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      Ooooh, you mean dream tasks, IC? I just noticed your wings. Way to go!!

      Meh: I got 5 hours, 13 minutes of sleep. Had 3.4 apnea events an hour. I NEED to start getting more friggin sleep. This is ridiculous!!!
      I recall a "Hand Maiden" type dream which also revolved around China's ("Black Mirror"-esque) Social rating system. I was pregnant for another family and wrote that I was considering killing myself. The host family set up a sort of Intervention but I woke before I got too far into the dream. I'm at a loss for the interpretation. Except for the Social experiment thing... I watched a video earlier in the day about it. I did see a happy, seemingly well-to-do and attractive pregnant woman at the store last night. How and why my brain married everything together though, lol, who knows

      Rave: I completed one of the Events in roblox yesterday. Now it's time to tackle the other event (why they had 2 run at the same time is beyond me. It's hard enough just to finish one of them!!! And to think this game is meant for kids... who go to school all day )

      Rant-ish: I slept on my broken arm again last night. I guess I've healed up plenty fine. When it was still actively healing, pain or my subconscience or something kept me off the arm. Now I find myself lying on that side all the time I woke up aching a lot so I got in an hour with my TENS. I don't know just how good it is though It is neat though.

      Rave-ish: I've not had any Tylenol for at least a week; maybe closer to 2 weeks. All in all, I am fairly pleased with my progress and pain tolerance. And I am very grateful for my Ehlers-Danlos as well as my decision to not rely on the Sling unless I'm up and about.

      Rant: I want to get back on Roblox and tackle that other event... but there are too many chatty-cathy's on-line right now.

      Rave: My incision is very angry looking, but the sore has finally completely healed over.
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      Rant: 5hrs, 38 min sleep on CPAP (and total), 4.2 apnea events and hour
      BUT... it was MUCH better than I expected First off, I wiped the inside of my nose with an alcohol wipe right before putting my CPAP on. I do that from time to time, especially when I have sores. Last night, though, my nose was a little drippy and I wanted to dry it out.
      Well... there was a bit too much alcohol on the wipe I used It didn't burn or anything (I'm fairly immune to that now-a-days), but it was so drying it caused my sinuses to swell. When I first put my mask on, it felt like I could barely breathe.

      THEN, I couldn't fall asleep until around 4:30AM. I was expecting to have to be awake by 8 The girls overslept though, so I got to sleep in an extra hour.

      Rave-ish: I was supposed to take Paula to Morgantown this morning (about 1 - 1 1/2 hours away). She went to the ER last night. She hasn't been able to sleep properly for a couple months, and she had been awake a couple days yesterday. Her pulse in her neck was throbbing weird, she was dizzy, had double vision. I scoff at such things. My immediate thought was BP and sleep deprivation. However, Dr's think she has MS and worry she may be having mini strokes. They wanted her to go to the other hospital for an in depth MRI. She was to make the appointment herself, though. They recommended she ask for a Resident else the appointment may be too far into the future. They didn't have enough concrete concerns to warrant shipping her there ASAP.
      SO.. while I'm glad I didn't have to make that drive, I am worried for her and hope she can get an appointment soon.

      Rant/Rave: Their car drama continues. I did have to take them to work. I picked up McD's Big Breakfast with Hotcakes I ate everything except the biscuit (I never eat that). I usually have half a stack left which I give to the kids. Not today. I happily ate every last bite

      Rant: My incision is acting up today. Last night, I had a hard bit. I thought it was just a miniscule bit of scabbing. When I woke today, there was the teensiest bit of ooze. Seriously? It's in the SAME spot. Maybe it's the stitch that was further down which hadn't worked it way up entirely..
      I also slept on that arm again. What the heck?!

      I am so sleepy...
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      Rant: I stood in a supermarket check-out line for 2 hours last night. By the time we left to go to the other place that we need to go to was closed. That was the only check-out line that was open on Sunday.
      Plus I wasn't feeling well. I felt like shit.
      The woman cashier reminded me of the Sloth from Zootopia. It's not her fault. It's the management's fault who didn't have anyone working the other lines. At one point, she told us to tell the other people to go to another line because she needed to leave to go home. By the time another line open, we were already waiting an hour. Then we were done it was 2 hours.
      When we left home, we said, that we were going to go out to get some stuff for Canadian Thanksgiving today. Speaking of nuts, I was unable to get Pecans for my cranberry sauce and pecan pies.

