Haven't posted here in a long ass time. I've been so busy with school and kickboxing that I barely have time for other stuff! I'd love to get into lucid dreaming but I need to focus on the waking world HARD right now. Overloaded with school work, and I'm trying to make money in the unconventional way. It's going well I'd say.
Also gaining some muscle from my workouts, and I feel much fitter in general. The trainer recognizes this and he lets me count for 1 set of burpees. We always do 3 sets (among other exercises) to warm up, sometimes it's 3 sets of 10 and sometimes 20 or 25. That shit gets your blood pumping so good. Gets you out of your head and into your body you know what I mean, it's good for your health.
Doing sports is a good thing, but I'm going to have to apply for internship at the Holland America Line soon and I wonder wether it is wise to say I take kickboxing? I might come off as aggressive or whatever kind of view most people have on full contact combat sports.
, Athylus. Burpees are the root of all evil. I can't see how anyone can do a single burpee, let alone several
My rant is that I have to leave soon so the girls can do paper work. Gah. Which means waiting in the car, unless all they really have to do is turn in their pay stubs. I hope that's all it is. I have to go shopping tonight. I don't want to have to run around this afternoon as well.
Another sort of rant is that my abrasion looks really weird. It's still not completely healed, but there is no open wound. It's dimpled in the center still and it's a wee bit sore if I push on it. The whole thing is a BRIGHT red, with a little redness extending the circle... which would imply an infection, but I don't think that's what it is. It's very odd lol
I felt a sting in my sleep. I told myself that I should check my inner blankets for a bee carcass because I saw a bee in my room the other day and perhaps he crawled under my blankets and died. And then I woke up and told myself that wasn't true But I'll check anyhow. Perhaps my subconsious caught on to something.
My DNA literally just stood at attention at the sight of this firefighter that just walked into the bakery. I mean, I could almost feel my ovaries pulling me toward him with the desire to perpetuate human existence by creating a superhuman with this man. Halp.
My DNA literally just stood at attention at the sight of this firefighter that just walked into the bakery. I mean, I could almost feel my ovaries pulling me toward him with the desire to perpetuate human existence by creating a superhuman with this man. Halp.
He bought one of my carrot cakes <3
Haha, gods do walk among us. I have seen one in produce and he asked me a question. And one godess, that made me look around and find her eyes.
Rave: Day off today
Rant: It will end in midnight shift
Rave: Day off tomorrow
Rant: Will be tired
A lady with children in her car whiskey-throttled right through the wall of glass at my work today.
The edge of the counter so many people lean on everyday with their backs turned to the glass...now the metal is all curled and the wires exposed. The marble is the only material that didn't fracture.
It's a miracle my friend and coworker wasn't injured because the car touched her hand for crying out loud, what glass didn't shatter fell in huge jagged pieces around her, and the lone metal support beam fell within arms reach of where she was standing.
And to think that this is far from being the first time it's happened at these stores and nothing has been done to make it any safer? This is perhaps one of the most shocking things to me. That and the fact that the store didn't even shut down for a second.
Oh, and
Spoiler for rant:
So many people, entire families were just milling around in the wreckage. Standing around in the wind that was whipping about the pulverized glass and sawdust from the makeshift wall that they cut right on top of the counter. Gotta have that precious pop or lottery ticket or cup of ice dontchaknow!
These people were laughing, making the exact same ignorant joke about it all night long. I could barely be away from the register long enough to clean up the glass that was EVERYwhere, but they need me to make time to laugh at their terrible jokes too? How could I BE so insensitive!
It took over two hours to even BEGIN clearing the heavy shards of glass and build a wooden support wall, and the guy that did it damn near did it by himself! What if the entire building had crumpled with all those people in it? The building is ancient, sloping, and already weakened from another person slamming into a non-glass portion of the front of the building, I mean criminy!
All I could tell one of the builders was "Thank you for the wall".
