Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Awww LouaiB....I would like that tent under the star...and anime too...Wahooo! sounds like thought of thing i'd have a lucid about
Hey Vive La Revolution, lets free all the workers and take the planet back for ourselves...yay...you know its only like a tiny percentage that own everything...well yeah i guess you do their called the bank shareholders of the world...while we all have to work to keep them in riches...

Meanwhile my daughter is having a total meltdown over her 1st proper breakup....although i wish sheld finish already shes doing my head in with all the wailing...my bad...but its ruining my sleep schedule....she always waits till late at night to start freaking....

I plan my lucid dreams just a bit differently; under the nightsky I would spawn a cute anime girl and we'd kiss! It's always awesome! Last time I did it, it was so great I can still taste the kiss now when I remember it.

I don't know what it's like to have children, but I don't feel any desire to have children. I never did. Also I don't think I can handle that responsibility. Ppl use to tell me it's just a phase, but it appeared not to be after lots of years with me still not wanting kids.
Lol I can barely stand my family's annoying habits. I would die if I had to handle children. I don't even think babies and children are even cute! Lol our generation is gonna doom humanity XD only cute younglings are lolis and only lolis (lol don't get any wrong ideas. Aint any loli hentai on my computer XD).

Anyways, off I go to watch the final episode of chuunibyou!

LouaiB Hmmm try looking after 30 of them 5 days a week @@ then you'd know bout annoying
funnily despite watching anime i've never yet dreamt of it...one day...one day

Originally Posted by LouaiB

But college, then job......augh I feel like my life is doomed to unhappiness already. A 9 to 5 of torture and waste each day. How do ppl live like this?! I know I'm forced to do that too though, cuz I ain't got any real support for my future except my own job. Dammit sometimes I feel like I'll end up killing myself of quitting my job and doing something crazy after a few years. I just can't imagine having a job take most of my day.

Heh, I've been slowly weening my self off of 'free time' during the last several years due to life changes and whatnot. Once I go back to just working a normal 40 hr/wk I'm going to be ecstatic with all the free time I'll have.

I've learned a ton about time management though, and that's they key right there. During the weekdays, I'm only home for about 8.5hrs a day (that's including time spent sleeping) but I make it work and even allow myself some 'free time' to do things I like. As long as your working towards a goal, or you've got a career you can enjoy, it's not bad at all. Plus, I don't look at work as a chore, but rather my contribution to society. I'm certainly not changing the world or even doing anything remotely significant, but I still get a sense of satisfaction from 'doing my part.'

Spoiler for Beer-induced rambling:

Anyway, it's been a good weekend so far. I'm still loving my new place, and just the area in general. Stopped at a bar Friday with some guys from school and had a good time. Then this morning I got some beer at what'll probably be my new go-to beer distributor (here in PA we can't just go to the local gas station or grocery store to buy beer), and the guy didn't even card me. I guess I'm finally starting to look my age... or at least look 21. Then this afternoon I checked out a new place to go biking. It's a quiet 30-minute drive from my new place, and the trails were made by mountain bikers for mountain bikers. They were pretty awesome, but I'm pretty out-of-shape. Still, I definitely found my new place; too bad biking season is almost over.

Tonight my landlords invited all the tenants and some friends to their house for a fire and food and beer. I feel bad for not going, but I just don't think I'm going to make it till dusk when they start the fire. I'm usually in bed by 4-5pm at the latest on weekends, just so I can try to somewhat maintain a consistent sleep schedule. Only 8 more months! Maybe less! Then I'm off 3rd shift, probably for good.

Woh sefalik...such an upbeat post ...your view on time management (I procrastinate :/) and I see your really getting to like your new place

Are you really my daughter in disguise, Meoh (my daughter Zee stalks me on here. Hi Zee). She works at a daycare but I don't think she's into Anime

Glad you're loving your new place, Sefalik. Hope you get to enjoy the trails when the season starts again.