      Rave: I'm almost done with the TOTY tasks.
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      TWO friggin hours standing in line?! I would be infuriated. I doubt I'd ever return to the store again!!! There's no excuse for that. Or, perhaps, people in the US are spoiled? Is it common to wait that long or was it an insane holiday rush?
      WTG with those tasks!!

      Rants: Headache. It's not my usual headache though. It's in a different spot (and my TMJ is still minimal). It's most likely do to extreme fatigue. I am REALLY, REALLY feeling it today.
      I also had to pick up the girls from work after all. (But, they're going to clean out my car in replace of giving me extra gas money )
      I might be "trying" to get a migraine. I can't see for Sh** today and I'm very crabby.

      Interesting: My "rib slippage" is acting up It just feels like my ribs (left side) are getting snagged and it pops sometimes. I had to look up what it was. I get it a lot- but normally only during really long car trips. Maybe it's associated (for me) more to stress and sleep deprivation than actual posture from driving (what I had formerly written it off as). In my search for that, though, I found another page about Costochondritis. I'm not sure that's what I have after all. That sounds more like a rib thing than a chest wall thing. Precordial Catch Syndrome sounds like a closer match... but even that's not *quite* it. Dead center between my breasts, but higher up (perhaps the middle of my chest) is where I feel the problem. It makes me "freeze" and breathing hurts until it sort of clicks back to place (almost like two muscles snagged together). I develop inflammation and pop the bone like I pop my knuckles. It was scary when it happened as a kid. Now it's just annoying, lol, and definitely connected to high stress. The search continues.

      Rave: I was draining my wound and low and behold, a bit of suture revealed itself. I had Miley hold a flashlight. I sterilized my x-acto blade and handed it to Destinee. Then I pulled it out as far as I dared and had Destinee cut it. This is going to be such an ongoing pain in the rear... but it's something I feel safe (relatively lol) taking care of myself.

      Bah: I have to go to the store tonight. I am NOT up for it in the LEAST!!!

      Rave: PT went very well... but concerning. My shoulder keeps clicking- like wonky joints are wont to do. It feels JUST like that. I worry about forcing the issue and causing damage. PT seems to think it's just scar tissue breaking up- which is a GOOD thing.
      So, I forced myself through the discomfort. Once I get to about the 3 o'clock position (but forward facing), it clicks each and every time.
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      Rant: I have a bit of a backache today. Need to check my calendar to see when my moon time will arrive.

      Rave: I slept fairly well even though I only got in 4hours 25 minutes on my CPAP (2.4 apneas an hour). I fell back to sleep after taking it off. Got in little over an hour more. Don't recall any dream specifics though (I know of three different themes but not the details).

      Rave: My rip slippage subsided after getting some proper sleep.

      Meh: have PT today. I like PT, I just hate leaving the house
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      My friend lives in the path of the hurricane.

      Rave: I have some Tasks completed. I asked my birds Yahtzee and Moxie if I can borrow their wings just until I get my task wings and Yahtzee just laughed at me.

      Add a rant to that: I have a sore throat. I think I'm coming down with something and right before my birthday... Crap.
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      I need to vent.

      This week sucks.

      I had a birthday... that was nice... other than that... suckage.

      My favourite band, Beach House, that I have wanted to see for ages played in my country on my birthday and I didn't hear about it till afterwards.

      Then again, I wouldn't have been able to afford to go, as the day after my birthday I was told that I won't be receiving a student loan, so now my whole financial situation is completely broken. Then I left the house and immediately got a huge speeding ticket. Came back home, and my computer was dead.

      I went to the doctor to start my diagnosis of ADD, and got lots of bad news in relation to that. Basically the public psychologists are too busy with more serious mental health issues. And I can't afford private.

      I need to be diagnosed and medicated if I'm going to have a shot at succeeding with what I'm trying to do. It's way too much. Even basic human stuff that most people can do without thinking is a challenge when your brain executive functioning doesn't work. No matter how hard I try I keep making the same stupid mistakes over and over again.