I'm sorry, but it's a miracle two or more people didn't die, and that no bystanders were injured. Yet all most people could think of to say was, "making this place a drive through, eh?" ALL fucking night long.
HafuckingHa, it wasn't funny the first 50 times, what makes you think you're delivery is so keen? This kinda shit tickles your funny bone, does it?
Driving by laughing and taking pictures (not even looking where you're fucking driving mind you!! >_<) saying "cold night for you, eh?" Thank you Captain Obvious, what do you want a standing ovation? Let me just pause from clearing this debris and take off these borrowed pair of safety gloves so I can give you a high five for your excellent grasp of the fucking situation.
It just makes my blood absolutely boil.
/breathes
All of these woman have families with young children and for so many people to laugh inanely at their brush with death is downright revolting to me. To think this sort of thing has become cliché and apparently hilarious to most people?
I just don't know anymore.
My boss hit the nail on the head when she said "People just keep finding new ways to hurt each other". Don't they though?
Thank goodness it wasn't worse than it was, that's all I know for certain.
As I was clearing the glass from the sidewalk and lot it suddenly began to rain...then it promptly hailed (of course). The ice blended with the glass and it was all I could do to keep from crying at that moment.
I knew something was off before I got there though, because everyday as I cross the bridge to work I check the rocky outcrop near the bank for a heron. It sounds crazy but they are almost always there, and the days I find nothing but seagulls...somehow I am disappointed. Anyway:
Today it was there, pure white and I had the distinct impression it was watching over us, surveying the situation. I knew as I prepared to leave that I was trying so hard to be early, I felt a sense of urgency about it, beyond normal.
But nothing could have prepared me for all this.
Time marches on though.
Last edited by acatalephobic; 10-07-2014 at 07:33 PM.
Reason: drunk typing is hard
Lol, tommo. You should upload a pic of your haircut! XD
I'm gonna try some easy method of layer-cutting I saw on youtube. Hope it works!
Upload yours and I'll upload mine
Rant: Back to school, so much to do. Also work is still crap, people are leaving constantly, I've never worked in such a crappy place before.
It's not even mostly the way they run it, although that sucks too. But just all the people there are so bloody annoying. Drama drama drama.
It's ridiculous. I'm not the only one who says this either, a girl just said it the other day and I was like "I KNOWWWWWWWWW THANKYOU!!!! WTF????"
And the managers take themselves so seriously. They've spent over a month choosing who to promote to a crappy supervisor position, which is basically nothing.
They get like $2 an hour more, and most of them pretty much walk around and tell people to do things they were already doing.
I am 110% done with school right now. Zero motivation to finish anything nowadays. We have a 4-day weekend, but I feel like I might die before I get to it...
"Going through life worrying about the little things is like cooking with motor oil instead of cooking oil. Sure, you can still probably pull it off, but it'll leave a bad taste in your mouth in retrospect." - Me, apparently
WOW, Acatalephobic! I'm glad everyone is okay!!
Sometimes people make jokes like Gallows Humor. It's just a way to deal with the stress of turmoil or tragedy. But, yeah, some people are just jerks who think they're witty
all around.
Nothing happening here. I did have my p-doc app. I woke up, thinking it was 4:10 and that I missed my noon appointment... but then my alarm went off
I have the Counseling drive to make tomorrow and I'm going to drive even further away in that time to get my oil changed. I'm going to try to get extra money from hubby and also stop at the mall for replacement coils for my e-cig.
On Thursday I need to buy some e-juice locally. I don't think the card's ever going to be loaded, so I don't know when I'll be able to bulk order from California again. But what blends should I use?
I prefer 12 mg nicotine, but that's not available locally. I can buy the 16 mg Vanilla and cut it with a 0 mg something... but what? I don't like the Clove flavor at all. It's way too bitter. The Java was way too bitter. Maybe a mint?
