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      "Too many chefs in the kitchen." "Too many Chiefs, not enough Indians." I heard both all my life and I understand it so much better now that I have 4 adult kids living with me.
      I stay in my own little bubble. My room has my microwave, water heater, oven etc. I leave my room only to take care of the animals and to use the restroom. So, those sayings don't directly affect me. But good golly my kids are always going at it. "It's your turn to clean the over, you used it last; why does no one clean the counters; yeah, they work but that benefits THEM, they should still have chores for the household!"
      And, having lived on my own for 23 years, I can honestly say I would rather be homeless in woods than move back in with my parents or other relative; so, I understand your frustration Yuppie. I hope time starts speeding up for you.

      Link, so glad things are looking brighter!! Much success on those jobs prospects.

      Rant: I did not get my Provigil. But the conversation didn't go as expected either. He doesn't even seem to care about my schedule or habits. He just thinks the pressure on my machine might be too low, so I have to return next week so he can raise it. I still average about 5 episodes (an hour) of apnea. After he raises it, who knows how long he's going to make me ride it out before asking again. I don't want to seem too desperate, but I know what works. But who knows, maybe the machine will work miracles.

      Rant: I have to go to the store in 30 minutes. At least it should be a fast trip.

      Rant: I gained 3 pounds since my gastro appointment. I can't wait for the weather to get better so I can start walking again. Oh, I can't forget to pick up some distilled water tonight...

      I had a rave, but forgot it
      Oh well. Life is still good despite the rants.
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      Congratulations on the weight gain Zhaylin, that's awesome to hear. I'm very happy for you. What's the situation with you and eating solids at the moment?
      I've managed to put on around 5kg since I've been home. I weigh 80kg now which I think is pretty healthy for someone who's 6 foot. When I get back to university in a couple of weeks I'm going to start cutting though (losing all the excess fat so that only the muscle remains). That's really the least fun part of the process. Bulking is fun because you get to eat whatever you want as long as you work out, but I'm not looking forward to being on a calorie deficit and doing lots of cardio. Anyway, hopefully it doesn't take too long and the results look nice enough

      Oh also, my bank did this really weird thing. I purchased this item online and it went through and it's being shipped to me, but the bank hasn't deducted the money from my account for some reason. It's been a few days now and still nothing. Hopefully it's some sort of weird glitch and they don't pick up on it

      Wishing everyone well
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      I'm in a rut. Vacation got me all lazy and I can't snap out of it. I'm not getting anything done thats good for me. Just wasting away watching the pile of shit I need to deal with build. Lucids are far inbetween, though pretty good once they pop up. I'm allready behind on what is going to be a heavy year at school. Not making any music..or being very social. I haven't been on DV much either, I can only LD regularly when I'm where I need to be in life. And spending time on here feels like a waste when I know I'm unlikely to LD anyway. So I waste time on other more braindead stuff instead.

      I watched a lot of It's always sunny in philadelphia which is great. However it makes me dream about the gang at night, which can be..... disturbing.

      I don't need advice, just to vent a little. It's SO frustrating to be knocked down and unable to get yourself up and going again. I want to play the game again.

      Oh. And as is the holiday tradition I went ahead and got myself addicted to nicotine! Great! Now I have to quit that on top of everything else because a pack of snus which lasts me about a day costs up towards 10$ in my country and I can't afford it.

      A couple of nights ago I decided to get high, sometimes that gives me the vigor to get back in the game. But it ended in an introspective bad trip and no improvement. I don't really mind the bad trip so long as I'm alone... I've had some very fucked up trips and I know how to deal with my mind at this point so I almost enjoy it. In a weird masochistic way it can be nice to spend an evening wallowing in your own shame, guilt, paranoia. It's fascinating how fucked up of a person I am when viewed from the right perspective. A total maniac headed nowhere good. Luckily that's not what I see when I'm sober *gives ego a big hug*

      It definitely bumps me down a few notches, makes me more self conscious for a while. But like always I'll be back to normal and pretty soon. After all it's not like I know how to be better... if I did I would be. So I can't really deal with it anyway. Also, my life is pretty sweet so my karma can't be that horrible
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      Quote Originally Posted by LighrkVader View Post
      I watched a lot of It's always sunny in philadelphia which is great. However it makes me dream about the gang at night, which can be..... disturbing.