      I'm not worried that people think I'm useless or an idiot for failing at simple stuff, I'm used to that and I don't care. But when I mess up or forget things and let people down, or cause them trouble, I worry that they think it's because I don't care about them.

      I'm most likely getting kicked out of a statistics course in school because I forgot to deliver two assignments in a row, even though I had completed them both days before the deadline.

      I'm falling way behind on schoolwork and I have a load of assignments and no time to do them even if I was able to start.

      When I get overwhelmed I stick my head in the sand, but if I don't get my act together and work like a champ from tomorrow on, I'll fail this semester. I am starting to think that it's for the best. But I don't know what else to do. I've been waiting for years to figure out what I want to do with my life... and now that I'm finally doing something, I'm failing.

      I just want to go south in a van, with a music studio in the back. But I know I won't.

      I just realized I have been editing this post for almost an hour, and it's more or less the same as when I posted it. I don't understand myself.
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      at your bird, IC. They wound so wonderful.
      I hope your friend and their home is okay and that you get rid of that sore throat quickly!

      Vader. Your week definitely sounds like one for the books!!! Don't lose hope, though, as hard as it is. Keep hounding people for help. Try using multiple alarms to keep you on task and on time. I hope life cuts you a break and things start to go smoothly for you soon.

      Rant: I'm friggin falling asleep at my desk again. I got 5 hours, 12 minutes on my CPAP. I think I took it off at little after 9:00, but then I fell back to sleep until noon. That would come out to be around 8 hours of sleep. I annoying at being THIS fatigued all the friggin time. Provigil helps... but it helps more at 1 1/2 pills instead of the 1 prescribed. It occurred to me that I would quickly run out if I kept it up So now I'll be alternating days between them and caffeine/Green Tea pills (which are sub par but slightly better than nothing at all )

      Rave/Rant: My backache went away (for now). Since my iPad died, however, I no longer have my period tracker and I've forgotten the old system I used to use. Was it 5 days previous than the month before? 3 days? 7? My last visit was on the 21st of last month, so whatever my previous system was, I should expect it relatively soon lol.

      Rave: At PT on Wednesday, they re-evaluated me and said I had made vast improvements regarding my range of motion. Imagine how much further along I'd be if I wasn't a such lazy piece of poo. I do none of my exercises at home (except passively just through basic use).
      So, last night, I unscrewed the handle off of my broom. Before I go to sleep each night, and when I wake up, I'll start doing them. The handle is for passively lifting my bad arm with my good one. When I did it last night, my shoulder popped several times

      Rant: I STILL haven't done any laundry What a friggin bother.

      Meh: I have to roll change today if I hope to buy all my meds tonight. I guess I could just watch Sherlock to make it less tedious.

      **EDIT**
      lol, Vader, I somehow managed to miss your last sentence (I even checked the time stamps to see if our posts are overlapping... Nope). I used to do the same thing and still do sometimes. It's just part of being a perfectionist. You can work on that yourself by just letting it go. It's hard at first, but it does get easier.
      Just to prove my point, I'm going to ignore editing the fourth sentence of my rant about fatigue. I cringed when I read it
      But, meh, it's not THAT important and people can still get the gist of what I was saying
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      You're able to leave that there? Your power level is amazing!

      I should probably stop editing so much as well. Problem is when I start I completely loose track of time. And I just keep editing till I catch myself.

      Edit: I was about to edit this to clarify something, but I won't. #FirstStep
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      Rant: My chronic sinusitis is killing me. I become dependent on nose drugs and I barely can sleep.
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      Ha! I'm the worst. I edit too many times... Sometimes not enough. I feel worse than I did last night. I had some really epic LD Last night. I need to write them DJ.. *Off to sneeze myself to death.*
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      Bow before my superior ability to tune things out

