Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Same here, Sefalik. Why do people decide everything last minute? It's not just friends, my parents are no better. Nowadays I do my own thing. If it's anti-social, so be it.

I get that too Sefalik. It's hard to do anything I dislike without a few days' notice. I'm not against spontaneously deciding to drink though.

A lot of my facebook posts link noteworthy news articles that I figure probably get ignored by the mainstream like the abundant rape in the military and the NSA protests and stuff. I just realized my friends and family overseas probably get the impression Americans are super informed and politically active :\

Best of luck on your test Gigabyte!

Woblybil... I'm finally sick of the cold as well. Our pipes are frozen again today. But today should be the only day, thankfully.

Ophelia. I'm jealous lol. Tomato soup and grilled cheese sounds very good right now

Sefalik, after awhile I think I'd start feeling a bit slighted and offended. If people aren't considerate enough to think ahead, then don't bother. I mean, some spur of the moment decisions are fine and good but if they're consistently doing stuff like that, I'd soon start withdrawing from their company period. Not out of spite, but because I hate chaos and they'd cause me too much anxiety lol

My rant is that I've been back to smoking my usual. I guess I have zero willpower when I'm sick. I'm starting to feel better, though, so I'll get back on track soon enough I just have to remember to buy more decongestants tonight. I don't have an ear infection (no inner ear pain, no fever) so it must be my allergies or something. My equillibrium is completely shot. And because of that, I'm lightheaded and nauseous.
Another rant is that even though I slept for nearly 12 hours, it was crap sleep for the most part. I froze and slept curled in a ball until my legs cramped and I wanted to stretch out... but when I did, I'd freeze and curl back into a ball

A rave is that, although I had crap sleep, I had some awesome dreams. I dreamed I was pregnant with multiples but I gave birth at different times- not all at once, so the babies were spaced in age from months to years My RL kids were all in State custody and younger and I told someone that I swore to God that I would move to another state before I let them have these other babies. I kept worrying the babies I carried had died, so I'd push on my stomach until one kicked- just as I did irl.
I love pregnancy dreams

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Oh yeah. Question for Tommo. I never let the tank on my clearomizers completely run out. I went to fill up earlier and I noticed the old stuff smelled like alcohol lol. Is that normal/unhealthy/? I've been using a couple of these for almost 2 months.
I'll definitely see about picking up one of those jewelry cleaners tonight!

Ophelia. That's what I had yesterday (was tempted by the pic)

Zhaylin, you love pregnancy dreams? And multiple babies? I'd probably have a heart attack if I have a dream like that.

I joined the DV skype group. When are the rest of you coming?

I'm worried I'm going to fail everything. I spent my weekend doing some serious revision, so much so that I made myself so stressed and ill that I couldn't physically function on Monday and still only got 8 out of fucking 25 on my Chem test why the hell?! Urgh. I'm just feeling so shitty at the moment, ended up having a panic attack that I was gonna fail life yesterday, broke down crying, then I did some work, got much better on a practice test, then shit kicked off at lunch and my friends walked out over the whole Vegan scandal and I burst into serious tears because urgh. It's all my fault and I'm a shitty person and I just can't do thise whole people thing anymore but at the same time I want someone to love me or even just want me, y'get me?

Did two more practice tests yesterday, went from 75% to 68% to 44%. Oh.

In other news I was asked if I was baked this morning. Never been high in my life. Not sure how to take this.

Two days later and still my wrist hurts like a** from the martial arts training...Same goes for my arms really but I can ignore that

Sometimes it's just too rough there but hey that's the name of the game

Wishful, your revision probably got too serious. I believe in a bell-curve graph with how much I study on the X-axis and how much I score on the Y-axis. That's how it works. After a point, it stresses me out and makes my performance worse. More practice will only mess up what I already know.
Don't worry, you'll do just fine.
What's the Vegan scandal?

Originally Posted by Wishfulthinker

It's all my fault and I'm a shitty person and I just can't do these whole people thing anymore but at the same time I want someone to love me or even just want me, y'get me?

I'm 100% sure that someone atleast wants you.Don't be so cruel to yourself! There is no reason why you would be a shitty person...

