A recurring dream...From a newbie.
It's not the same dream over and over again, but the scenarios are almost always the same kind of thing.
From my viewpoint, I know whatever it is, I am.(confused yet? good, me too.) I'm almost 8 ft tall, covered in dark moist fur, almost as if I'm covered in oxygen poor blood(with some of the things I do in my dreams, I wouldn't be surprized if it is blood). I have long claws and I know I have fangs, I can feel them in my mouth. To my knowledge I never talk, more gutteral growling than anything else. Everywhere I(it) goes, nothing but pain, death, suffering, torture and hatred follow. Most times it is the perveyor of death and one or two other times, it's manipulating someone else to do it. And I see it all. A small voice in the creature pleading for it to stop...it never does, I am typically aware that I'm dreaming. Or at least, I say that in the dream...but control is never there. The creature is very wolf-like, but it's not a "werewolf" or anything like that.
It doesn't feel "nightmarish" in the sense that I never feel terror or fear. Just an abiding hatred, anger, loathing...and separate to the entity, I feel pity, remorse and regret...
Scenario's vary. Typically I'm flying over a field of lights. It feels like I'm searching for something. Once I find it...I speed to the light. Then when I get in...I rip through who ever it is that is there. Torturous measures are usually taken to ensure that the person/creature I see there is properly brought to a quick understanding of pain.
Any thoughts?