      I couldn't find a clip of it on YouTube just now, but my goodness how it sums up my life! (It can, however be rented https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ij97lXlIR-4) I use to LOVE "Monk". There was one episode where one of his assistants stole a monkey that was to be put down. She hid it in his house. Monk has SEVERE OCD- everything has to be absolutely perfect and germ free. He was walking through his house. Pictures were lop-sided, cabinets in the kitchen were wide open and food was spilled everywhere. He just continued about his business as if blind to the chaos (he was disassociating ).
      Therein lies the truth to my super power

      feel better soon Gordan. Have you tried allergy meds?
      Personally, I love "Little Remedies" because it has the least amount of drainage into my throat. When my allergies are severe though, I prefer "Flonase" (and the name brand stuff IS better than the generic for some reason). I go easy on both though because I just don't like stuff in my nose
      For allergy meds, I take an Allegra in the AM and Benadryl at bedtime... plus I get an allergy shot once a week

      IC, hope you got your dream written and escaped the sneezes lol

      Rant: I actually fell asleep at 3:30AM (instead of 4:30-5 I've been doing). I woke up at 8:30 to remove my CPAP. It seems, about 5 hours is the cap of my tolerance level for wearing it. I didn't bother going back to sleep because I had to get my shot today, which meant I could have only gotten an extra hour.

      Rave: Skipping Provigil yesterday was a great idea. I truly do think I'm going to continue skipping every other day. I can feel it working today. I was downright CHATTY at PT and I'm just not a chatty person normally.

      Rant: Haven't seen baby Raccoony all day. I hope he's just enjoying the great outdoors and hasn't gotten himself into trouble.

      Rant: Miley's unreasonable and mean when it comes to the puppy. She wants to pop him for "talking" and to dump his water for having to go outside so much. I nagged her, saying it takes 5 minutes out of her day every 3 hours and to just deal with it.

      Rant: Poor Momma dog looks terrible. She had bald spots on her rump, the tops of her ears and the tops of her feet. She's laying on the cold floor, shivering. She has a blanket to lay on in the other room, but she wants to be in here with me (no room for the blanket). I laid down a piece of cardboard and she's curled on it, but it doesn't seem to be helping at all.

      This should be a quiet day. I really hope this energy holds out. When Ray wakes up, I'm going to have him wipe down (and out) the washing machine so I can finally tackle this laundry. I have enough energy to do so for once!! It all depends on just how long he snoozes.
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      Rant: My allergies have been extreme these last couple days. My poor eyeballs are suffering the most (dry/itchy eyes). I've not been taking my Allegra regularly, so that might be contributing. I think it's mostly the change of weather, though. I'm also trying to get a "fever blister". I used to NEVER get those things, but I recall ranting here in relative recent memory. They never fully break through (so far!), which is a good thing.

      Rant: I was just sitting, here at my desk, when I heard some high pitched animal cries. Hmmm. I kept tilting my ears but the sound wasn't constant enough to track. Then Miley came back: "I need you to help me find out what's crying- it sounds like it's coming from outside."
      And sure enough... I track down the cries to the RV. Just under it, were 2 new baby cats. Their eyes have recently opened, so they're at least 6-8 weeks old.
      I heard more cries, so I called out. Then our cat, Mew, sticks her head out of a hole. Lovely. I stuck my hand up the hole but couldn't feel anything. I read what the door went to: "Sewer" I wondered if it would be locked, but nope, opened easily and there sat 3 more babies. I couldn't reach one of them and Mew bit at Miley whenever she tried to grab it. So, 4 new babies are inside. We're waiting for the other to fall out the hole (and start crying the alarm) or for Mew to come inside to eat, then we'll snatch up the last one. It's too cold for them to be outside.
      When the heck did Mew become pregnant again and how is the time-line possible? Raccoony is only 2-3 months old. She must have gotten pregnant with her new brood while she was still carrying the others (it's possible, to my amazement- I had to look it up earlier in the year, when I was confused as to why a male was mounting a pregnant female)

      BAH!!! Our Colony grows. These 5 look extremely healthy too yet Sick and dying cats are, of course, extremely sad. But so is having more cats than I could possibly care for.

      Rave/Rant: I slept from 4-11:30 AM. I thought I slept fairly well, but I'm exhausted. So I pulled up my results. I used my CPAP for 5hrs, 38 minutes with only 2.1 episodes an hour. I went back to sleep after taking it off. Fitbit says I was "Asleep" for 5 hours, 29 minutes and "Restless/Awake" for 144 minutes It seems the largest of that chunk was right before I took off my CPAP until a short while after I fell back to sleep without it.