      I used to love that show! It's like a glimpse of how hellish life and people can really be. But yeah, I wouldn't want to dream about those people, or to know them IRL for sure.

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      Haha, absolutely. I'm on season 8 now so things are getting pretty dark

      I just noticed the Diamonds and Rust thing you have written over your name. Where is that from? It reminds me of a song I have been slowly working on for years, called Glitter and Dust. I'm always looking for new ideas for that song.
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      It's actually the name of a song - which was written and originally performed by Joan Baez (one of the hippie chicks - not sure if she was at Woodstock or not, but she was of that generation) and then later done by Judas Priest - that's the version that caught my attention. I like the juxtaposition of a diamond among rust or trash - it seems to be what life so often consists of. You have to dig and rummage to find the bursts of perfection that make it all worthwhile. Divine sparks hidden in the dark world of inert matter, like earthbound stars.
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      Nice!

      Lots of inspiration to be found. I'll have to read through the lyrics later looking for diamonds

      Maybe I'll pay tribute. Glitter and dust, a ruby in rubbles of rust? Rhymes better and also I'm pretty sure the righteous 20 year old I was when I first started writing that song would have been pissed off if I gave De Beers Company free commercial content hahahah

      Edit: My song isn't really about diamonds though. More about a feeling of disconnect that was building for a few years back then, I saw the world with new eyes but didn't know what to make of it. I felt like I was misplaced in a dream and needed to wake up. Though I didn't know what that meant. So both the past,(dust and the future(glitter) all felt worthless and vain. The diamonds came later
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      Quote Originally Posted by LighrkVader View Post
      both the past,(dust and the future(glitter) all felt worthless and vain. The diamonds came later
      That works then - I was gonna say, glitter is cheap surface decoration.

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      Even if we're not lucid dreamers or regular dream journal users, we stay for the community

      i hope everyone's well.

      I had my appointment with my sleep doctor yesterday, and just as I thought... he wants me to use the new air pressure setting for FOUR months before looking into other things *harrumph*
      He also said my thyroid levels were a tad high (still within normal range) which is good because I don't want to take the med any more. Go ahead and bring menopause on, Body. But my B12 levels were a bit low (but also within normal). He wants me to add 2000 IU (or mg) once a day.
      Gah! Four more months of feeling like my body's made of lead. At least my head is mostly clear though lol *sigh* Now, if only I could sleep through the night. This new habit is just too weird. By 9PM, I normally CANNOT keep my eyes open. I fall asleep at my desk. I lay down and wake up just enough to make it to 10-11PM- fall dead asleep only to wake up at 1-2AM
      I don't fall back to sleep until 6-8AM and remain passed out anywhere from 12-3PM
      This has been ongoing for several weeks now.

      I also have to remember to ask my allergy Dr. about IgA immune deficiency. My mom has that (recently diagnosed).

      Rant: I REALLY dislike Dr's in today current climate of herding the patience in and out as quickly as possible. I left my sleep Dr. almost depressed. I tried to go over some questions and concerns but he didn't even look at me for most of it as he fiddled with my machine. He gave me curt round-about answers. At first, I blew it off as him being of a different nationality. My primary Dr. is the same way and he's foreign. But then I made myself recall similar behavior from apple-pie American doctors (gastro and OBGYN). My hubby's in the medical field. I know what burocracy (SP!!!) from the State and insurance providers is doing to the field. Doctors (by and large) no longer have time to hold their patients hands and be HUMAN. It's very sad.

      Yuppie DON'T congratulate me on weight GAIN I want to get down to 125. I was 153... then 143... then back (as of yesterday) to 146 Going off my liquid diet and getting away from walking is doing me in.
      I CANNOT handle that diet anymore. But I do look forward to my walks once the weather stablizes. I need to do something every single day for 2 weeks for my habits to stick. If I start walking now, I'll just frustrate myself into quitting. Once day it's pouring down rain, the next it's snowing, the next it's icy I can handle light rain and I LOVE walking while it's snowing. It's just not safe with the ice though.

