Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

**~~Alyzarin~~** · 03-14-2012 08:59 AM

Fuck me. Yes, I'm a terrinle person a,dn I realize it. Why do I let my,self do stuchj stupid shit whne I know how bait it is? I fucking hate myself. I beteter enojy thjis drunknuenness while it lasts, in te morning I'm going to be so psiosed ay myself and have soos much anxiet.y....

**khh** · 03-14-2012 11:19 AM

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Fuck me. Yes, I'm a terrinle person a,dn I realize it. Why do I let my,self do stuchj stupid shit whne I know how bait it is? I fucking hate myself. I beteter enojy thjis drunknuenness while it lasts, in te morning I'm going to be so psiosed ay myself and have soos much anxiet.y....

I do not believe you. As far as I can tell, you're a very nice person. You seem both kind and friendly. And interesting, not least.

**Zhaylin** · 03-14-2012 11:57 AM

Aly You don't seem, AT ALL, like a terrible person. I hope you feel a bit better after you wake up

Ophelia, yeah. It's been 12 years though

.... No, sheesh, it's been 14 years

I'd kill myself

My rant is that I didn't get to sleep until almost 1AM, but I woke to Meesha laying down on my face and Cocoa trying to get under the covers with me. I then realized it was cold and considered getting up to turn on my heater... but then I realized I should take the dogs outside. And now I'm awake

And now Meesha wont leave me alone. She's such a spoiled girl that she wants to fall asleep while being held. I'll hold her for a few minutes, but then I set her down. She's usually okay with that, but not this morning!!

I'm also ranting because Windows installed updates while I slept and rebooted. Once I signed back in, it warned that I may no longer have permission to run Chrome.

And sure enough, Chrome doesn't work at all. I'm now using Safari. I'll uninstall and reinstall Chrome later... I even tried running it as Administrator.

**EbbTide000** · 03-14-2012 01:18 PM

I was going to stick this phone note in a thread in Beyond Dreaming opened on the 12/Oct/2011 by WakingNomad called, "Ask The Experts" but since it is a, "Rant" I'll stick it here, (unedited).

GavinGill opened a thread called, "Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain", less than a year ago. I found it about a week ago. Right now, it has six-thousand, four-hundred and five posts in it, (that's 257 pages).

I just finished page 109 so only 148 pages to go.

Upto page 109 there have been 120 different posters.

Any way

I just got back from taking a break from the absorbing, "Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain". I went for a walk in the night air to streatch my legs and breathe and I got to thinking.

More brainstorming:

I recon there's a dirty-great Intetnational CONSPIRACY afoot.

THEY don't want ordinary folk to find-out how easy ShareDreaming is.

THEY know how easy it is, so, THEY do whatever it takes to distract ordinary folk from Doing-IT.

I just had that thought as I strolled in the night air.

U wanna know what I think ....

10:44 pm here on Wednesday 14/March/2022 now.

**Linkzelda** · 03-14-2012 03:35 PM

Spoiler for Eh:

This may not be a big rant, but this IS a problem I had when playing MMORPGs like Runescape. Last night, I was hunting implings, caught a kingly within the first 30 minutes, AND a dragon impling, along with crap load of implings that can stack up my cash when I sell them in the GE.

Problem is, I think my Impling Nympho personality is coming back again. This means I'll probably spend a lot of my time hunting these implings while I continue to stack up virtual money, and when I catch a Kingly or Dragon Impling, I just know I'm going to start foaming my mouth in excitement because these little guys sell for A LOT, despite their dramatic decrease after free trade was implemented again.

I'm worried that I'm going to go crazy on these implings, because if you were close to me when I'm hunting these things from my laptop, and you distracted me from catching a Kingly or Dragon Impling, I would not be a nice person towards you.

I think this game is really starting to make me childish, but I need this soo much right now because I have to be serious when I go back to my University anyway, but still, this Nympho mode for Implings is crazy! They're like little animals, and I'm just abusing their right to live!

(do you see the twisted crap going in my mind referring Implings as cute, adorable animals?)

And I love how when I set a magic spell to trap them, and catch them before someone else, and I know I'm going to troll them and say, "YEAH!!!!!! WHAT NOW!>!?!?!?!?! TOO PAL" and it's even more fun seeing them cast a spell to stop them, and I steal their Impling. No matter how much I loathe Jagex, these guys really know how to make you turn into an addict again. I find it funny that I used solo so many bosses, and have like 100 million worth of items at risk, and here I am regressing to a wheat field maze stacking up cash to hopefully do those expensive solos.