      Rave: Momma dog looks like she's in a heavenly state. Puppy's grooming her sore ears and she's leaning into him with a look that's sheer pleasure.

      **EDIT**
      It might not be allergies killing my eyes after all. I just glanced down at my humidity/temperature thingamajig. It's currently 75 degrees with 37% humidity After months of it being well above 58% this is probably quite a shock to my system!!

      I brought in that other kitten. Mew bit and scratched at me as well (nothing serious, didn't even pierce or scratch the skin). She might have one other hiding in there with her. I thought I heard something and she's refused to leave the spot.
      She's not a fan of the puppy but she does come inside to eat sometimes (we also leave food outside).
      The kittens are in Paula and Destinees room because they have a space heater. They're not going to be overly pleased about their new roommates but there is nowhere else they can be placed that's warm and secluded from the puppy.
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      Bah! At around 3AM, I went to the RV to try to coax Mew into coming inside (had tried a few times throughout the day, as well). She growled, which is VERY unlike her. She was very upset. I still think she has a baby hidden in there somewhere.
      So, I ended up bringing all the kittens back out to her. The kittens had gone some 12 hours without eating which is very dangerous at their age. It's better for them to be out there, even if it is cold. I hope she just as sense enough and dexterity enough to carry them back up the hole if they fall out again.
      I checked on them earlier and they all seem healthy and happy

      Rant: I was falling asleep to the EXTREME while playing Roblox earlier. DESPITE taking my Provigil and then 1/2 a couple hours later. Those games do, indeed, seem to be my undoing. The other day when I posted about having energy and loving it.... I forgot to rant that the energy disappeared as soon as I started gaming
      I fell asleep at 4:35AM and used my CPAP for almost 5 1/2 hours (3.1 episodes an hour and I need to adjust my mask a little- had some leakage). I fell back to sleep after taking it off at around 10:30. Fitbit says I got 4 hours and 50 minutes worth of sleep
      I didn't wake up again until noon, BUT: I spent 155 minutes "restless or awake". Seriously? I spent nearly 3 hours tossing and turning? That's crazy. No friggin wonder I'm always so exhausted!

      Rave: No taxi duty OR PT tomorrow. The girls were going to need me to take them on Monday's because no one from the area works that day normally. But a friend is starting training tomorrow, so I'm off the hook As for PT, they were overbooked Monday, so I'm off the hook there too.

      Rant: I'm being over-run with Stink Bugs. These suckers are everywhere this year. Usually, I'll have 1-2 hang out in my room for a few months. There must be close to a dozen in here. Of course, most of them are too high for me to reach

      Rave: The incision is doing marvelously. No more escaping sutures so far!!

      I hope everyone had a great weekend and that y'all are looking forward to the week ahead.

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      Oi! Of course I'm falling asleep at my desk now that I want to stay awake all night
      I have to take my daughter-in-law to our local hospital at 7AM for a double mastectomy (complications from Hidradenitis, not cancer). Seeing how I don't typically fall asleep before 4:30, there just wasn't any point in even laying down.
      Of course, sitting in mostly darkness is not helping matters any lol, but Birdie was insistent.

      Rant/Rave: My thighs have been killing me for the last 2 nights BUT, I just used my TENS unit on it (as high as I've ever used it lol) and it seems to have helped some. I don't know how long it will help, but I welcome the reprieve!!

      Curiosity: For the last few days (mostly night time), I've been having a tiny spot between my ankles (front side) that feels tingly. Almost like a stray hair or something crawling on me. There's nothing there though- not even any skin irritation I've had it before and it always makes me curious (same general area too).

      Rave: I see my p-doc today. 3 months between visits is far too long lol.

      Rave: I took a pic of one of my house spiders and the way the flash of my phone lit him up, he seems almost alien.