      Rant-ish: On Sunday, the kids let the dogs out to go potty and left the door open for them. Some time later they ran into the house and the girls (several rooms away) cried out "Dear God, what is that SMELL?!!" I could smell them from my room, lol.
      Then the dogs ran into my room and I was... Nope! The puppy was soaked in skunk spray. I took him outside and poured 2 cans of my Tomato Bisque soup on him. But the water was freezing cold. Inside, the girls had just gotten a shower so there was no hot water.
      So, in my room the dogs had to be. Momma dog licked tomato residue from the pups coat lol. An hour later, I dragged him into the shower and gave him a good scrubbing. Their pillows are ruined though... and I don't quite have the heart to through them away yet.
      It was the strangest skunk smell though. It was almost artifically chemically and kind of burnt smelling- as if the pup was skunked, then ran through a chemical plant and then through someone's burn pile (we burn leaves and some trash in this area).

      So, I was self-conscious at the Dr.'s yesterday. I had had 2 showers and was "blind" to the smell (what is the proper term?). Maybe that's why he wouldn't look at me Afterwards, I went to a gas station. There was a line with several burly men. Some looked to be oil riggers, others, hunters. After I paid, the checkout lady turned to her co-worker with her nose in the air and asked "what IS that smell?" I said, "Sorry, that's probably me. My dogs were skunked last night." she was mortified but laughed and told me "you poor dear!"
      The men behind me were trying desperately not to even crack a smile but you could tell they just wanted to bust out laughing.
      Ahhh, the joys of country living
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      when the original dreamviews began (thought it was around myspace era) half the posts were people bitching/fighting about drugs and religion
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      Sorry about that Zhaylin, I remember your old picture of you where you looked rather skinny. I never would have considered you to be overweight, so I figured you might have been trying to put a few pounds on. How tall are you? 150 pounds sounds like a pretty healthy weight for the average female .
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      PrisonPlanet, I stay away from that side of the forum now (I can't even recall the name at this point in time, it's been that long).

      Yuppie, no worries I'm 5' 5 and 150 is on the cusp of being overweight. 125 is underweight but I spent the majority of my life at 98. 98 will NEVER happen lol and I don't want it to. I was always dizzy and generally much worse off than I am now. But my joints didn't hurt like they do now. 125 seems do-able. I have a connective tissue disorder (Ehlers-Danlos Type 3) so the extra weight is killing my knee.

      Rant: My daughter-in-law just talked me into driving them to and from work until their next paycheck. She sweetened the pot but I'm still seriously annoyed.

      Rant: I smell poop. Someone stepped in some or an animal pooed in some hidden space (maybe even the vents). It's weird that this poo smell is annoying me more than the skunk smell did/does lol

      Rave: I slept fairly well last night. I crashed at around 3:30AM. I woke up at 11 and took my CPAP off... and fell right back to sleep until 4

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      Rave:

      A District Manager e-mailed me to see my availability as an Assistant Store Manager. The salary range alone is enough for me to live at my own place. But, I have my family, so I can see how things gauge out before I do that. I’m going to contain myself until there’s more communication between me and the DM, but I’m glad I’m getting headway. If I am lucky to get this position, then it justifies all the risk with my other job I had potential in to help out my family instead. Especially that hellish experience in South Carolina where we saw someone devoid of a conscience and acuity to be thoughtful for others she’s delegating.

      I’m going to contain my excitement, and still look for other jobs while preparing for this one. If they’re just asking for my availability, and the DM went straight to e-mail me, then I should be optimistic. I’ll tell my SO about it too, and I’m sure she’s going to boom with excitement. I'm prepared for the worst case scenario, I think, but here goes something!
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      A District Manager e-mailed me to see my availability as an Assistant Store Manager. The salary range alone is enough for me to live at my own place. But, I have my family, so I can see how things gauge out before I do that. Iím going to contain myself until thereís more communication between me and the DM, but Iím glad Iím getting headway. If I am lucky to get this position, then it justifies all the risk with my other job I had potential in to help out my family instead. Especially that hellish experience in South Carolina where we saw someone devoid of a conscience and acuity to be thoughtful for others sheís delegating.

      Iím going to contain my excitement, and still look for other jobs while preparing for this one. If theyíre just asking for my availability, and the DM went straight to e-mail me, then I should be optimistic. Iíll tell my SO about it too, and Iím sure sheís going to boom with excitement. I'm prepared for the worst case scenario, I think, but here goes something!

