhi, you will survive!
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