Holy shit the health care in this country is useless. I have two forms of insurance. I pay into both monthly. I just got a bill for $260 because BOTH of my deductibles weren't met. It's October, so hopefully, that means I am close to at least covering my surgery that is due in November.
Jenkees and I are adding the final touches to a stop motion animation we've been working on for the past couple of years.
The submission deadline is tomorrow and we're not finished yet!
But just all the people there are so bloody annoying. Drama drama drama.
It's ridiculous. I'm not the only one who says this either, a girl just said it the other day and I was like "I KNOWWWWWWWWW THANKYOU!!!! WTF????"
And the managers take themselves so seriously. They've spent over a month choosing who to promote to a crappy supervisor position, which is basically nothing.
They get like $2 an hour more, and most of them pretty much walk around and tell people to do things they were already doing.
I imagine that's how the majority of places are. We've got a lot of great honest workers on the floor, but unfortunately many of them think they're not good enough to move up to better positions. Or maybe they're just comfortable doing what they do; I don't know. But instead of promoting the people that work hard, a good chunk of our upper management seems to be under-qualified quacks with so much shit up their nose they can barely breathe. What's worse is that most of their heads ballooned up tenfold once they were given some fancy title and just a hint of 'power'.
That's just the production guys on the floor. The office dwellers are in a league of their own when it comes to drama. Though really, I'm just complaining for the sake of complaining. My boss doesn't have a big head, and he doesn't work the same shift as me. Sometimes I see him once a week and say, "Hi." Other times, I don't hear from him for several weeks/months. So I'm essentially my own boss, and the big heads floating around can't tell me shit. They know it, and I flaunt it.
Edit: Ok, silly rambling asides, I just realized a serious rant: my fridge has no beer in it. Now I know how my cat feels when she doesn't have enough food in her bowl. If I don't post tomorrow, it probably means I've died. As my cat will, if I don't put more food in her bowl.
My rant is that I'm exhausted. But I can't go to sleep until about 1 AM (Have to take the kids to the store for food). I had a nice, full day. Paula donated plasma again and became so sick my daughter wanted to take her to a hospital. I bought her some OJ and she rode it out. She doesn't eat enough before donating!! I think today was the final straw though. She was super pale and clammy- she almost passed out and later vomited.
My back's been bothering me for a couple of days. Tonight is the worst. I've not walked the dogs for several days because of the weather, so it's not that. I have no idea what I did to it. It's the center of my back and a bit to the right. *shrugs*
Gah! I might just take a nap lol. I've been getting only about 5 hours of sleep for the last week or so. At least, it feels like a week
A rave is that I bought a Hulu Plus card... now I can get back to watching my shows. Too bad I can't do the same for Netflix. You have to have money on a credit card in order to use their gift cards (because of renting actual DVD's). But I never rent the DVD's, I just use the Watch Instantly feature. Our internet provider is probably happy though We're a bunch of bandwidth hogs...
Edit: Ok, silly rambling asides, I just realized a serious rant: my fridge has no beer in it. Now I know how my cat feels when she doesn't have enough food in her bowl. If I don't post tomorrow, it probably means I've died. As my cat will, if I don't put more food in her bowl.
I'm f***ing frustrated with people at work. My patience has reached its limit. I have to try hard to resist slapping people. They don't do the work i give them and i have to keep checking on everything. Why the f*** do they expect to be treated like 2-year-olds; they have no sense of responsibility and expect to be spoonfed all the time; they don't take the effort to understand or figure out something.
2 days ago I gave this guy some work to do and also added it to his tasks list. He did not do it and simply deleted it from the list. When i asked about it, he was adamant that he has done it and maybe it got rejected at a later stage of the process. If it gets rejected I will know it; also I get daily updates on his work and this thing hasn't been done. Was he actually expecting to get away with such a dumb lie?! Later he was like "i'll do it now. Send me the style codes". I had already given him the data he needs, and it's his job to figure out the style codes. I told him so. Then he makes a face and whines "but this work takes so much time..". At this point, I just lost it! This work is what he gets paid for!! It is his KRA, not mine. People and their shitty attitudes!
