Alright, I'm asking you guys to help me solve this problem
You see, I've always had a tendency to get SP. When I was younger, they were all almost scary..you know succubus thing and suffocation feeling. Now when I practice attaining lucid dreams I have almost full control of SP and I gain it easily after a wake in the middle of the night.
The thing is I cannot get WILD. When I lay there all paralyzed, full awake, I try to observe my body, focus on any HH occuring and stay aware of the fact that I'm about to fall asleep/ or I'm already asleep.
To convince myself that I'm already dreaming I visualize many things involving movement of my body (while forgetting that my body is paralyzed). So I visualize flying across my room, or running, swimming, or even having sex (with sexy chick obviously :D ) etc.
There are the moments that my body responds and give signs that I'm just about to fall asleep (REM state): my body's tingling/ twitching, I observe change in my breath pattern (I breath faster) and I feel my eyes move involuntarily. Then I keep this thought "I have to maintain state of awareness, I have to be conscious".
When I keep that thought in mind I expect it to work, but instead I cannot get any feeling of "shift/ transition" into state of dreaming. Then I'm aware that my REM is fading away and I regain state of wakefullness.
So I resign and I just forget about necessity of keeping consciousness and then I fall sound asleep, with no lucidity apparent. Still, I get lucid later on during my sleep. So I infere from it that these are just simple DILDs.
I hope you get what I mean, it's hard for me to explain this :P
Do you have any suggestions guys? Thx in advance