Talking about tests... I just did a beautiful physics exam... not that beautiful... OH DAMN REALLY? My face probably was like when I saw the exam. I was really like ''Did I pick the wrong exam?''

Wishful, don't worry about it so much. I've had similar moments lately in which I think I fail at everything. Maybe try zooming out a bit. Revise your studying methods. One test is usually not that big of a deal. Strangely I find that when I stop taking things like school so seriously, it becomes a lot easier to do well.

I literally just got out of an exam myself 20 minutes ago. It was absolutely terrible. My other two midterms I think I did relatively well on - 92% in the easier one. But this one... after years of taking exams I'd expect myself to know how to manage my time. We had 45 minutes and I spent the first half trying to do the hardest question, because I wanted to get it over wtih. WTF was I thinking? I know that isn't the right strategy. Do the easy ones first. I know that. Honestly I'm not sure what I was thinking exactly. I know the 'get the hard one over with' scheme that one's mind automatically comes up with is a trap. But I fell for it and I'm almost sure I failed that test, or came close to it. And it's the questions that I knew how to do which I didn't have time to even look at (past realizing I could do them). I guess I wanted to do them last because I knew they were easy and wanted to get the bad parts over with, but it didn't work out that way.

At least the first midterms are all over with now, and after a couple weeks of almost constant stress due to having stuff due or midterms within 1-2 days continuously. That's over for about a month, as long as I don't procrastinate on assignments and such. I guess this test was only worth 12.5% of my final grade... so even if I got 50%, that would only be 6.25% off, which can be a whole letter grade but it could be worse. It's still possible to do well.

I'm beginning to think that the phrase "it's better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all" is actually bogus.

Without anything special or wonderful to compare it to, even a lifetime of loneliness would seem much more bearable.

Maybe I'm just looking at it the wrong way, but thinking about even the happy memories makes me sad.

Anju. I absolutely adore pregnancy dreams. The four times I was pregnant were some of the best times of my life. I had no extra body fat so as the babies got bigger and would push against my stomach, I could make out the lines of a foot or a fist It sounds freaky and alien, lol, but it was incredibly amazing.
I never did have multiples IRL though. That would have been something else!!

To continue weird dreams, last night I dreamed I had really long hair and someone cut it in an unusual fashion so they could use my hair (still on my head) as if strings on a violin. It even made music

Wishful. You don't seem like a shitty person in the least! Sorry about testing and drama

Cold Crisis Be careful Are your wrists sore from blocking?

Acatalephobic, part of me agrees with you very much.

No real rants for me today.
A rave is that our plumbing thawed this evening. I've also learned a new crochet stitch Interlocking Crochet called Interlocking where you work with two different colors. It was a bit tricky at first, but I've finally gotten the hang of it I'm making a throw for one of my daughters and afterward, I'm going to try the zigzag pattern for myself

I tried. ...and tried... ...to get someone to come over and get "snowed in" with me. I offered free beer, free bacon, and free sex. ...but, here I sit with a beer and my mouse in my hand.

God, I never feel rested. Go 4 hours of sleep at a time and I feel just as bad as when I sleep for 12. The only time I feel rested is maybe an hour after waking up, then the exhaustion sets in again. Exhausted exhausted. Even thinking is too much effort sometimes. Breathing is a lot of effort sometimes. I wanted to get it checked by a doctor but the doctor told me I'd have to give up my tea and computer for like 2 weeks, and like hell I'm doing that.

My Achilles Heel has been seizing up for the past week. Try walking on that shit every day, + driving a standard vehicle. Oh well, Ill keep hydrated and ingest some calcium, hopefully it's all better soon

SIDE NOTE: Something to be pleased about, 100th Post! Training wheels are off Hahaha

Soulless, maybe you should research some techniques to try and improve it yourself? I'm sure there's probably a lot of bullshit on the internet about it but maybe you might find like a little nugget of gold that might help you. If it doesn't then.... well you might have to learn to live with 2 weeks of hell. Sorry! D:


Validus - That sounds awful! D: My arches keep aching like mad for the entire day and it's excrutiating so I just hobble around like a bit of weird dancing elderly, then I'll go to sleep and they'll be fine for a few days/weeks and then it'll happen again and it's a nightmare. I can't imagine how much that sucks to have it happen for a week at the time. Here's to wishing the calcium works out!