The other issue is when people go about doing things which they have no authority to do. Some are even putting signatures on things which I am supposed to do. When you ask them about it, they play dumb. If they make a mistake, the next thing they do is erase all evidence. Delete it from every list, every table.. By the time, you find out that such a thing has happened, the small error which could have been easily rectified would have grown into a major issue. Sometimes I just want to hit them on the heads with a huge hammer.
My thread's at least 20 times cooler, you ol' hag. But welcome back. >:T
That +/- format's a good idea though. .-.
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- I have a midterm next Thursday and I'm totally unprepared
+ I found an app that can help me study
- The app started bugging out this morning so I don't know how reliable it will be for the next few days
+ Found some cashews in the pantry, omnomnom'ing the fuck out out of them
- Forgot to take my meds at 9:00 AM, so now the timing's thrown off
+ +-+-+-+-+
That was friggin great, Tommo. Thank you for starting my day with a smile
Anju.
DocKnubis. Welcome back
My rant is sleep. I didn't crash until around 4AM and then I turned around and woke up at 7:30. I told myself "Nope. Get back to bed." And I did. It took a while to fall asleep, but sleep came. And then my alarm was blaring at 12:30 but I continued sleeping through it. I finally got up at 1
Now I need to eat (peanut butter lol) and take my meds. Then it's off to the stores at around 4:30. It will be my last trip out until Monday (I'll be out of gas). Well, my last trip unless hubby wants to do something this weekend. He'll put gas in my tank for the drive.
I already cannot wait for today to be over I'm ready to go NOWHERE for the next several days.
A rave is that Miley remembered to get the trash cans to the road... and that this Java mixture is finally growing on me a little. On MOnday I need to buy a cheap unit and straight vanilla for my trip with hubby. He can't stand the way the coffee smells. But the drive to Chicago is a long one so I need to find something he can tolerate.
Finished my physical today which went well. I had to do a blood sample, which I am terrified of doing, but the nurse was amazing. This only encourages my nurse fantasies. Now, I am working from home, which is easy on Fridays.
I think I'm addicted to getting "high" on emotions.. or something. IDK how getting high on drugs feels, but I imagine it's similar to this. Basically, I noticed for the past while, that I seem to love to wallow in sad feelings/emotions.
Today I binge-watched an anime, Welcome to the NHK, and I cried 3 or 4 times throughout. I don't think I've ever cried because of anything for the past 5 years or more. Yet I could somehow really relate to Misaki in the above anime, even though I'm not really like her. (I think. I'm not pessimistic or anything.) And I cried damn intensely, too. For like 15 minutes I was sobbing so hard I couldn't see anything. Wasted half a box of Kleenex.
I just finished it, and I'm still super depressed, this time because I just want to watch more. I want to know how the story continues, and it feels like a part of my life was just ripped away from me. Even though there's lot of hardships and scary things revolving around the main character in this story, I wish things like this happened to me. Every time I think about it I cry again, and I don't try to hold it back either, I want to cry more, to feel pity for myself. It feels nice, somehow.
I guess this might just be from me mostly being apathetic to things over the past few years. As I said earlier, I don't remember myself crying for at least the last 5 years or more, and I just recently have been feeling sad and ENJOYING it. Now it feels like I'm more human, while I was like some emotionless machine before - even though I'm sure I experienced emotions before, too - they are just utterly overshadowed by the intense sadness I felt today. I feel like today I learned just how sad a human being could be. I didn't know we were able to experience such intense emotions.
Anyway, I feel pretty stupid having cried like that so much, and I'm not sure if it's a good thing I enjoyed it. Maybe I'm emo or something. I hope I calm down a bit after I sleep. But it was an interesting experience nontheless. And if you're interested in anime, I suggest you watch NHK ni youkoso. Don't expect it to be extremely depressing though, might have been just me feeling weird today
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