And I know I'm not going to be on this game a lot after Spring break is over, but I just can't help but think that I should just hunt these implings!! They're so easy to catch because I no lifed the Hunter skill to 99, and I think I gained over 3-4million exp just by catching them alone after I got the 99.

IMPLINGS IMPLINGS!!!! I MUST CATCH THEM!!!!

This is one of these sides where I'm amazed at my naive and fragile traits, but I guess that's what MMORPGs and video games do to you overall, but I just know it'll be a problem because I might stay up until 1AM just to catch an impling.

@Alyzarin, I wanted to say something to you about that, but I figured I shouldn't, and let you have fun. But

, you're a great person, and I'm not using that as a temporary form of boosting your self-esteem, you REALLY are. You have many layers to yourself, which makes you even more interesting. You're almost never bored of doing certain things, you're knowledgeable in creating so many possibilities with shared dreaming that I'm glad I'm looking for you in my dreams, that way, you can dish out all the possible outcomes to me

@Zhaylin,

OHHHHHH I HATE WHEN WINDOWS UPDATES ITSELF.

That really screws me doing WBTBs for the WILDs that I've been doing poorly in successfully attempting. When I see the logo on the bottom right side of the screen about an update being completed the next morning I wake up, I just get SO MAD lol.

Sometimes I think these updates are just installing random crap that isn't even useful.

**~~Alyzarin~~** · 03-14-2012 05:36 PM

Thanks, guys.

I'm feeling better now. In fact not even hungover, just a bit burnt out. I just got depressed last night, I guess I discovered a not-so-wonderful alcohol combination for myself, though I'm amazed I didn't get sick (catchy rhymes be damned). I started out with beer, then downed a bottle of chardonnay pretty quickly, then started taking shots of vodka, and finally finished off with more beer.

Zhay, I also got a huge windows update last night and this morning my computer wouldn't start up properly, and I had to spend a lot of time rolling it back to make it work again. >:C

**Zhaylin** · 03-14-2012 06:19 PM

DebraJane, I am most impressed. That's a LOT to read lol
But you left the thread without telling us what you think

Link. You are my polar opposite in RS. UNLESS I run into an ass and then I silently fight for the resource or switch worlds (depends on skill levels and whether or not I even have a chance).
If I see someone going after something hard core, I'll usually switch worlds and leave them be.

Aly. Glad you're feeling better

I went back to sleep at around 8AM and slept til noon. I ate my meal for the day, but I'll eat again because it was actually just half. I usually have 2 burritos when I wake up so I can take my meds and that's it. This morning, I only had one.
When I go shopping again, I'm going to pick up some microwave steamable veggies. That's what I've been craving. Some good ole cauliflower.

**EDIT**
When I sat down earlier to eat, we had a power surge. When it rebooted, there was an error so a disk check was highly suggested. I went ahead and sat through it. It took (what felt like) 15 minutes and when everything was up and running, Chrome worked again. So that's my anti-rant

***EDIT***
I keep forgetting to put on pants. I talked to the neighbor yesterday wearing only my leggings (and my shirt OF COURSE lol). I wear them inside out, so the tags were showing and everything. My brain barely works at all. And I just about walked to Exxon without slipping on my skirt first.

I live in leggings. They *could* pass as proper clothing- they're much heavier than tights, but to myself, I might as well be naked

**Linkzelda** · 03-14-2012 06:26 PM

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

DebraJane, I am most impressed. That's a LOT to read lol
But you left the thread without telling us what you think

Link. You are my polar opposite in RS. UNLESS I run into an ass and then I silently fight for the resource or switch worlds (depends on skill levels and whether or not I even have a chance).
If I see someone going after something hard core, I'll usually switch worlds and leave them be.

LOL, I do the "silent treatment" as well on those who are in the same area in the Puro Puro minigame. In fact, I normally have Public Chat off because I know someone is going to say "I CAUGHT A KINGLY!!" to trick me into hopping to another world (but I already know the secret in spawning rare implings).

