Originally Posted by
d384
k im new to this site and wanted to share to try to get some feedback on whats going on with my unconscious mind.
i swear i feel that sometimes I astral project myself. I feel like I did when i was a kid as well as an adult...is it for real or is my imagination so strong that its causing this confusion in my brain.
over the course of my life I have had some wicked dreams. Turned into night terrors about 7-8 years ago. I stopped sleeping and developed severe insomnia. Im very chemical sensitive so when the doc prescribed sleeping pills, not only didn’t it work but the next day made me feel super angry. So i stopped the pills. He offered a sleep study in which I passed up.
Before this time I hadn't been smoking marijuana, but started ir up only to one help me fall asleep and 2 stop my dreaming. Needless to say it worked like a charm. After a long time this not only became expensive, but i noticed I didn’t remember my dreams as if I never dreamed anymore. I know everybody dreams but couldn’t remember them.
Well i stopped smoking a few months back and at first everything was fine. Then i noticed I was dreaming again or actually i should say remembering. These dreams were pretty vivid. Lots of stress in my life right now and over the course of the last 2 weeks...ive returned to my old dreaming patterns. Extremely vivid dreams, from very joyous to down right terrifying.
Tonight’s really cut the cake tho...and I needed to share it with someone. I wasn’t asleep long and truth be told literally 45 mins. I didn’t even think i was a sleep and if not i need to know what was going on.
the dream:: i usually sleep with at least 1 light in the house, usually my office. Im a programmer by trade and usually listen to the radio in on my computer. For some reason i thought I had left the radio on and kept hearing music...ive done it a million times before. I felt uneasy as if someone was in my house (i live alone), thinking it was just my own paranoia i just disregarded it. At one point i got up and went through a door opposite my bedroom door...thing is in reality there is no door there, its a window. But it seemed quite natural...Anyway i laid down on the ground outside this door which seemed to be a balcony of sorts...I kept hearing noises...i then rolled a few times got up and closed the door and then closed my bedroom door to get pitch darkness. I laid back down and i could swear that my eyes were open and i was looking at my pillow. I kept hearing noises and felt very uneasy. I heard my printer printing things over and over again...i started getting scared, not knowing what the hell was going on, but didn’t want to get up to check...u know what i mean?!!?!! I opened my eyes again and look at my pillow...i was hearing voices from my office in which again i attributed to my computer. Finally getting sick of it and wanting to shut the computer off I got up...But i really got up and realized that I had not only been asleep that the radio was not on. It kind of freaked me out. ::dream end
I woke up only to come in here and write on this forum and look and analyze some of the dreams I have had over the course of the last few nights...last i was driving a lamborginie and was with a bunch of friends...one of them tried to steal it...long story short that dream made me wake up in a cold sweat....it was filled with violence, anger, loss and desperation...
I cant continue this, i feel in the next few weeks these dreams will turn into full fledge night terrors again causing me to relapse of my insomnia. At this point I cant really smoke so time to talk about it and see what the hell is going on!
ANY help would be appreciated. Thanks for your time and input.