Thanks to everyone for the stuff you guys said. I'm too lazy and exhausted to go through and reply to every one of you (I'm sorry. )


Ah yes, the Vegan scandal...

Essentially someone joined our friendship group this year and he so happened to be vegan, not a problem until he forced his opinions down our throats and informed us that we shouldn't donate to cancer charities, heart disease is self inflicted, a wool coat is as bad as raping (a sheep, something he didn't mention the first time he sarcastically said 'but rape is okay'....) and that vegans are superior so by eating meat and consuming milk etc I have lost my right for equality and cannot be compassionate (Jesus wasn't vegan, just saying.) Yeeet he wears leather shoes because he bought them before he was a vegan.... logic appears to be lacking here.

After a few months of this I tired and an altercation has arisen and I may or may not have ended up having a stand off in the corridor with this guy and now there may be a lot of tension and unease within the group. Oops. #SorryNotSorry seems appropriate here...

Translation: It's okay to exploit people, just not animals. Where does he buy his clothes? Who grows the food he eats? Does he really believe he's made no moral compromise to live in this society? Correct me if I'm wrong but Wales still imports from factory farms, and sweat shops, right?

A friend of mine was in a car accident at 18 and turned vegetarian afterwards, but for the opposite reason as this person you're talking about, he did so because the accident was profoundly humbling and he figures he's not so special that anything should suffer or die so he can live.

My conclusion: We're a sorry lot and it's good to make changes to stop your individual contribution to world suffering, etc, but humility is the greatest change I think any of us can make. It's false superiority that enables us to exploit others to begin with.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Anju. I absolutely adore pregnancy dreams. The four times I was pregnant were some of the best times of my life. I had no extra body fat so as the babies got bigger and would push against my stomach, I could make out the lines of a foot or a fist It sounds freaky and alien, lol, but it was incredibly amazing.

So, the outline of the foot is actually visible! I thought the pics I saw were photoshopped. I'm tokophobic.

Oh great..tomorrow is Singles Awareness Day.

I did not know that women often have those kind of dreams...Well okay somehow I never thought about it.It's something I cant really imagine but oh well,that's how my brain is wired.

Tomorrow isn't only singles awareness day,it's more like "Let's rub it into everyones face and be a complete D about it"
I'm already pissed about it although it's not that day yet.Grrrr....

Yeeet he wears leather shoes because he bought them before he was a vegan.... logic appears to be lacking here.

HAHAHAHA! No doubt, logic seems to have sailed off long ago.

Oh. Well shit. I just posted to my friend about hot guys at the gym.

One of the guys is her friend and saw the post.

Oh.

Fuck.

Well, I'll just, go.... xD

Lately I've been noticing how shallow people are, the way they act and why they act that way. How to influence it, etc... I like being by myself. I constantly see people projecting their insecurities on other people who are believed to be of lesser social value, but actually, it's the other way around. Sometimes I wonder what makes reality, I've yet to discover that.

Everyone has a gap in their heart and you can never fill it up, I have a hard time accepting that. However I have been doing my best lately, but it's still not enough and I know it... I need to ditch playing video games and focus on other things. Do the things I really want to do you know? Play the piano again, draw more often, get back to kickboxing, find a job and study. I'm running as often as I can now at a nature park, it's beautiful and I really enjoy doing that. Sometimes I stop and thank it for having me as part of this reality.

Also, a guy who I've hung out with for 9 years is not my friend anymore. I'm following a different route now, and he doesn't suit anymore. My only friend is, and will always be my sister. It's not like me and this guy aren't officialy friends anymore, but I have a feeling deep within that tells me we aren't for each other anymore, and I trust my instincts. So I am pretty much avoiding him now.

Originally Posted by Wishfulthinker

Oh. Well shit. I just posted to my friend about hot guys at the gym.

One of the guys is her friend and saw the post.

Oh.

Fuck.

Well, I'll just, go.... xD

If he made the connection then you've probably just made him feel really good about himself. Be glad that you might have made someone feel that way, rather than embarrassed.