I'm trying to make it work. ^^Quote:
Originally Posted by DawnEye11
Not openly, but it's just that I don't have a proper foundation with them. They have their own dynamic which I can't integrate myself because my SO and I kept to ourselves for so long. While they are mingling and talking, I'm in my room by myself. We don't talk unless we have something to talk. It's a distant relationship. No one knows how to make it work. They go on vacations together and stuff. I recently went with them on a mini-vacation, but it felt so strange as if i didn't belong. Everyone was talking and mingling in the car while I was on my phone watching Netflix. There is no open negativity between us, but no closeness either.Quote:
Originally Posted by KarlaB18
That's the strange part with me. There is already sort of a guide that's like my SO. From the days following my SO passing away a hyperconscious entity has been coming to my dreams claiming to be my SO. She looks like my SO but there is a radiance about her. The thing is I'm hesitant to believe it's really her. It could be my subconsciousness helping me cope. Unfortunately sleep doesn't come easily to me. I can sleep naturally only every 3 days. I have dreams with my SO and this entity keeping me company. Perhaps one of the reason I haven't completely drowned into depression yet.Quote:
Originally Posted by KarlaB18
Yes. I'm still seeing my psychiatrist and am still on antidepressant and anti-anxiety meds. Initially I was suicidal, but since I seem more stable now I'm no longer under observation. I'm sort of glad my attempts failed.Quote:
Originally Posted by Zhaylin