Louai, you remind me of my son. Ray rants about the work grind too. Just try to find something your passionate about (yet still pays the bills )

My rant is my stomach. It seems the more often I eat one particular thing, the more sensitized I get to it and it blows right through me. If I take a break from it for a few weeks, then I can eat it again with little problems. I really don't like to mix things up though. I need to stop being lazy and look up info about IBS.
I also need to clean my room again... and make that strap... and finish the other lanyard and iPad case (I got 3 more orange Sheetz bags ).
I need to research Windows 10 and figure out how to get rid of the annoying pop up 'Do you want to open game mode.. Yes this is a game' How about, no this isn't a game, stop asking me.

So far I like Windows 10 except for that pop up. I got a free copy of Minecraft (Xbox version) and I've been playing a game called Tribez. Cortana's pretty neat too. But my google voice plugin stopped working in Windows Edge so I had to download yet another browser (Opera) just so I can talk to my hubby. We communicate computer/computer over gmail. No Hangouts, no video, just audio.

I want to go back to bed, but I've only been awake for 3 hours
heh, I dreamed I kept pooping everywhere. I was moving it into a suitcase to take it somewhere to dump so people wouldn't know I had been dropping rabbit turds everywhere. What the heck Then I remembered I fell asleep worrying that hubby would go to the big garage this morning. Keira (dog) pooped in the driveway and I always throw it into the yard before hubby sees it, but it's been raining so I hadn't messed with it. How that translated into my dream as it did is still amusing, but at least I know what caused it

Hope everyone's having a great day.

@Meoh

"try looking after 30 of them 5 days a week"

.......30.........on weekdays..........I'm guessing you're a teacher?? Lol it's so annoying to have to deal with those annoying children. Even if it was even highschool, they always seem to never grow up and become civilized (at least most of them).

@safalik and I thought a 9 to 5 was tough
I'm glad you'll have more free time later, but for my my problem is that I cannot work something that I like. Music makes no money whatsoever. Lol barely if you're lucky. I wanted to be a sound engineer at least but that is a bad choice too. I literally don't like any other domain. Also my goal in life is to great at the things I love to do (and obviously do them) (which are making VNs(which is mainly why I practice making music and art and VFX and writing). Also to enjoy things like friends, health, romance, the outdoors (the world is such a big and beautiful place that sometimes I feel like a caged animal ), etc. And o/c LDing too! That is the highlight of my nights. Great experiences to be done. I just hope I can have LDs longer than a couple seconds :p. And anime too. Anime is always a good thing xD. Got it's own place in me little heart ;3

Surprising how I don't have family up there there must be something wrong with me.

EDIT: Meoh is a female??!! Lol i don't know why I imagined her as a he

Originally Posted by LouaiB

I'm glad you'll have more free time later, but for my my problem is that I cannot work something that I like. Music makes no money whatsoever. Lol barely if you're lucky. I wanted to be a sound engineer at least but that is a bad choice too.

Both doable, and both were things I considered doing. But I believe you have to be a certain type of person to make those types of careers work financially, and I don't see myself as that type of person. Being a full-time musician isn't as simple as filling out an application and submitting a resume, and there's no guarantee that you'll even have work every day/week/month. So I decided to keep music as a hobby, which I think is best for me anyway.

But that made it hard for me to figure out what I wanted to 'do' for a living. You'll figure it out though, just might take some time. My advice: stay busy and do things you hate. The more you hate what you're doing, the more motivated you'll be to discover and work towards a better place.

Started of the NaNo with 3000 words partly inspired by my last lucid. Yay! only 47 000 left X3

Synch Milly - with my dream comment "better than the movies" I thought you should be a novelist

Zhaylin - You have such cool names in your family "Zee" neat

LouaiB - im in http://www.dreamviews.com/dream-view...ml#post2175783 and yes da cat is the original Meoh

btw I don't know how to get any of these DV Achievements: How do you get a refer one?

@Meoh That cat's eyes though! O.O Reminds me of the golden eyes of that cat in "Black Cat" XD

Also the referer one is when someone else comes here to DV and signs up bcz you told him about this site. When someone signs up, there is this box that asks if someone refered you to this site, and you write their username if yes. I got mine bcz of a friend or 2 of mine who got interested in LDing. They're not active here anymore but whatever . This is I believe how it works. Pretty sure.


