Hi (name is Destiny) Natural Sleep Paralysis & Lucid

Hello,

My name is Destiny and I'm 27 years old. I have been having "Sleep Paralysis" since 14 years old. First time it happened and I was freaked out. It stills rattles my bones but I'm not afraid of it anymore but it does make me feel uncomfortable and really tired when I awake. After I stopped being afraid and knew it was just my brain the shadows went away. I have a theory on that as well. I noticed that sometimes if I did see a shadow it was something black like a coat or something laying in my room and my mind made me think it was something bad. So now I make sure not to have those types of things in view when I go to bed. I did not hear the loud roaring sounds until a couple of months ago which I mistake for a scream or yelling and it freaked me out.

Once I had SP I felt as though I Was laying on the floor while having it but I knew I was in the bed (weird) and at the same time the room was spinning but I could not move. I have learned how to snap out of it quickly though and prevent it from happening. I feel it come on very quickly as soon as I fall asleep but I away and jerk myself out of it and it feels like a big snap in my body when that happens. Normally calling out for help in the name that you believe that will save you will snap you out of it. I often call out for God or Jesus. Moving your toes also snaps you right out of it.

I don't think I can naturally drift to sleep in this state because I then get scared about that so I often make myself move again. I once tried to stay sleep and It was too crazy. When it get's to that point I can't take the the heavy vibrating and noise (sometimes..there and sometimes not). Sometimes none of that happens and I just can't move and can barely talk. I would use this to enter Lucid dreams but it takes too long it seems and I get afraid.

I often hear these are traits of outer body and I don't want that. There are some things I feel God does not want us to tamper with but if that's what others do then I don't care but I mean it is interesting to listen to the stories..just not right for me to do that. So how would go into Lucid without going into OBE? go to sleep or keep eye's closed during (SP)?

When I lucid dream..it just happens. When I dream, they are always alive, colorful, and vivid. I know I'm dreaming but I can't control the dream and that's what I would love to do. lol. It feels like I'm looking at movie but I'm aware of myself the whole time and what's around me. Sorta like 3-D. I also have most time 3-4 dreams a night. Some just shift right into the next and If I awake..and go back to bed then bam I'm right back in the same dream. So is this really lucid dreaming? It's just I can't control mine and that's what I need help with. There are also times when I'm too much aware..lol and it's really crazy! lol.

I always remember all my dream at night..but sadly I don't keep dream journal. I once started but stopped because I got afraid and thought I was doing something wrong. Now I think if you choose to do wrong things with this then bad stuff will happen. But because I want to do good things..only good stuff and not scary stuff should happen. There are also things I need to overcome in my waking life..so I figure if I could control my dreams and stop being afraid this would help me.

Sorry for this post being so long but I wanted to give you all an understand about me and my SP and Lucid dreams.

*Since writing this, I have had a Lucid Dream that involved me choosing to fly and me being able to change something I did not like in the dream*

Before falling asleep, I notice myself going into sleep paralysis on occasion. Most of the time the feeling startles me...it seems like there's the presence of someone in my room. So it's definitely normal to feel frightened. There have been a few times though where I've been conscious of what was going on--knowing it was just SP--and just let it take its course.

I get that shaking, vibrating feeling, static noise, and slowly feel my mind falling to sleep. Then it feels like I'm being whooshed extremely fast through a tunnel, and when I come to my senses, I'm in a dream.

I've actually never experienced and OBE, so I can't really tell you how to prevent it from happening. But I suggest that next time you feel yourself going into SP, to just let it take you where it may. God isn't going to let anything bad happen to you. You should take these gifts he's giving you and use them for--just like you said--good things.

About the dream journal, I really can't think of a reason why it would be bad to keep one. But you said you have vivid recollections of your dreams, and that's probably good enough. I remember most of my dreams as well, which is why I don't feel the need to keep a dream journal.

Thanks for replying; I really believe the HH is just of our own brains but I tend to get freaked out when others read too much into it and I start to feel like something is out trying to get me.lol. Once I learned it's just what your brain does; I don't even see anything bad anymore (Thank God).

I don't believe in OBE but I always hear that the traits of Wild's and SP also are of OBE and I don't want OBE..which why I get afraid of stuff.

I guess my biggest fear is that I'm doing something wrong that God does not like (but I'm not trying to use Lucid for bad stuff). I just think it's cool to know one is dreaming and be able to do some fun stuff. I feel as though if I study or keep on with this I will be spiritually attacked and I don't want that cause my intentions are good ones.

Back in the summer I was reading up on a lot of this stuff cause I have had SP since 12 years old and always know I'm dreaming 75% of the time. But at that time my Aunt was passing away and I had a lot of stress in my life..so I think I tripped myself out. I also kept hearing the paranormal aspects of Lucid and SP and people's horror stories. So I got freaked out.

I've always been interested in dreams and I love happy dreams because they make me feel happy but often I'm scared to go to sleep due to the fear of bad dream and SP with HH even though I don't experience HH with it anymore..I always have that fear.

I have even gotten to the point of knowing how to wake myself up just before SP starts and it feels like a big Crash to the body. You know how you jerk when you fall asleep in the car or something and your head is hanging over but this feels much different and 10 times harder.

So I don't know what to do. My first semi Controllable Lucid was great though and I was soooo happy when I awoke it was crazy! but I loved that happy free feeling after waking.

As far as dream journal; yeah I felt bad because of the reasons above which is why I don't like dream interpretation books either. I guess I have been taugh that certain things like that are bad and I'm treating Lucid dream like that as well but maybe I should not cause it's something that happens to everyone.

I'd be writing my dreams for days. I have 4 per night and I remember everything about them! lol.