      I cannot wait until I get Paula taken care of so I can crash until my appointment!!
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      Rant-ish: It would be a full blown, hard-core rant... if I had the energy for it. I woke with a nasty headache which has gotten worse throughout the day. I broke down and took 2 Tylenols and 2 Ibuprofen as well as half a Provigil (the Green Tea w/ Hoodia just isn't cutting it today).
      It's an all over sort of headache; starting at the outside base of my head. There's some weird-ish sort of pressure behind my ears, then pain behind and above my eyes... It's almost like a "\" through my head. It's not the sort of headache I'm intimately familiar with, but I've had them at times in the past. It's dull but constant, yet starts throbbing if I move.
      It's making me want to go to sleep and to move as little as possible.
      I should take my BP... YIKES! I guess 1/2 of an Atenolol is in order! 149/102 pulse of 102 What the heck?!
      And yet... it makes me wonder... did the headache cause the high blood pressure or was it the other way around

      Meh: I'm cold, but it's 79 degrees in my room...

      Annoyance: My bloat is back in force. I look like I'm 7 months pregnant again. My bowels are back to being regular, but hard to pass (completely normal for me however lol)... who the heck knows.

      Amazement: I managed to drink TWO 52 oz frozen Coke's yesterday I've already had one today. I don't think I've been this well hydrated and having to pee so much for a VERY long time

      Rave-ish: I managed to sleep fairly well last night. I used my CPAP for just under 4 hours, but went on to get about 3 more hours of sleep.

      Concerned Rave: Paula's procedure went very well and they discharged her today.... but she "lost a lot of blood" and she reacted very badly to the anesthesia and morphine and had a very hard time coming out of it. She's having considerable leg pain/weakness/heaviness, which is just strange. I tried googling it, but everything comes up as being a side effect from cancer or chemo which doesn't apply to her.

      I've been writing this for just over 30 minutes. I've had a couple distractions though, lol (2 phone calls). It seems my headache has stabilized for the time being

      Rave: Oh yes!- I saw my p-doc yesterday which was very overdue. He prescribed a sleeping pill which I picked up today. I am VERY eager to put it to use

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      Hello everyone, I've been out of commission doing tons of medical appointments that tests.

      That hemorrhage I have the bleeding location has been found out, and I currently am waiting on the results. It's ulcers, so I'm happy that the bleeding site has been located.

      Take care.
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      Oh my gosh, I hope you feel better soon.
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      YIKES, Indigo!!! Now that they know what's going on, I hope they're able to make repairs or heal it very quickly!!
      Get better soon, and keep us updated

      Rave: PT went so well today that they said I can start going twice a week instead of 3 times. They said my mobility is pretty outstanding.

      Rant-ish: My p-doc recommended I take the entire 50mg of Trazodone for sleep. I am EXTREMELY sensitive to sedation, though, so I took half instead. I thought I slept fairly well: 5hrs on CPAP, 1.7 apneas an hour, then an extra 1 1/2 hours after I removed it. Fitbit says I slept from 4:30-11:00 AM so 6 1/2 hours; but I was "restless or awake" for 52 minutes... which is a VAST improvement of my norm!!!
      I went to the restroom at PT, though, and saw myself in the mirror. i look HAGGARD lol. Usually, when I skimp on sleep, my wrinkles are much more prevalent. I LOOK like I haven't slept in 2 days

      Meh: Gotta go back to the store tonight; take Sis to a rent-to-own place so she can pay a bill; pick up hubby some food.

      Rave: Despite how I look, I feel fairly awake today. Of course, I haven't gotten on one of my games yet though.

      Curiosity: I am still MAJORLY curious as to why certain games knock me the heck out- regardless of how much sleep I've gotten (and which has been the case for some 20+ years).
      I wondered if it could be some sort of seizure variant... But I've never had a history (self or family*) and the games don't have strobe-light type effects.
      *When Sis was just a few days old, she had several grand mal seizures. She was put on meds and a heart monitor for them. Dr's couldn't find a cause so they wrote it off as something she'd outgrow (they were more technical, but that was the gist). And, sure enough, she did.

      Rave: Headaches have been back to the usual and a 1-2 (pain scale) annoyance. My BP is wonderfully normal.

      Time to get on my games for a couple hours. Let's see how I fair then

      **EDIT**
      I forgot to write about yesterday's adventures.
      I was sitting at my desk when I felt something land on my upper arm. I thought it was an annoying Stink Bug and just brushed it away. But as I did so, I caught a glimpse of it. It was actually a Yellow Jacket.
      It took me about 3 minutes to find my gardening gloves. He was on my mosquito net. I just walked over, cupped my hand over him then took him outside and released him. No fuss, no muss. Perhaps the cold weather made him more docile.

