Oh now I look like I'm on facebook or watching videos whenever I'm on the computer.
I'm doing serious business here okay, mother? I'm reading up on dreams! :D
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Oh now I look like I'm on facebook or watching videos whenever I'm on the computer.
I'm doing serious business here okay, mother? I'm reading up on dreams! :D
Fuck, failed doing the pain anchor because I was worried my leg would turn purple LOL. So I tried trapping one of my arms on top of another, but nope. failed. Sigh.
What are you talking about?
An anchor to do a WILD. Something to keep me conscious.
And now I'm babysitting these demon spawns...I mean children while their parents have the time of their life...oh well. (The parents are here, so it really isn't babysitting)
They get so mad when they lose at games like Mario Kart etc. It's so fun to see how their blood pressures rise up like crazy.
And I'm starting to ponder more on the fact that we all die alone. It almost makes loving someone not that big of a deal, it's just to have comfort until you die. That and other factors (passing genes etc.)
But I feel I can have a better relationship with my dreams, which is kind of sad. Kind of makes me empty inside. You know how you're restless, but you don't care, and you're so empty inside, but you don't care about that either? You just turn into a machine. I feel like that right now...
I'm so frustrated and mad right now i wanna rip someone's head off and feed it to a duck.
http://img.diytrade.com/cdimg/533958...lastic_toy.jpg
Duckie want bread.
I want bread too.
http://www.shopatuniverse.com/wp-con...1/12/money.jpg
I want bread too.
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DAYYYYYYYYYYYYUM
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Edit:
You hate your life? I'm still a virgin.
ditto, man.
My grandpa passed away tonight...
I know I haven't posted here in a while but I wanted to say... the stuff I was going on about last time I posted stopped being relevant soon after. I found out he was actually in denial about having cancer. So, he was just being stubborn. And well, it makes total sense that he'd keep smoking if he was sure he was gonna get better. Besides, I couldn't stay mad at him for that, not when his health started to decline... Basically, pretend that post didn't happen. I was being dumb.
I'm sad that he's gone, and I'm going to miss him, but... I'm glad he's not in pain anymore. The past week or so, he may not have been dead but he stopped living, you know. He could no longer be independent, which I know was a huge blow to his pride. Eventually he stopped being able to walk without help, and then, at all. He was slowly fading away... it was painful to watch. So... I'm glad he's not in pain anymore. Really. But... I guess what I'm saying is I don't know how to feel. There is no anger, no remorse, no real grief either, just... emptiness.
http://gyazo.com/acfad6b94b5f7adaebcfc03af17a0ebf.png
Give yo digits gurl.
That's exactly the way I felt for a long time after my mom passed - it took months before I was able to cry, and when I did it all came flooding out and I couldn't stop for like almost an hour. And this five minutes after I found myself laughing almost hysterically over something that made me feel really good for the first time since I discovered she was dying 5 years ago. It was like my emotions were frozen and they suddenly thawed out all at once. Don't worry, it's normal to be in a bit of emotional shock at a time like this And don't feel bad about your earlier post either.
:hug: Link and Erii.
Blah... I slept all day today too :/
I pick up my daughter Destinee by 8AM... if I can't fall back to sleep I'll be exhausted by that point :bang:
Despite having gotten 22 or so hours of sleep these last couple of days, the sleepies hit me fast and I'm passed out and dreaming within 5 minutes.
I've been exceptionally hungry these last couple of days too :wtf: Have I been burning more calories in my sleep than I have been while awake? It makes no sense.
The PS3 stopped working so my oldest boy reformatted it... just when I had restarted Skyrim :bang: I really hate how long the intro is. And I put a lot of time into creating my Cat (Kajit? lol). But I guess it doesn't matter if I can't load the game :roll:
BUT, an anit-rant is that I have 4 packs of cigarettes left out of the carton I bought last Sunday. So I've been averaging less than a pack a day when I usually smoke almost 2 packs a day.
**EDIT**
Major :hug: Singularity. I'm so sorry to hear about your Grandpa.
I was with my grandmother, holding her hand when she passed away. I woke up my mom and then I started cleaning everything. I didn't cry. I don't think I've ever cried IRL and she's been dead for ??? about 7 years now. But I relive her death a lot in my dreams. And in my dreams I have cried for her.
People process loss differently.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q3dtYeH6Wmk
No, they have waffles.
MMmmmmmm waffles...
http://s3-llnw-screenshots.wegame.co...42639531_l.jpg
And you shall receive waffles.