New here, but have always felt different.

Hello :)
Complete newb here, but have always felt something different about myself, intuitively and in my dreams.
I have always dreamt, many vivid dreams, meeting people I felt were important without ever trying. Every morning I sit and process my dreams, because I remember most and its a lot to process! I have never practiced lucid dreaming, but want to focus more on it and fine tune what I feel are my natural skills.
I have always been intuitive and felt different. I could sit here and describe a million accounts of things that have happened to me, but that's context for a novel!

One reason I must confess I am in a journey to find someone, someone I love and lost, but it is a bit deeper than that.
I met this person and instantly knew we had many lives together. I instantly felt it. And he did too. He too in intuitive, and is skilled in lucid dreaming.
This is where is gets deeper. He is married, was then as well. We both tried to ignore what we had, but the history in our souls was too great. I got pregnant. When I told him, he told his wife and she took control. The person that took off his mask for me and loved me was gone, or under her thumb. They moved. Our daughter is now 7 months old and he is not around. I dream of him daily. When I was pregnant with our daughter, she spoke to me in my dreams almost every night and told me her father and I had too much history beyond our conscious knowledge. I feel because she was not born yet, her soul was still on a different plane where she could do that, and I am more intuitive than average people. I have tried finding him physically and cannot. Last night I had a dream of him that sent me over the edge. I know he is a lucid dreamer so if I can practice my own lucid dreaming I want to find him in the dream world. He may have already found me, but I am not fine tuned enough to tell the difference in my dream or his actual presence in my dream.
He told me once if his wife found out and he left because he felt obligated to care for her, making the promise of marriage that he would find me in my dreams.
I need to find him back. He needs to be in his daughter's life.

I know the situation does not make me look good at all, but its been hard for me. I joined this community for guidance to help me tap into the base I have.

That was a novel, and if you have read it all, thanks! I hope to find friends here :)

You are not judged at all here :) I am myself a Psychic Medium and I dedicate my life to Spirituality and lucid dreams plays a good part in my nighttime.

For me, lucid dreaming has always been very natural and common.

Maybe you want to look into Astral Projection as well in order to be able to find him (And sorry folks for so much beyond-dreaming topics, but I feel is what she needs :p) And you can use Lucid Dreaming to look more into your subconscious about him and about this situation.

Feeling such an instant connection together proves indeed you have shared many lifetimes together.

Welcome to Dreamviews :)

I am sorry but you can't find him through dreaming. You can certainly pray to dream about him, and even if you dont you might dream about him, and you can have meaningful conversations, but really the him you will be seeing is a projection of your own consciousness. However, you will meet him again. I lost a loved one too and just dreamt about him last night, it brought back all of my love for him that I must have repressed to feel better.

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Originally Posted by PercyLucid

You are not judged at all here :) I am myself a Psychic Medium and I dedicate my life to Spirituality and lucid dreams plays a good part in my nighttime.

For me, lucid dreaming has always been very natural and common.

Maybe you want to look into Astral Projection as well in order to be able to find him (And sorry folks for so much beyond-dreaming topics, but I feel is what she needs :p) And you can use Lucid Dreaming to look more into your subconscious about him and about this situation.

Feeling such an instant connection together proves indeed you have shared many lifetimes together.

Welcome to Dreamviews :)

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Thanks PercyLucid :)
The whole situation is typically not in my nature, but when I moved in next to him and he came over and introduced himself I instantly felt like I was picking up where I had left off with him in a past life. Its been a hard year for me, a lot of soul searching for myself.
I know he still looks in on me from time to time, I see his wolves. That's a different story all together.

I had no idea lucid dreaming wasn't something everyone did. I am aware in my dreams every night, and when the baby wakes up at night to feed, afterwards, I go back to sleep, right back to where I left off in my dream. When I come across people that do not remember their dreams I am flabbergasted. My dreams are so intense. I can feel someone's breath when they are near me, I feel cold or hot in different environments, I can smell metal when I am opening a door with a set of keys.

I have either not found or have not been aware since this community of fine tuning LDing is new to me, my dream guide. I have meet an array of people in my dreams, not knowing if they are my mind or other actual people. I think if i find my dream guide he or she may help me search within myself for help in my life. I need to look into astral projection. I was friends with a man once that was versed in it, but never looked into it for myself. I will have to. I focus a lot on others, I rarely take time to focus on myself, and I am trying to remedy that.

Yup... we are the same.

When the third eye is completely open it can also alter our dreams and you can get profound and metaphysical experiences. We can talk more about it through PM if you want since it really goes beyond the scientific support that lucid dream provides, or you can open a new threat at Beyond Dreaming And so more people can participate also :)