My sleeping patterns are so messed up right now. I can't get to sleep before 4 - 5, and of course then I never manage to get up before 12 - 13, which leads me to have trouble falling asleep again next night and so on and so forth. It's annoying.
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My sleeping patterns are so messed up right now. I can't get to sleep before 4 - 5, and of course then I never manage to get up before 12 - 13, which leads me to have trouble falling asleep again next night and so on and so forth. It's annoying.
I wonder how many bribes it would take to get medical marijuana legalized here. Better start buyin' those lotto tickets....
Get used to it, if it's your personality then it sticks with you. Not even kidding, I was the exact same way in school and people still start pouring their hearts out to me the day I meet them. It does get easier though, I just like seeing people happy so I don't really mind these days. :)
Or you could always become an ultimate hermit like me and not have to worry about the pains and woes of others :?
But it is nice to help and see people smile. Don't feel bad if you need to retreat from time to time though!
And lol, I HAVE to rant about *something* when I come here :cackle:
I understand sleep troubles, Khh. I hope yours pass quickly!
Since I noticed a big rusty nail punctured both the tire and the tube within it a few days ago, I went to the nearest Bicycle Store to get a estimate on how much it costs for labor to replace the tube and tire, along with actually buying one.
The guy declared that it's around $32.99 at most for ONE tire (bullshit), $16.99 for a cheaper one, and $6.99 for a really cheap one.
Labor costs $17+, LOL, I can just attach the tubing and tire myself for free, the only costs is a bit of sweat and hands covered in black oily substance. I checked Walmart for a cheaper tire tubing, and the one closest to me (nearly 8 miles away) is OUT OF STOCK.
I have no problem walking to lectures and labs, just 5-10 minutes to get there, but when I get this rear tire fix, I need to start appreciating my bicycle more, no matter what girly it might look in design. If I didn't go through the shortcut near my apartment to save taking a huge right turn, this wouldn't have happened.
I planned to devote Friday to do Laundry, let the clothes wash, get some groceries, go back to the laundry and wait for the clothes to dry off. That way, I have All of Saturday and most of Sunday, where I would then wake up at 5 AM until midnight if I freaking have to in order to study for the Organic Chemistry and Math Exams I have next Tuesday.
And within that time span of Saturday and Sunday, I would study for the Organic Chemistry Lab, so I don't fuck up and pay attention to my TA, who obviously made me waste more time when I had everything in order for filtration. (Who ever knew that not following directions, and going by what you studied for was the best thing to do? Pfffft)
Now I have to probably get at least $16.99 out of my pocket just for ONE tire and tubing, and there's no way in hell I'm going to pay an additional $17 bucks for labor.
Just because one rusty nail punctured my tire...just one small little thing screws up my whole planning. Just one...small..nail. No more offroad bicycle short cuts for me.
I've had a stress-free week for once after that horrible lab experiment, and now things are starting to collapse again. I'm so horrible at being calculated with things. These few anomalies are getting out of hand now.
I have a rant.
After my mild depression cured, I've lost my ability to love because I never want to be sad again. Thus I've lost my ability to be sad too. You know it's a weird feeling when one can't be sad. My life is filled with slight moments of happiness and consisted most of the time with doubts, boredom and a dull feeling. It's like my feelings are trapped, I chose to lock up my emotions for anyone I might hold a torch for. I am not happy, I am not sad, I need my emotions back, I want ups and downs in my life not this constant mundane feeling.
:hug: Link and Carrot.
I'm glad your week went well, Link, until your bike mishap. It seems like a small thing (yet annoying) and you're more than capable of handling it with ease :) And by small I do not mean petty or insignificant. Just think of it as a speed bump before another wonderful week :D
Sounds like a crazy weekend though! You guys don't have problems with people stealing your laundry?
:crying: for Carrot. I know that feeling all too well. Fortunately, in my case, it never lasted long. You seem like a very emotive (?) and caring person. It's actually very hard to kill off something that's such a huge part of who you are. Perhaps you just need a rest and the absence of emotions to appreciate them more?
That's one thing I always hated about anti-anxiety/anti-depressant meds. They normalize me lol. I think that's why I've been pushing myself to stay up for days on end for the last month or so. It's how I was before meds (minus the creativity :? Curse you technology!)
I hope you start feeling more alive and happy (and in love) very soon :zocks: :clairity:
My rant is: At, I don't know, maybe 4AM, I asked my son if it was raining. He said no so I figured my AC was just making noise.
A couple hours later, I have to go pee and enter a flood and a soaking wet bunny. :bang: Mr. Cuddlebug decided to nibble on the hose to the toilet :roll: I asked him why he didn't thump, but he didn't seem to want to grace me with a reply :D Cuddlebug ALWAYS thumps his back legs if he's worried or annoyed about something. Then again, perhaps it was part of his evil scheme to get me to mop the bathroom and he was quite happy with his accomplishment :cackle:
In any case, I now have to look for a new hose. I thought I would have to buy it until hubby reminded me that we have 2 other toilets here that aren't being used. I can just take one from those :)
Another sort of rant is that I see my daughters tomorrow from 3-6. I was too late scheduling anything for the weekend, but thankfully, they had an opening for tomorrow.
