Trying to regain the 'gift'
My quick story:
Up until the about highschool age, I had the ability to lucid dream. Nowadays, as a senior in college, I only remember the most vivid dreams. I tried once or twice, without a ton of motivation, to start a dream journal. Within a few days I could remember way too much dream information to write in a feasible, college amount of time. So I stopped.
And I'm here to start again :)
I also had another 'ability' when I was younger. I'm not sure what the exact term is, and maybe some of you can tell me, but it is when you are dreaming, but not dreaming. My body became sort of paralyzed and I was unable to move unless I put a ton of effort into it. I could watch everything around me, thought I could be 'woken up.' Once a friend walked in while this was going on, and I, being kind of scared every time it happened, signaled him with my eyes and he came and woke me up.
Eventually I learned that this is the first step to 'astral projection' or 'out-of-body' experiences. So, on two occasions when I became 'stuck' I tried to come out of it but the consequences were scary. The first time I went up and then down really fast, slamming back into my body. The second time I was approached by 'demon heads' though they were very minimalist and geometric, not fantasy/artsy... Maybe this is because the guy who told me about it also warned that it was dangerous and my nervousness was projected by my subconscious... ie like any dream.
To summarize, I used to Lucid dream a few times a week when I was a young kid and I went into the 'paralyzed dreaming' almost every time I took a nap. But now, none of these things really happen anymore.
A few more things about myself.
I do feel morally obliged and also guilty after dreams. I've had a serious girlfriend for over two years and every time I have a sexual encounter in my dream that is not with her, I feel terrible, that I cheated, and I was lucky that it wasn't real. I wake up with a 'Whew!' feeling.
My dream signs include:
1) the inability to run fast
2) the inability to see fully / focus on people and objects
3) co-ed bathrooms
4) my old best freind that stopped talking to me
Lastly, and I guess you can take this as you will, but I remember having premonitional dreams (is that a word? :p ).
On the other hand, this could just be the 'fortune cookie syndrome.'
ie. There are so many things going on in life that most fortune cookies can relate to at least one of them. 'Woah, this fortune... It's so true!!!11!' :)p