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      I hope everything works out, Link

      Rant: One of our cats, Mojo, started stumbling around and had a seizure last night. We started the death watch and said our goodbyes. She went behind a recliner and we thought that was it. But she ended up moving herself onto a chair where she slept for a few hours. My son (who lives in the room she was in) got up to use the restroom. As he returned, he saw her go into one of the AC vents. Lovely. Thankfully, it's winter. The cold will slow down the decay process which will hopefully hinder some of the smell.

      Rant-ish: I'm sick or something. I've been sleeping for nearly 2 days. I have a little phlegm in my lungs, a slight cough, an almost total loss of appetite and thirst, some nausea but that's it. If this is the flu, I can definitely live with it!!!

      Rave: At least one of the girls got their tax return back. They switched their car insurance provider and I might have to drive them to work on Monday, but that should be it. I am off the hook (knock on wood). Paula sweetened the pot by bribing me with $100. I can't do that though. I put $25. in my tank, so as long as she reimburses that, plus give me maybe $10. we'll be square. I hate being "honest" sometimes. $100. extra would be really nice right now

      Rant-ish: But to get any money, I'll have to go to Walmart later. I just want to crawl back into bed.
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      ( Rave ) Life is going pretty good! Finding Uni studies a bit weird at the moment, not too interested in the topics like marketing and entrepeneurship, but besides that I'm happy.
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      Rave: Two more days until I get to go back to university!
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      Glad y'all are well

      I ended up hibernating for nearly a week. My cough never progressed. Never had any major problems. I just couldn't wake up for anything.
      I'm back at around 80%. I'm still fairly exhausted, but I can actually stay awake for the most part.

      Rant: I'm stuck on taxi duty for the rest of this week until Monday or Tuesday. They were approved for the insurance, it's just taking a while to switch over for some reason.

      Rant: The dogs still reek They enter my room and I get an instant headache. It's not so much skunk, just smelly dog. Kierra got another shower tonight. Pup will get one tomorrow.

      Curiosity: There's something dead in the yard. It has no fur, no legs, no tail, just a nub of a tail with a bit of fur. It's too big to be the kitten the lost, but not quite big enough to be Mojo. It's skinless like a chicken breast and one of the weirdest things I've seen. I'm almost ready to sniff it to end the mystery, except that would just be disgusting seeing how we've had a bit of a thaw and a lot of rain (and, well, it would be disgusting regardless lol). I'm thinking it might be a skunk. Did the dogs kill the one that sprayed them? The missing head is a bit concerning. Animals eat the brains of their kills for extra nourishment (actually, I'm going to have to google that again, it's been a while). The dogs eat well and so do the cats. hmmmmm...

      Rant: I'm back on my, mainly, soup diet and no sodas. The bloat is driving me bonkers again. I'm not going too crazy with it this time though. At least not right away. I'm also eating yogurt and Tapioca pudding and jello. I'll also continue snacking on my pickle potato chips until the bag is gone or they get too stale (the bag's almost 2 weeks old now).
      Blah.
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      Rave: I had a few in-person interviews for a few jobs. The assistant store manager job seems tempting, but I might turn it down because, for another job, I seemed to hit the nail for them in what they want. And, I have a family member thatís a manager in another section that I can have close ties to in the future. This future grand opening of the other company is something I was already used to, but I guess I have to choose which can be consistent for me. One is a higher salary, but once youíre there, you move up to at most, two higher positions. The district manager said I can watch some videos he'll e-mail and see if I truly want to be part of the company for the long-term. The other is more branched out, centralized, and has more room for internal growth over the years. But, I would have to see a kink in the pay, but itís better than having no job.


      I surprisingly wasnít nervous at the interviews, and all of them had positive reception towards me; one even proclaimed I was very articulate which felt odd to me. Maybe Iím still too hard on myself. I can usually gauge if theyíre just being patronizing or genuine, but Iím glad I have a little more wiggle room and can ditch other jobs if they donít see me as favorable. Iím also accepting of the probability that I may just be engaging in delusions of grandeur, and Iím over-estimating job hunting and interviews. Regardless, I'm content that the risk to help out my family led to something worth it.
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      Way to go Link! As long as working with (or in some way tied to) family wont be a problem in the long term, go for which ever you like most. Sounds very promising!

