Originally Posted by
Crashyy
For the past few weeks, I tried going to the school counselor but I just couldn't because I was too afraid.
I have PE tomorrow which means that I'll have to wear a t-shirt. And I cut myself last week so everyone will find out.
My friends will probably notice and so will the teachers. I'm not allowed to wear a jacket or anything with long sleeves.
And I really have to go to school tomorrow. :( I tried putting on some nivea (lotion) on it but I really don't think they will be gone by tomorrow afternoon. My cuts are healling but they're still quite visible.
I'm so anxious, just knowing that my friends, teachers and parents will find out makes me feel physically sick omfg.
My life will be over :( I don't wanna be put in a mental hospital or psych ward :( and I just don't like talking to all my problems with a psychiatrist. I honestly don't know what to do, I keep having these panic attacks.
I didn't sleep at all last night, I've been talking to some online friends because I was feeling really suicidal.
School was shit today, I forgot to study for two huge tests and I'm pretty sure I failed both of them.
My friends were so annoying, they even made me feel worse.
I just don't want anyone to find out that I cut myself :( I will probably get bullied again
and I don't think I can handle that anymore.