But yeah, if someone is REALLY motivated in having that world to themselves, I usually leave as well because I know that if there's a bunch of Nature Implings spawning, if I catch them, it means the other person does less work in force spawning better implings, so I'm like "SCREW THIS!" and I change worlds

Catching implings is really something to set myself to get mad at a person catching a rare impling, I just can't help it lol, I was so addicted in training hunter to 99, that I guess it's just a habit for me to be competitive in anything that has to be caught, and what's funny, I get so into this, that I forget to think "This is just a game Brandon!"

But nope, when I see a Dragon impling or Kingly impling, NOBODY is going to stop me from catching them XD NOBODY. Lol, I literally start opening my eyes to keep track of their movements that it's almost sad on my part. And when someone else gets it, I'm thinking in my mind "OOOH I HATE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!" and they're like "trololololol"

And this Loyalty Program Jagex implemented, it's just another way of them saying "HEY, IF YOU DON'T PAY EVERY MONTH, YOU DON'T GET POINTS!!" These guys are really clever bastards!

Anyway, I better go play Runescape, I probably missed 3 Kinglys the time I posted this! (Do you see how this game can make or break me? xD)

**Puffin** · 03-14-2012 08:05 PM

The other student leaders at my school didn't tell me there would be cake this morning. :c

I'm hungry, because I didn't have lunch either.

**Taffy** · 03-14-2012 08:55 PM

I spilled milk ALL OVER my iPad today. I was panicked as I ran to get napkins to clean it up, but thankfully it wasn't damaged. I just had to walk around with a huge spot on my shirt while smelling like milk for the rest of the day. *sigh*

**Carrot** · 03-14-2012 09:18 PM

This can't even amount to a rant but I'm just going to say it nonetheless.

1. Trauma from school is worsening my OCD. When I thought I've cleared the last of my assignments, a new one comes up again. It's not tough and not too tedious, just slightly tedious. A simple thing can probably take up an hour of my time. Imagine what else I can do with that hour that will be much more productive. I've been "ill-treated" in my school. Work done with sweat and blood goes uncredited and unacknowledged. They don't give praise, they only hurl "constructive comments" that are barely helpful. This is the first time in my life I've been scoring that bad. I can't even go to University because of it.

If anyone were to ask me did I regret going to that school, I'll answer "yes" straight away without thinking. But who else do I have to blame other than myself and the fucked up course coordinators. I was warned not to go in but I entered to try a new experience. And a new experience indeed. The lecturers will never admit they are at fault, they never will because of their ego. Why can't they admit they ruined 3 years of our life not trying hard enough to teach? And just admit they wasted 3 years of our life teaching us unnecessary things?

A quote from my friend, when one person start hating another we can't determine who's at fault but if everyone starts hating the lecturers, clearly the problem lies with the lecturers.

2. I'm feeling a little tired all of a sudden. It comes and goes though. Must be because I am single all my life and engaged in one-sided love activities for more than half my life. Just suddenly feel that it's tiring to even look at people. When you look at people you'll start classifying them based on their looks, and if their looks are of a certain standard, you'll start comparing them to the qualities you listed for your perfect match.

But then I know I can't live without people. And in an urbanised and small country like mine, it's impossible to go to any area without humans' presence. I yearn for something that will make me feel at peace. I yearn for a sight that will make me feel this world is still lovely. I yearn for a place that will take away all my troubles because there are so many things to see. And the things are more than just confined by the four walls we face everyday.

We are not made to live in a technological place. That wasn't how humans are when they first exist. I have no idea whether our own creations are harming us or helping us. We don't need money to live, not till someone decides to set a price on food and shelter. But if the world is not as advanced as it is, it is not as easy as it is now to fly to other countries, to increase our exposure in meeting more people, I wouldn't have meet someone I truly like. Yup, that's my only concern. I've a small mind.

Maybe like what my friend had said, I'm probably born in the wrong century.

**tommo** · 03-15-2012 01:50 AM

Originally Posted by Carrot

1. Trauma from school is worsening my OCD. When I thought I've cleared the last of my assignments, a new one comes up again. It's not tough and not too tedious, just slightly tedious. A simple thing can probably take up an hour of my time. Imagine what else I can do with that hour that will be much more productive. I've been "ill-treated" in my school. Work done with sweat and blood goes uncredited and unacknowledged. They don't give praise, they only hurl "constructive comments" that are barely helpful. This is the first time in my life I've been scoring that bad. I can't even go to University because of it.

