Hey everyone. I'm new here. But can someone take a crack at deciphering what I have below here?.....Side note, I can always control things in my dreams, though I'm not 100% good at it, but I've been able to do this since before I can remember....
I wouldn't say that this is necessarily a recurring dream, only a recurring theme. In order to understand what I am dreaming about, you need to know a little about a girl I dated for 3 years, Samantha. She was my "first love" and it did not end well, and it ended suddenly. The dream starts off with me somehow showing up in a warped version of Albion college in Albion Michigan. The college has a British architectural style of course. The sky is always an overcast and it is not warm but not cold out. Sometimes it rains. In my dream Albion is massive, and there is no city near it. Instead I am generally focused on one building, a dorm. In this building is Samantha, somewhere, at least I think. Generally I don't end up finding her until near the end of the dream. I guess I'm looking for her, but I can't seem to find her. I can see many college age people walking around, their faces are clear to me but I do not recognize them. They don't like me much, I get dirty looks from them. I am on the 2nd level of the building which has no roof, I look down and see a shallow greenish blue lake spanning a considerable distance though its not the size of any of the Great Lakes. For some reason I decide to work out, I run around the top floor of the building, irritating some of the college students. Every once in awhile I'll run into someone who is friendly to me, only girls, and only for a fleeting moment. They will smile at me or say "hi". I keep running. I find Samantha inside the dorm somewhere, in a store like place. She smiles and I kiss her and hug her, but then suddenly she walks away, fast, and tells me not to follow her. I then see Samantha down by the water, so I venture down, though I am embarrassed for some reason. She tries to lead me into the water, grabbing my hand, but I refuse, only taking a step or two into the water. The water scares me, its dark and cold and the air around it seems stale and the other side does not look very inviting. I instead retreat back up to the 2nd level of the dorm building. I watch her walk into the water, it only goes up to about her knees, and she continues walking. She then fades away into nothingness and I'm confused. I look around, then run around and I cannot find her. I am dismayed at this point, frantically searching but to no avail. Instead I begin talking to other people, but they are very upset with me. I get upset back and tell a group of people to "MOVE" as I try to make my way through a doorway. They mock me say "MOVE, MOVE" but in a very angry way. I then hear indistinct words, usually not to friendly toward me. I decide I need to get out of there and make my way down to the first floor, actually, I just jump down to the ground. I then go over to a bus stop looking thing where others are waiting, including my dad. He doesn't say much except "hey". They are friendly and I have some cookies with a Chinese looking girl who says nothing but smiles at me. I then see a sign, I don't know what it says, its like a road sign. I pull it out of the ground fast, hold it up, then slam it back into the ground. I wake up.
This recurring theme happens at least twice per month. Albion is always much larger than it is in real life, and at first Samantha welcomes me. She is always hard to find prior to this however, and afterward, she wants to get away from me abruptly and her friends or whoever is around makes me feel extremely unwanted. I always end up leaving on my own accord, usually tearing something out of the ground and slamming it down. Sometimes I am aware that it is a dream, and I materialize vehicles of my choice or items I need. Usually a motorcycle and I tear out of town on that. Sometimes I can fly, but it takes extreme concentration to do so, and its more of a float than flying. Sometimes I don't find Samantha at all, always in this case its snowing and very icy and cold out. The dorm is all but abandoned and I feel very sad that no one is there, especially Samantha who I was going there to see.
Interestingly, I always remember nearly every single detail of every single dream I have. I can remember dreams I had a year ago or more. There are about 4-5 different places I dream about. Fictitious places, though they all have something familiar in them. Some include huge futuristic cities, my city only much much larger, cemeteries are a common theme, as well as long dirt roads in the country. I'm usually alone, rarely having a lasting accomplice. Sometimes I am viewed as a hero and other times I am hated, despised. I have the ability to "jump" between the different areas I dream about. I simply will myself to materialize there. Everything seems so incredibly real. When I come back to a certain area, I am greeted by someone. "Welcome back" I hear. Its almost creepy, like its a real world and I'm a distinguished...or hated guest depending on where I am at. I usually end up meeting a girl in all the dreams. Now that I think about it, maybe each different area I dream about is really the same place, only its just huge. Because depending on which road I take, a back road, dirt road, highway, etc...I end up at a different place. Its seemingly endless. I've traveled the highway the entire time I was in a dream before and all that was there was more highway. Other times I end up in a run down country setting, or in the future city. I never travel to Albion. I always just materialize there. There is no road leading to it and I never encounter Samantha anywhere else other than Albion.
I have a different girlfriend now and she would be incredibly irritated to say the least if she knew I was still having dreams about my ex...what is wrong with me?