Rave: I went to walk my dog yesterday with a few friends then I met this gorgeous girl who was walking her cat! Lol cat yes! Who walks a cat in the park?!! Lol anyways we talked for a while and i got her number! Chicks dig the musicians lol
I'm not so sure it'll work out good though. Almost every time I tell i potential I'm not religious, they get creeped out. Man, most aren't tolerant in this country. Still better than most other countries though
I didn't tell her yet, but she seems more liberal than others. Proof?? She likes skrillex too!! XD You might not get it but here it's hard enough to find anyone who even knows who skrillex is! She doesn't make music though, just likes it.

I wish it would work out! I can't take being single anymore!! I'm a romance beast! I NEED to hug and kiss

@LouaiB Walking her cat! what da! You need look no further if you were after her for her feline company ...

Meoh will be happy to hug and kiss u...but I have to say you may not survive her clutches
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She wants to be in the Remake of Dr No or Austin Powers, not fussy. And yes she is looking at you LouaiB

It should have been Halloween today, theres been thick fog her all day !!

@ Meoh That cat is so adorable!! I'm more of a cat person than a dog person. Lol my dog isn't mine mine, but my mother's. I walk it sometimes for her.

Well she wasn't walking walking her cat. It was a small adorable little blonde kitten! It was so cute!! And mind you I have my dog trained to be a nice high class lady xD so she didn't cause any problem for that sweet little golden tenshi!! So yeah that girl was more like introducing her kitten to the outside. Poor little thing though was so frightened! But yes, my love for animals sure made her interested more I guess. But she's a cool girl, really extrovert. I'm like really weird when it comes to this, cuz I would be extremely introvert for a couple days, then start feeling a huge need to go outside and socialize a lot. It's always at an extreme xD switches every few days.

Anyways I'm hoping I can progress with this girl. I'll try to call her on friday for a date downtown. Maybe the movies lol so cliche (at least I really love romance movies so it'll be good ) we got lots of common interests as far as I know, so awkward silence won't be a problem! I texted her a bit today after the last post, and it's going pretty well. I have a good feeling about this time, but I'm not getting my hopes up too much

This rant is fun,
1. I was the first to complete a task of the month for once in three years..
2. I went to the woods earlier and just laid down in the leaves and looked up at the sky until I got kinda dizzy from the moving clouds and put some lucid dreaming skills to work....... Zowie: The resulting AP or Lucid (whichever) was so exciting i'm going to do it every day I can until snow flies

My rave is, I seem to be almost the only one interested in the "Task Of The Month" Where is everybody?

Um I think technically I'd need to be able to get a lucid first...unless Task of the Month is to be lucid in the "waking state" I can do that generally...on a good day...mostly...well ok, I generally get a bit lost in my thoughts...but still high expectations is what you need...mostly...could be wrong there

Originally Posted by MeohMyoh

Um I think technically I'd need to be able to get a lucid first...unless Task of the Month is to be lucid in the "waking state" I can do that generally...on a good day...mostly...well ok, I generally get a bit lost in my thoughts...but still high expectations is what you need...mostly...could be wrong there

I can just sit out in the leaves this time of year and fall dead asleep, One of my favorite places for lucid dreaming..
High expectations is just positive thinking, If you don't think you will have a lucid dream you likely wont ..

Meanwhile back at the ranch.... I'm trolling for more TOTM'ers

I tried TOTM way back when. It's too exhausting lol. Becoming (and staying lucid) ruins my sleep.

I hope things go wonderfully with the girl, Louai
The only time I'm even slightly extroverted is when I'm sleep deprived. There's a small window of time when I'm slightly euphoric and my inhibitions are down before total exhaustion and severe anxiety set in.

Meoh, her name is Zee'Arra Junell. I should have spelled her middle name Zhunell because the "J" sound is soft and french sounding. The second part of her first name fits whatever whim... "air-a or are-a". I think I originally created it to sound like are-ah. The whole name just flows off the tongue like honey and I love it too.