      Concerned Hilarity: the puppy stole a squeaky dog ball from somewhere. I saw it when I came home from dropping off the girls. I'm in good spirits and energy today, so I started stepping on the ball to make it squeak. Kierra started shivering and got anxiously playful. The puppy seemed concerned. I then spoke with my son some and when I turned around, the ball was gone. The pup moved it to the kitchen behind me. I stepped on it some more and he started blocking my foot, then carried the ball off into my room.

      When I got to the room, I tried stepping on it and the pup guarded it again, but growled at my foot.
      I hate noisy toys. I never buy them. I've bought the dogs frizbees and bounce balls and chew toys, but they've never been interested in them. I just thought they weren't one for toys but liked walking, running and rough-housing instead.

      I then got out the dogs treats. I made the pup sit (errrr, sort of lol). I distracted him with the treat then picked up the toy. I gave him a treat, pet him, gave him his toy. I repeated it a few times so he wouldn't be so possessive and anxious. I imagine I'll have to repeat that a few more times....
      and then go to the neighbor behind us and ask if they lost a toy. I hear a small dog outside barking, so it likely came from there.
      And then I'll buy the pup his own. As far as squeak goes, it's not too obnoxious.

      Rant: I showered the pup which only made him smell worse It reactivated the skunk oil. I even washed him in Dawn dish soap, and not even that could cut the oil

      Rave: I took a Vyvance today (which is why I'm in good spirits and energy). But I've been sitting down and then typing for some 15 minutes now, and my pulse is 110 I guess I can't have everything
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      Blah... soooooo sleepy. I crashed at 3:30AM and woke at 8:30 I woke up straight from dreams because I felt my protection failing (period). And I woke feeling extra strange. My skin felt numb everywhere.
      I ate some mushroom bisque for breakfast, finished watching Private Practice (2 episodes), ate some Tapioca, got on Gems til it made me fall asleep (15 minutes ) and now it's noon and I'm ready to go back to sleep.
      I want to take a caffeine pill and try to make myself stay awake, but that only has about a 15% chance of actually working.

      Rant: I'm stuck on taxi duty for up to 2 more weeks. There was a hiccup with the insurance and she has to reapply

      Rant: I still feel sort of numbed. Not quite in a disassociation sort of way but close. My skin just doesn't feel quite right.

      Rant: I think the Dr messed up my CPAP settings. He was supposed to have cranked up the pressure but it always felt the same. I switched the setting from 5minutes to auto and it says my pressure is "6". It was previously 7. I just don't know. I had nearly 6 episodes of apnea, an hour last night That's the worst I've done in a long time.

      Going back to bed...
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      Being back at university has been pretty nice. Still 2 weeks until classes start, so I guess it's a little boring as well, but I've been trying to use the time productively by setting up my room and preparing for the incoming semester. At the moment I have a few goals, they include: getting back into lucid dreaming, not biting my nails anymore, losing the weight I put on while I was at home, and just to apply myself more in general.

      Tomorrow I'm going to be trying a sensory deprivation tank for the first time (not sure if you guys are familiar with them) I'm looking pretty forward to it. I think it'll be at the very least, an interesting experience.

      Hope everyone is well, talk soon!
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      Being back at university has been pretty nice. Still 2 weeks until classes start, so I guess it's a little boring as well, but I've been trying to use the time productively by setting up my room and preparing for the incoming semester. At the moment I have a few goals, they include: getting back into lucid dreaming, not biting my nails anymore, losing the weight I put on while I was at home, and just to apply myself more in general.

      Tomorrow I'm going to be trying a sensory deprivation tank for the first time (not sure if you guys are familiar with them) I'm looking pretty forward to it. I think it'll be at the very least, an interesting experience.

      Hope everyone is well, talk soon!
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      Yuppie, enjoy the productivity and the deprivement (? lol). An old member here, Tommo, used to make his own tanks. He was having a lot of trouble with it but always seemed excited.

      I took another Vyvanse at 2PM yesterday. Being on Taxi duty is killing me, my sleep, my everything. I took it too late in the day, though and couldn't sleep last night I laid down, on my iPad, at 10 this morning. My pulse was racing wildly. Meh. I'm used to my pulse being fast and weird. But then I started having intense chest pain. "Chill your britches or you'll make yourself anxious and make it worse." So I ignored it, played my games and then caught myself saying "excuse me". I farted pretty loudly lol. And then I burst out laughing because my chest pain went away.