This will be the second of my third night without sleep. If I give in and sleep tonight, I'll sleep all day tomorrow and perhaps oversleep :? But if I skip sleep, I'll be dead to the world during the visit.
I also waited to long to do my laundry today. I only did one load and it didn't dry all the way. If I stay up, I need to get some more done bright and early in the morning tomorrow!!!!!
Thanks Zhaylin :hug:, I managed to fix it, and I was lucky to get the right size and tubing, but had to pay $26 bucks just for one tire when I could've gotten one for $10-$15 somewhere else, but because I have to go to places that are a little far away for walking distance from each other, I had no choice. :( But oh well, more time for me to take care of other things. :)
No, not at all, it's really an inconvenience for that person if they wanted to do that. People just want to get their clothes washed, dried, and leave. :PQuote:
Sounds like a crazy weekend though! You guys don't have problems with people stealing your laundry?
So my brother comes home for ONE day and decides to drive that car that is primarily of my use. He drives like a maniac (I've ridden with him) and beats the shit out of anything.
Somehow the radiator decided to spring a leak while he was driving for that very short 5 miles (which he was very LATE, so obviously he was flying across train tracks as usual.) I now have to repair a radiator that was broken through no fault of my own, just like the brakes that weren't my fault, and the gas that he used that I paid for, and EVEN THE WINDSHIELD WIPERS don't work I don't even know how that's possible.
And I can't simply "not let him borrow it" because my mom owns the car. I'm only responsible for gas and repairs, but when I didn't FUCKING break the shit, I get a little pissed when HE breaks it and I have to pay. As usual. I think I'm turning into one of those people who refuses to let anyone borrow anything and people give them weird looks even though that person has a VERY legitimate reason.
Left my laptop at my friends, gonna be gone for a couple days I guess. :(
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I'm trying to make this - it's an origami fractal star. It's deceptively tricky..
so a few months ago my boss informed me we were getting another person on our shift. I complained then because that would mean I'd loose about 60-70% of my daily work. Nothing happened.
So two weeks ago, the new person started on our shift. Aaand... I've lost about 60-70% of my work. Which sucks. I like staying busy at work. Now? I've got barely anything to do. It's not like I really have anything to kill the time with either. No desk, no chair, no music, no books phones, nothing. I'm standing on a factory floor. I have a computer, but only work-related programs and no internet.
AAAND, the new girl is taking all my overtime. Our boss is on vacation until Monday, so she's been going through his replacements (and they have no clue what they're doing). All of us got together to figure out who would work this weekend (along with the 2nd shift foreman for the building). He decided that one other guy plus myself would come in. A few hours later... she apparently called one of our replacement supervisors and knocked me off because technically it's not "her" department. Even though she doesn't know how to cover any other departments. And even though I have more experience and have been at the company for much longer than her....
It's just really annoying, because I actually really liked my job. The last two weeks, I've absolutely hated it.
May have been a mistake bringing friends over to our apartment today... There's a broken chair in the kitchen, paper towels all over the places and the place is just a goddamn mess.
My ache is starting to worry me thanks to hubby. It's a strange, dull ache. Sometimes it seems like it's about where my kidneys are but lately it higher near my lungs. It's not PAINFUL, it's just really strange. Without thinking, hubby said the word "Pleurisy" and now I think I have lung cancer :P
(Not too seriously though lol). I finally just sat at my desk and started pushing on my side. It's very , very sore to the point I was sure there would be a huge bruise there (along my ribs at my right side). I looked in the mirror and the area looks a little inflamed (puffy-ish, like it's retaining water).
I checked my left side and sure enough, it feels bruised there too but it's barely noticeable even to touch.
If I trace the bottom of my breast toward my back, the discomfort is most obvious below my armpit. What the heck did I do lol I've not been boxing or carrying anything heavy :roll:
:hug: everyone
i wonder how many embassies will be attacked before the rest of the world figures out what American already has
Maybe you should ask your husband to look at it? Or your other doctor.
It could be pleurisy, just inflammation or whatever, but google tells me that's usually a sharp pain when you breathe in, not a dull ache.
I've had a similar thing and it turned out that the muscles were just sore, and around there it really hurts because they're moving when you breathe or basically anytime you move.
Ok.... rant:
My boss just told me she's pregnant. So, what do I say?
Well, first I was just like "Are you!?" and she said "yeah :D"
So.... what do I say?
"Cool"
WHAT??! Cool?????
Anything else would have sufficed, "congratulations!", "oh that's great!", "wow, when did you find out?"
Nope, I say "cool".
h....just....
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@Zhaylin: Hopefully it's nothing
@tommo: That's not so bad, seems a perfectly reasonable response, especially if it's someone you don't know really well.
Sleepy.