My rant is that I'm awake. Paula came into my room and asked to borrow my Garmin, waking me briefly at around 7AM. Then Ray came in asking for my phone at who knows what time. The dog finally sealed the deal and got me out of bed by barking and crying outside.
I woke to my face wet from drool ewwww.

Rave, I bought another game. Ark- survival evolved. stupid bats keep killing me though. They hang out near my body after I die so I can't reclaim my loot Stupid bats don't belong in the dino era
I'm playing single player. It's nice having an entire world to myself, but it is a little lonesome. At least I can talk to the zombies in 7 days to die.
Oh yes, and I finished my plarn lanyard. I'll post a pic later. I buggered up the dimensions a little but it's still functional. Now I'm working toward finishing my iPad case I MIGHT even have enough Orange to finish it.

Thnx Zhaylin

Ayy the ToTM. I tried it a few times and succeeded once, but now i'm taking LDing in a more relaxed manner. I used to always focus a lot then burn myself out for a month. Ruthless cycle. Now I'm just casually DJing and doing wbtb+mild each day, not worrying about any results really. My recall is going back on track and I'm hoping my LD rate would come back to it's last 2 LDs a week rate, although I think I don't have enough motive when milding cuz I pretty much know that even if I become lucid, I'll wake up immediately. This really weakens the mild power. Lol I need to fix this problem of waking up too early, but bcz of it I'm barely even getting lucids so I'm really in some pickle of a situation here xD.
I know things like Sensei's competitions help me out greatly. I need motivation for mild. I do get a bit of motivation each night, imagining what I could do in a LD (something I am confident I can do bcz I did it before in a LD), and it doesn't run out bcz I'm taking it easy. I figured if I'm gonna keep LDing for the rest of my life, then I need to stop that frustration cycle, even if it makes me go much slower and easier.

Woooooh a long and nice rant right there!! Made me feel much better xD

I just came back from a little solo dance party in my parking lot xD under the beautiful nightsky! Was real fun! Oh now I'm remembering my old apartment in that calm nice area where I used to have my own room with a balcony and an awesome view of mountains and ocean and under the nightsky!! Damn I miss it!! T^T
I don't know if any of you remember it. I left it like half a year ago. Rent is too damn high xD Back to my mommy's where I know I'm always welcome xD
I want my own room T^T

That balcony sounds great

heh, I ended up going back to sleep and just like THAT, I had a lucid It was a stress dream. Hubby and I went to Hawaii for his education (where we used to always go), but I forgot to pack anything. We got to our room and I was freaking out, trying to figure out how the heck I forgot my suitcase. Then, in a corner of a room, the metal rack from this room was there. It was full of the junk that's on it in RL. I then explained to hubby that I was dreaming because the rack couldn't possibly be there.
My subconsious was like "Oy, she's right." because I left the room and came back and the rack was gone and I lost lucidity

New rant. Why can't I spell subconsious I know conscience. That's being self aware, right. But I can't turn it into unconscience. How about conscienceness. subconsiousness... subconscience Grrr...Gotta consult Google...

...I absolutely cannot stand people whom litter. Honestly, how hard is it to throw your crap into the bin? If there's not one nearby, wait until there IS one nearby.

If you think about it, Earth is our only safe haven. We can't live in space like fish live in water. Yet, people never think twice before polluting the planet. They know what they're doing is destructive, but they don't care--or because they think it's "cool". I read this in a book once: "Oh passenger! Do not ever spit on the ferryboat that carries you." ~Elif Shafak

I may not be the most moral human being, but at least I clean up after mineself like a responsible adult. This world would be a much fresher place if people in general were less slobby. [Shrugs] But maybe that's just me.

So I talked to my teacher about my placement and I'm getting a different one!! It's gonna be a company in town where my friend worked at last year. And he told me that everyone's super friendly and helpful there. So I'm kinda excited.

And it looks like I'm finally over this infection, I've stopped taking my meds a couple of weeks ago and I haven't felt any pain ever since. It was about time tbh.