      I swear, I better never have a heart attack. I get gas pain so terribly that I'll have pains shoot down my arms. What the friggin heck?

      I stayed up all day today so I could pick my daughter up from work. 30 minutes before I had to leave, her wife came back to tell me someone else was giving her a ride home I could have slept all that time lol
      I got up, threatened everyone NOT to disturb me. I was FINALLY going to sleep (5PM) and I was going to sleep until noon tomorrow. I woke up at 10:30

      Oh well.

      Rave: I placed an order, on-line, for a bunch of different e-juices. All in all, I'm getting about 90 ml for $35. (plus $5. for shipping). At my local store, I pay about $23. for 30 ml. I am SO excited about my order.

      Rave-ish: the girls get to play hooky from work tomorrow. The roads are too flooded with all the rain we've been getting.

      Rant: the puppy came limping into my room earlier. He was even "crying" (he produces tears when he's upset). I can't see or feel anything out of place. My daughter finally figured out that he probably hurt it from the recliner. It's a very old chair. The dogs dug and chewed a hole into it and the animals like the sleep in it. There might be a spring or something that he got his paw stuck in.

      Rant: Our front door is broken. It won't close. The pins, on the hinge, look broken. Once the rain slacks off, we're going to try to hammer them back in place. Gah!

      I hope everyone is well
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      I got my e-juices quickly and already put in a second order (I still have left over, I just wanted bigger bottles). They're okay juices. They tend to "pop" more when vaping so I changed the VP/PG ratios on this new order to see if that helps.

      Curiosity: Right before I fell asleep this morning, I had a really weird pain. It was high up on my outer left thigh. It wasn't a Charlie Horse or a spasm. It was just a cramp that tinged then got increasingly worse with severe pain in the span of moments. Then it was gone. Completely. Just like *that*. If I apply forceful pressure to the area, it's slightly sore. But only slightly. I've never had that pain before so it was really weird.

      Rave: I fell in love with Altered Carbon on Netflix.

      Rave: No more taxi duty for me. The girls got their insurance.

      Rave-ish: I'm playing WoW again... so I could play with my youngest daughter. I've gotten 2 toons to level 25, one to 21 and a Death Knight to 57 (starts at 55 though, so ) and I've only played with her once. For about 30 minutes to run a dungeon Oh well. I'm loving the game again, even if I am all by my lonesome (how I prefer to play anyhow, so it's all good).

      Rant: I'm fairly certain Mojo did die in the vents. There's a slight smell of death near my room.

      Rant: I have been in a very foul mood for the last 3 days for no reason whatsoever.

      Curiosity: I've been sleeping amazingly well. I was falling asleep by 11 and awake by 7 for some 2 weeks. But I still needed caffeine pills to make it through the day and by 7PM I felt ready to pass out My CPAP has been scoring me at 77-100 with fewer apnea episodes. Why am I still so friggin exhausted? And why am I so crabby? My vision's ... and there's my answer. I'm working on a migraine. Light is off. My vision is weird. My mood is foul. But a three day advance notice? Bah!!

      Life is otherwise quiet and fine. Hope everyone out there in DV is good

      **EDIT**
      I have no idea what's going on with my brain. I just googled migraines and found auras. My visual disturbances are nothing cool like the ones I found. It's just that my eyes are slightly harder to focus, so images are slightly blurry. The biggest problem is that the "contrast" seems wrong for the world. As if light isn't "bright" enough.
      Furthermore, auras are very short lived from what I skimmed. A three day warning doesn't make sense.
      Meh... one more puzzle to piece together

      Curiosity: This morning I recalled something the Allergy Dr. said. I woke to find myself picking my nose as I do most mornings (um, yeah) when I recalled he said I had a slightly deviated septum. So I wondered if my morning habit could cause it. It can't. (thank you, Google, once again). It's even actually associated with Ehlers-Danlos. Huh.
      It can cause headaches. I've had headaches, to varying degrees, nearly every single day for my entire life since around puberty. One side of my nose constantly feels clogged. It can also cause sleep apnea.
      I see the Allergy Dr. on Thursday (I think- it might be the Gastro Dr.), but I definitely have to remember to ask more about this!!!
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