Ok. So... what do you guys think about him telling me about that dream? Any thoughts? Anything that might pull me out of worrying about it so much so that I can just focus on my paper?? It's driving me nuts.
You know, if he was that guy that was nice to you, thoughtful of you, tried his best to learn from his mistakes, learn your mistakes, help you improve on them, and just try to make the relationship the best way both of you can make it through comprises, if he told you a sex dream, yeah, you could give him some slack.
But this is a guy who's threaten to hurt you, almost hurts your child, throws you off like nothing and hangs out with his friends, clearly has a superiority complex (I mean come on, your family practically gives you two everything, if not, most of the necessities, and he acts like he's the only one sustaining the whole family (IIRC, you mentioned it in a different post).
Now, if you want your body inspected by a Fox Mulder, a Female Body Inspector, I mean FBI agent, you go ahead and do that. Enjoy every moment of it, get that Kansas body satisfied anyway you can, because clearly, that jerk doesn't see a hot body and face when he sees one. He also doesn't see a considerate young female who cares so much for her children, and still has the decency to love a cruel, inconsiderate jerk.
I'm sure you're still holding on to him for the sake of the children, and that's understandable, but if he goes into detail on how the lady is sexy, and to me, he doesn't seem he is really into dreaming, but just takes advantage of you being serious in analyzing your dreams.
Look honey, the shit that goes on in his head, you don't need to analyze it, it's shit. You should know that, especially the bullshit you have to put up with him in the first place. You on the other, your mind is clearly just fine, nothing crazy or messed up about it. You're just trying to be sane as possible, trying to get a job, trying to have some kind of path in your life, you're trying to move forward.
This guy on the other hand, is moving backwards, even going so far to start insulting you with his sex dreams. Like seriously, you ever look at how cute and hot you are in those pictures? Not to be a creep, but I'm pretty sure other guys are bottling up their positive honest opinion about you.
You clearly have more enticing traits, along with good looks. I'd say that guy has a case of Incompetent Shit.
I don't mean to insult him like that, he is your partner, but is he the man you thought he was when you met him for the first time? Honestly, do you think he's going to change when he's went over the limit SEVERAL times? It's going to take some major rehabilitation for him to get anywhere being worthy to have a nice looking Kansas female like yourself with respectable motherly attributes.
He's just thinking about these sex dreams because in my opinion, feel he's running out of options, he's going to sound like a broken record to you. The guy basically did things to the extreme, he's just going to make things redundant. Same arguments over and over, and you trying to find the good in him somehow, but I'm pretty sure he isn't the man he was before.
Focus on your paper, don't worry about him. Concentrate that finishing that paper is important than dealing with these constant petty arguments he tries to give you. You're a smart girl because you focus on getting as many points as possible, you obviously want to work hard for it, so do that.
Get what's important first. And if you want to get a job, take the job. If he tries to restrict you from getting one, fuck him. Just go for it. Clearly he doesn't know that two people having jobs would be a good thing financially. How you go about making sure your children are taken care of if that happens, that's up to you of course.
If he's strongly rejecting you doing that, clearly he's has an issue in trying to sustain the alpha male status of being the one with a consistent job. So if you get one, what's that going to make him?
Equal. No matter how he tries to use his superiority complex on you, he'll still be equal, just like you in the relationship. Don't think he's going for equality. I don't know your personal situations as to why you have to stay with him (other than possibly for the sake of the children), but you keep those a secret if you want to.
Focus on the goal, your paper, finish it, and just do your best.
As for his dream analysis, I'll give you an analysis: His mind is going into shit, I'd even assume he's had thoughts of cheating fantasies. We all know how he'll end up. I'm not trying to instill paranoia or anything, but with him, to me, anything is possible as an act of desperation.
I don't know how he looks, and/or whether or not he can get females easily, but with someone like you, he must've worked really hard to get you, or you were being extremely generous if he played the moves on you. Just look at you, you're obviously a good-looking Kansas girl. (and if you're not born from Kansas, my apologies, just *insert location of birth here*
That's all there is to it cutie.
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Rant: I was riding my bicycle back to class, and this girl seems to be gearing towards me with her bicycle, I try to dash by, but she dashes too. We crash a little, and she's like, "Sorry Bro."
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Then I have this attractive Indian girl, who I sat next to because all the seats except for this one on the side were filled. I hate it went females accidentally hit you, and it's just a small contact, and they're like,
"OH MY GOD, CALL 911!! ARE YOU OKAY??!?!? I'M SO SORRY!"
It's okay. Seriously. I'm just a stranger, I'm not bleeding, you accidentally bumped my elbow.
Elbow, are you fine?
Elbow: I'm sorry what? I was busy suffocating as you brace me on the desk. Oh, a girl hit me? Lolwut? Okay Bro.
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I need to make a 85-95 on this next Organic Chemistry Exam, and at least a 66.7 on the final to get a D in this class. If I can get a D, just a FUCKING D, I'm going to be happy. SO HAPPY.
So many concepts, but I shouldn't panic, just take them one step at a time. Chapter 11 is going to be a bitch, but I seriously need to stop whining and just do what I can. >.<
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