Now onto my rants:

1) I woke up this morning feeling really sick. Because I had this dream where another friend of mine had killed herself and it was just horrible. At first I thought it was maybe a sign but I convinced myself that it was just a meaningless dream.

2) I've got my first driving lesson tomorrow with an official driving instructor, then another one on Thursday and my last one Monday (which is right before my driving exam) and I'm so nervous. My exam is also right during rush hour so that's gonna make it even more stressful. I just really hope I'll pass, like that would be so cool.

3) I'm angry at myself 'cause it took me 21 years to find out how comfortable skinny jeans actually are. I never knew they were this comfortable, and my legs look really good in it if I say so myself. I mean look at them.

Skinny jeans comfortable. What have you been smoking I'm waiting for the world to wake up and realize how perfect skirts and dresses are. I feel suffocating and itchy in anything else.
Much success on your exam and grats on your transfer And major grats for finally kicking that infections butt!

No real rants for me today. No pic either. I'm too lazy to post anything. I'm almost finished with my iPad case. I re-did the sides because I've finally learned to add some proper spacing.
A rave is that the local vape shop is interested in my e-cig lanyard for trade... after they move. right now they're in a new strip in a warehouse looking place that is much too big for them. They're just moving to one of the smaller spaces in the same strip. When I go on my trip next week, I'm packing crafting supplies

Another rave is that I saw my p-doc today and he finally spelled my anxiety out a little better for me. I wish he had done so years ago lol. He said Americans (he's Egyptian) tend to associate anxiety with fear and worry. He went on to explain the word angst and that it's just a unease. I don't HAVE to have worry or fear to have anxiety. Simply being outside of my comfort zone and annoyed because of it causes it.
It still stupid to me but now it at least sort of makes sense.
The chaos of the world overwhelms me. I don't fear it I'm just powerless (but even that word is wrong because being powerless implies fear of being overpowered. Maybe "consumed" is a better word?) There's simply too MUCH. Too many sights, sounds, emotions from too many directions. Life is easier in my little room.

My p-doc asked what I would do when hubby's in his classes. I said nothing. I'd just chill in the room. Then I gave a little laugh and said I'll just be trading my room at home for another little room.
That kind of makes me a little sad. Or not sad but sort of wistful.

Even when I was a kid... I can see this clearly now that older... but people would good-naturedly laugh at me because whenever we'd go out, I'd fall right to sleep even in chairs or against a wall on the floor. I could be having the time of my life, but it wasjust too much. It overpowered or consumed me and drained me so I'd shut down. :shrug:
I guess I'm just a weird one

It's mine and hubby's 14th anniversary. I actually remembered this year and called him up. He chuckled and said 'I knew this day sounded familiar'. We're a weird pair and perfect for each other lol.
He then asked if he could call me back after something he's watching or listening to is over. Gotta love him.

I just watched the movie "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" the other day and realized how much it sucked compared to the original movie they made back in 1990. Disappointed.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

I'm waiting for the world to wake up and realize how perfect skirts and dresses are.

Finally someone sane in a 2 mile radius (or in my tabs pages xD lol idk, whatever). Skirts are so much better than jeans.

..........

Just to clarify, I'm talking about girls here, not myself XD

Proof??? Ha, easy!

Spoiler for Cute skirt pic:

Haha I'm such an otaku

@Meoh I know this is a bit off topic and annoying, but my friends really loved Mondaiji-tachi and they want me to ask you for another similar recommendation. I personally didn't enjoy it that much bcz I felt it was too exaggerated and didn't develop the characters so much, and also the story didn't engage me that much most of the time. But hey, they loved it and really wanted another rec.


Rant: I'm going to my father's on friday to visit. I wanted to ask that girl out on friday, but she seems to be drifting away from me. We aren't texting so much. Meh, i guess it's not working.

why the fuk?! why the fuk?! T^T

At least in college there are lots of nice and pretty girls, so i will have more chances. All I need now is a new cool jacket and I'll be ready to break some hearts XD