Hi! I'm New, but please read..
A'hoy a'hoy,
I thank anyone that reads this, for I know it looks like a lot.
Recently in the past two to three weeks, I have finally brought my mental or physical problem to the professionals. The information and details within my tests and discussions with these people have brought much interest to sleeping stages, and thus, I searched for it on the internet, and found this website.
Ergo, I hope that the following will be read by anyone on here and that your feedback may be of some support or advice I may greatly be able to use.
The Diagnosis
In the future, I will soon be put through tremendous amounts of tests. Blood tests, phsycials, and possibly even a cat scan. Apparently I have major symptons for:
- A physical disorder, such as: enimiac, brain tumour, or some other deficiency
- Schichzophrenia
- A major sleep disorder
- Unexplained
- etc.
If the tests all prove that I'm phsycially prefectly healthy, then I will be sent to counselling.
The Problem
I've been suffering from day hallucinations for a long period of time in my life and recently they have become more frequent. While conscious, I will have these occurences of hallucinations.. I'm not sure how else to describe them. Most of the time, I will pass out when it happens, sometimes, I just vividly see it, like intense day dreamings. It feels like instense deja vu and a dream mixed together.
Visions I have seen vary completely, however never involve myself. I've only seen things from a vantage point to whatever the vision was. In the last month, I recall having around 8 hallucinations. In the past, it would only be about 1 every 5 months or so.
Whenever a moment like this happens, I also feel a sharp feeling in my left temporal lobe (where your brain processes images along with many other related things) It is not painful, simply a sharp feeling, like an itch, but inside. This indicated them that it may be something physical.
Nothing in life has grown in correlation to these occurences. The closest thing I can feel in closest correlation, are my beliefs. Others say that it is stress in life cause by the amount of bad luck I've been having...
I try to look past that.. this problem I've been having for a long time... and I'm not sure what the end result will be.. depression, is a side result..
How Does This Relate To Lucid Dreaming?
The other possible catalyst for these hallucinations is the fact that I have been having lucid dreams for the entirity of my life. I love these dreams and control them to do whatever I wish, just like all of you.
However, I have been repeatively awakening within the real world and believing it to still be the lucid dream. After reading this website, the "reality checks" is what would seem the to be the best suggestion, however.. I have tried this, and I day hallucinate the reality check the be false (so I'm told).
The fact that I'm aware of this, however, is the sympton for schitzophrenia.
My Lucid Dreaming
My dreams during sleep often portray completely random and abstract things. When in control of it, it is hard to comprehend what is going on and keep lucidity (this also happens in reality with me, thus the drug prescriptions).
Some examples are:
- I created a long stretch of an empty street, with many street lights, and focused upon each streetlights beam of illumination.. and then thanking the light before moving on
- I helped.. something, create a door, and opening it revealed a sky of stars
- Me and another being created a planet
- I manipulated the Earths atmosphere to spin as fast as possible, heal itself.. then implode
My Day Hallucinations
As this is theorised to be confusing lucid dreaming with reality, my self-awareness of this perpetuates the symptons for schitzophrenia and further, unfortunately, induces further day hallucinations.. so believed.
My day hallucinations almost NEVER relate to myself. Examples:
Catalyst:
- I hugged a friend of mine (no faint)
Hallucination:
- Seeing her cry profusely
Catalyst:
- Shaking a mans hand I trained with at a previous job (fainted)
Hallucination:
- A man walking into the job room with a rifle and unloading a fierce burst into everyone
Catalyst:
- Focusing intently upon a busy intersection(fainted)
Hallucination:
- Seeing the intersection carpet bombed, shrapnel and cars attempting to fly out of the mushroom cloud but eventually enveloped into it
Catalyst: (this is my first hallucination that I can remember, when I was 8 years old)
- Watching a movie with family, I zoned out away from the movie and focused on the wall.. listenining intently..
Hallucination(?):
- Hearing a voice whisper to me a date in the future
My Thanks To You
For anyone that took the time to read all of this, my great thanks to you and respects. I appreciate any feedback and your patronage is greatly appreciated in my current life situation.
Thank you,
~ Michael : O'nus[/i]
counselors and therapists
yes, but, a good guide does not tell you how things are, they simply guide you on your own self-discovery. their title doesn't really matter. besides, look at parents for example, how effective is it when they tell us what our problem is and then how to fix it? rarely works.
in my posts, particularly those responding to requests for dream interpretation, i try to hold back. humans have a tendency to say "this is what your dream means" when in all reality, we really don't know. our interpretations of other folks dreams are merely that - interpretation. like i've heard it been said, we are our own best dream interpreters. that's why i'm leary of people on postings (or counselors and therapists) who speak in definates when interpreting someone elses dreams (or life) - be it helpful-hearted or just the human tendency of egotism. i struggle daily to save others from myself. ha ha
anyway. put that in your back pocket. or not.
peace out
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seizures, neurotransmitters
So one of my best friends is struggling with something similar to what you are, but not as severe. She's having visual and auditory hallucinations during waking. She doesn't pass out, but instead, will continue about what she was doing, unaware. Her father had epilepsy and the doctors expect that she is have seizures in her temporal lobe. I am assuming you will have a CT scan or some type of brain imaging done, and perhaps that will help solve the mystery. Anyone in your family have seizures?
Also, if the symptoms you are having are tied in with sleep, it could be that there is an imbalance of neurochemicals going on. During REM sleep, the neurons that produce monoamine neurotransmitters stop firing, that means there is no serotonin or norepinephrine being released. If you are having excess amounts of REM, this could cause an imbalance. These two chemicals are very important in mood, memory and processing of external information. Has your mood been elevated, depressed or stable? All SSRI (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor) antidepressent meds inhibit REM. I'm not big on medication, but I do feel as a last resort it may at least be a consideration.
There is a very interesting book by J.A. Hobson called The Dream Drugstore: Chemically Altered States of Consciousness that discusses and compares psychosis, REM-sleep dreams, and drug-induced psychosis in great detail (really technical, and kind of hard to wade through at some points).
Do you document your experiences? Do you try to make sense of the visions that you have? What kind of emotional response to they illicit in you?
Good luck!