Yeah, nothing adds up pain wise. On a scale from 1-10, the discomfort is at worst a 3. It's just constant and has been constant for at least a month now. I have no rasp or wheeze, no shortness of breath- nothing like that.
I can never get a "good" breath though. I always have to yawn. That's my MAIN symptom of anxiety though.
I thought discomfort in my *kidneys* made sense because I've been abusing the heck out of caffeine. I've been taking anywhere from 400-1200 mg a day and the discomfort started at around the same time. But if it's really my lungs who the heck knows lol.
As for Doctors... I don't tend to see one unless my pain is a continuous 8-10 lol. Hubby hates paying my doctor bills and I'm sick of Collections calling me all the time, so I just don't go anymore.
I really frickin need to though. I've not had a female exam in close to a decade :O
lol at your reaction. Sounds completely like something I would say :cackle:
Rant: Way back when psychedelic drugs were really just starting to enter the public eye, many research company and military experiments were aimed at figuring out how to change the structure of Δ9-THC to alter its activity profile and metabolism for many reasons, such as to understand the structure-activity relationships with cannabinoids' psychedelic potential and to develop new non-lethal incapacitating chemical warfare agents. Among the new synthetic analogues that were developed, those that derived from the structure of Δ3-THC, a non-natural isomer of Δ9-THC, seemed to be the most promising. One of the chemicals in this family is 1,2-dimethylheptyl-Δ3-THC, or DMHP. This cannabinoid and many of its isomers underwent extensive military testing and was found to be useful as it creates a higher ratio of effects like lowered blood pressure than Δ9-THC at equivalent levels of psychological effects and so it would more easily sedate its chemical warfare victims, but it was still found overall to be extremely safe with a ratio of around 2000:1 median lethal dose to median effective dose. DMHP also demonstrates a longer half-life than Δ9-THC, with oral doses potentially lasting two or three days at regular doses, something that cannabis preparations can only achieve at very high doses. Within the same group of synthetic cannabinoids there were two other chemicals that demonstrated an even longer duration, claimed to have lasted at least five times longer than all other tested compounds, including DMHP. The most significant of these two, at least to me, is 1,2-dimethyloctyl-Δ3-THC, the next furthest analogue from DMHP.
Complaint: Why do we have to put up with this crap like JWH-018 that can cause dangerous side effects and lasts like 30-45 minutes max when there are such wonderful synthetic cannabinoids like this in existence? :blue: At least five times longer? Than two or three days?? Drugs don't need to last that long, but they do, and I love it. Now if only people would actually bother to make the good ones. *sigh*
I just had a 5x deja vu loop while I read that. Gotta love when you have continuous deja vus that persist even when you start thinking "I'm having a deja vu, omg I also remember having a deja vu and thinking that aaaaa it keeps happening"
Anyways I agree. I've wanted to try some psychedelics for a long time now, but I haven't felt like I could because of the way the whole drug scene is fucked up by laws and what-not. Annoying. I mean in my case I haven't tried anything, but to think that if there weren't all those crazy laws, I wouldn't just be able to try them, but there would be so many different things.
My complaint, which I just realized I had, is that I feel weak. Whenever I do exercise, I do it with a friend, and he's a always a few steps ahead, it feels pretty annoying when it feels like I can't get anywhere and I keep having to take weights off after he's used it. And everyone around me seems to know some type of martial art? Lately, after my sudden obsession with movement and acrobatics, I've been feeling bad about being so behind everyone else and seemingly without having any way up. I'd like to learn acrobatics and capoeira, but, how in the fuck?
Also, my friend hinted that he's getting so annoyed at the kids that he wants to go somewhere else to do our training elsewhere. Argh. That'd be the worst thing. Those days, seeing those two girls, the random cheerful playing around... It's literally the sole thing making me happy lately. It is so incredibly noticeable - I'll be a totally different person one day, really talkative, energetic, Yes-man like, the next day I'll be irritable and unresponsive. Bluh bluh bluh.
I haven't cut for a week, I'm so proud :D
Thanks Levi, Tom, Stella, Brandon, Clair, Ryan, ella and ofcourse everyone from dreamviews. :armflap:
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What has America figured out that the rest of the world hasn't?
Now imagine that but lasting at least 10-15 days and you'll have a good idea of the situation. :rolleyes:
Have you ever thought about trying morning glory seeds? They're legal and really easy to get. They're not generally as powerful as things like LSD and mushrooms but they can be pretty strong if you take enough, definitely enough to get a good taste of what tripping is like.
My day has actually been pretty good, so I'll be raving. I got the internship position I applied for, I did really well on my last exam, and I have a wedding reception to attend tomorrow.
Unfortunately, the final episode of Legend of Korra isn't working. I've been cliff-hung.
Ahhhhhh no! What? You don't want lowered blood pressure as a side effect. Unless you have high blood pressure of course.
JWH causes way low blood pressure and panic attacks. That's not a good thing.
Give me wholesome Cannabis any day. Fuck synthetics and trying to make it better. You can't make it any better. Of course you can mix the compounds from the plant to different ratios, but that's about it.