Constructive criticism is the best kind. Believe me. Most teachers give the most constructive criticism to their best students, or the students they know can be the best, or at least very good.

Shitty teachers suck, yes. Can't really help you there. I wish I'd changed schools now. But I don't completely regret the path I've taken.
I'm not sure which year you are in, is changing schools a possibility?

Originally Posted by Carrot

But then I know I can't live without people. And in an urbanised and small country like mine, it's impossible to go to any area without humans' presence. I yearn for something that will make me feel at peace. I yearn for a sight that will make me feel this world is still lovely. I yearn for a place that will take away all my troubles because there are so many things to see. And the things are more than just confined by the four walls we face everyday.

We are not made to live in a technological place. That wasn't how humans are when they first exist. I have no idea whether our own creations are harming us or helping us. We don't need money to live, not till someone decides to set a price on food and shelter. But if the world is not as advanced as it is, it is not as easy as it is now to fly to other countries, to increase our exposure in meeting more people, I wouldn't have meet someone I truly like. Yup, that's my only concern. I've a small mind.

I completely feel this too. There are definitely positives and negatives with our technological advances. I tend to think we will overcome the downfalls of it eventually.
I just hope we don't destroy all the natural beauty first.

Originally Posted by Carrot

Maybe like what my friend had said, I'm probably born in the wrong century.

You should watch Midnight in Paris.

Oh and I've got a job interview soon.... :S I'm SCARededed

**Taosaur** · 03-15-2012 02:17 AM

So, at the risk of putting my identity one click away rather than the usual google and 2-3 clicks, my web journalism internship has yielded a feature story, and it's doing pretty well. I would loooooooooove for the internship to turn into a regular gig with these guys. The idea of "right occupation" is very appealing to me, and writing for this site would count double because of the helping/useful focus and because it makes use of my skills and strengths. Still, even if this is the only thing I get my name on aside from the daily lists-o-links, it's been educational, and maybe I can spin the exposure into something else.

**tommo** · 03-15-2012 02:41 AM

Should be in the happy and cheerful thread ^

Well done man! That's incredible!
Reading now....

Oh that steering lock lol I got so frustrated the first time I experienced it haha
I accidentally unlocked it because I was pulling on the steering wheel hard, due to anger, and turned it.

Nicely written article!

**Zhaylin** · 03-15-2012 03:31 AM

Carrot. I used to feel that way when I was younger and my oldest boy always says he was born in the wrong century.

Tommo. Much success on your interview!

Taosaur! Great article! Even *I* understood it

I'm going to forward it to my hubby because he's always griping about one thing or another re: his Prius.

I am ranting because I'm so freagin out of shape and I'm so easily motion-sick now-a-days.
I remembered finding something about exercising using a chair a while back, so I youtubed it and found 2 routines: Seated Abs Workout: Chair Exercises for Your Core - YouTube
and Chiseled Chair Challenge - Lose Weight Fast with this Full Body Workout - YouTube

The first one annoyed me most because I tended to reverse the breathing and I didn't feel any tension in my stomach. And for the ones where you bring your elbow or hands across to the opposite knee

I seem to have zero equilibrium these days. (It doesn't help that I'm slightly dehydrated and had only eaten 1 burrito much earlier in the day).
Then I tried the second one

Forget it. I could only get in half the amount, I reversed my breathing and by the 5th minute, I just gave up. Again, I didn't feel any tension in my stomach. But by golly my legs feel worked out.

I sat, relaxed and felt a sharp pang at my central incision

But it's passed.

I'm also annoyed that I STILL have a bruise at the central incision. What the heck?! It's faded and shrunk a LOT, but still... it NEVER takes me this long to heal from a bruise.

And before I even exercised, I took the dogs out and had an incredible pain between my shoulder blades.

Exercising helped that though

**Singularity125** · 03-15-2012 04:01 AM

Bah... why do I have to be so nervous about a Driver's Test? I'm 21, and I've never had my license. And I want to move halfway across the country, so I really need it! My test is on Friday, and though I'm a lot less nervous than last time (where I had to cancel the test >.>) I'm still really nervous. Driving's not the hardest thing in the world, I know, but I hate it so much. It's so insanely stressful, like if I make even one mistake I'll DIE. >.<

**Linkzelda** · 03-15-2012 04:15 AM

Even though I never drove a car (well I did, but it was just for practice), I'm sure having to be conscious of your safety is a big burden to bear, especially when you have others in the vehicle. You know it isn't hard, so just go with that, and just relax.

Just know that you will pass the test, and that you will do well.

It's normal to feel worried about doing well on the Driver's Test, but just imagine yourself in the future with your license, having a good report, and being able to practice safe driving. After that, it'll come naturally, and you can go about your day without having too much stress. If you worry too much on it, you might actually do worse than you think you're doing, but if you know what you're doing, and just make sure you focus on the road and try to be aware of others around you, it won't be a big problem.

I remember my father taking me to an empty parking lot to teach me how to drive one time. He let me drive the car alone, and I was afraid I might damage the car, but if you just be careful (but not too careful to where you forget to accelerate), it's easy.

Just trust in your mind, because after a few trial and errors, your subconscious will do the work for you. It's always a pain at first, but once you expose yourself to it more and more, you're bound to succeed and do it without being to concerned about your overall safety.

And good luck!

**tommo** · 03-15-2012 04:18 AM

Originally Posted by Singularity125

Bah... why do I have to be so nervous about a Driver's Test? I'm 21, and I've never had my license. And I want to move halfway across the country, so I really need it! My test is on Friday, and though I'm a lot less nervous than last time (where I had to cancel the test >.>) I'm still really nervous. Driving's not the hardest thing in the world, I know, but I hate it so much. It's so insanely stressful, like if I make even one mistake I'll DIE. >.<

Hope you pass it! Just remember to focus on the driving. A little stress is good during the test, I think, keeps you alert.

Zhaylin- Has your husband looked at your tattoo? He may know why it's hurting and isn't healing etc.

**Mancon** · 03-15-2012 05:03 AM

**Zhaylin** · 03-15-2012 07:23 AM

I was freaked out a little during my driving test too. And I too was in my 20's before I even drove to get my license. I love driving now. Just stay alert but relax. You can make things worse if you're overly vigilant or tensed and stressed out.

Tommo, the incision I referred is from my surgery. They feel fine except for when I exercised... and that one annoying bruise.

**tommo** · 03-15-2012 07:40 AM

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

I was freaked out a little during my driving test too. And I too was in my 20's before I even drove to get my license. I love driving now. Just stay alert but relax. You can make things worse if you're overly vigilant or tensed and stressed out.

Tommo, the incision I referred is from my surgery. They feel fine except for when I exercised... and that one annoying bruise.

What did you have surgery for? I must have missed that.

Fucking fail in that interview. It was a complete and utter fail, but a fail nonetheless.
The guy was alright, he said it's not a normal 21 question interrogation type interview and he's just gonna bullshit on for a while. lol Something like that anyway.

But he basically said the main problem is that I'm really shy and the people that work there are generally sort of the typical blokey guys/tomboy girls and I probably wouldn't fit in.

I also epically fucked up a couple of the things he asked me.
And he thought that only having two part-time jobs since uni ended over a year ago didn't look very good.
Funny thing was I only have one job, and the other one I listed was from years ago.
I told him that

But said I was also looking for other courses I was interested in as well during that time but then I realised how much I have to pay and so am looking for a job now etc.

But he did say that there was another job he thought may suit me and he may ring me about it or to look out for the next job opening.
So there's hope. But I guess I'm going to keep looking for another job now.

WHY do I have to be some god damned socially fucking retarded!?!?!????
I know the answer, both my parents are. My mum's gotten better, my dad is still basically autistic.
Bring on gene therapy!
*siiiggggggghhhhhhhhh*
Now I'm high, smoked a little when I got back so I'm not too annoyed at my failure at the moment.

**Zhaylin** · 03-15-2012 08:17 AM

On the 24th of February, I had my gallbladder removed. They did laser surgery so I have 3 incisions along my stomach and a bigger one in my navel.
I drove myself home the day after and I had the bandages off 4 days later because the tape gave me a massive rash.
There's one incision almost where my ribs meet and that's the one that has a bruise above it. It also has the biggest knot.
I see the Doctor on the 19th.

Sorry it went so poorly. Hopefully something will open up or you can find something even better.

**Carrot** · 03-15-2012 09:25 AM