      Yet, later in the evening, I felt a very sharp pinch on my lower leg. What the heck?! I looked down and there sat a friggin Stable Fly. So, the bee didn't hurt me but a fly did
      Hurry up, Winter, and get here already
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      Rave: After my p-doc visit, I passed a shop on Main Street that had beautiful shawls outside. I stopped in to see if they had any vests to replace my tattered one. Sure enough, they did. And because it was a Summer item, it was marked down in price 40%. I told hubby about it, then took out an advance against next week. I went in and bought it today. It was normally $46. but I paid something like $29. with the mark down
      Rant: But it was a very impractical purchase It's WHITE and exceptionally long (falls to just above my ankles). It also doesn't have a button or belt. There was also a pic- but it's along the outermost edge in a more stable area and easily remedied.
      On Monday, I'm going to see about either buying a button or large eyelets (?) for a strap (? 2 cords to tie closed).

      Rave: I was VERY well rested yesterday. My games did NOT put me to sleep.

      Rant: The same cannot be said of today however But, today was a Green Tea with Hoodia day... I'm going to break down and take 1/2 a Provigil. Or, maybe I should take a caffeine pill instead.

      I hope everyone's looking forward to the weekend.

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      OI!- last nights sleep sucked beyond the usual suckage!!! Though Fitbit seems to disagree.
      I actually laid down, last night, at 10PM because I was too sleepy for life... and yet I still didn't fall asleep until 2:30 (according to Fitbit. I would've sworn I passed out before 1AM). I only used my CPAP for 1 hour 58 minutes. I kept waking up, then falling asleep while sitting up; waking up, then laying down. And my dreams!!- they were exceptionally vivid and exceedingly disturbing (for the most part).
      I went to sleep with my undies on, anticipating Mr. Monthly. In my last 2 hours of sleep, I sweat so much I could almost wring them out!

      I looked at the weather before turning in last night. The temps weren't supposed to drop below 50, so I slept with my AC on (set at 75). I was also sleeping with my heating pad on though. When I briefly woke some 2 hours prior, I had a nasty headache due to muscle tension in my neck from sleeping weird. I fell asleep with the pad behind my head which triggered the excessive sweating.
      I'm waiting 10 more minutes, to gather my senses, and then I'm hopping into the shower!!!

      Oh yeah, Fitbit placed my total results as 7hrs, 41 minutes of sleep with only 1.9 minutes "awake" (2 hours, 6 minutes of REM; 4hrs 33 minutes of light sleep and 1 hr 2 minutes of Deep sleep... though I still don't believe their claims of determining such )

      I need to google if trazodone should be taken with Benadryl. My dreams were much more extreme than usual. I've taken Benadryl at bedtime for months now. Last night, though, I took my recommended 50mg of the sleeping med along with my usuals. That's the only things different which could have caused them...

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      Last's nights sleep was darn near perfect.
      I started my period early in the evening yesterday, so that probably helped contribute (in the largest way) to my messed up sleep and dreams the night before last.
      I took my meds at 1:30AM and didn't fall asleep until 3:50. CPAP gave me a 100% score: 7.32 hours of use; 3.4 hourly events. Fitbit recorded me as: 7.4 hours of sleep (); 2.29 hours of REM; 3:42 hours of Light; 53 minutes of Deep. I woke up 13 x's but they only amounted to 17 minutes total

      And yet... I'm STILL falling asleep at my desk

      I HAVE a lot to do... but I'll probably continue putting it off as much as humanly possible lol
      I WILL get my laundry done today. I'm anal about laundry. I can't wash my clothes until I or someone else wipes down the washer inside and out (only the lid though). And then I do a "quick wash" of just water and detergent. My son wiped it down for me... so now it's a race against the clock. I have to get my clothes started before someone else beats me to the machine and dirties it up again
      It shouldn't be THAT big a deal.... but my skin allergies insist.

      Then I have to start packing for my trip and cracking the whip until Destinee cleans out my car so I can start ozonating it (I exchanged $10. in owed gas fees for the chore instead).

      I'm finally starting to grumble, internally, about the upcoming trip some. But only because it's open-ended and hubby hasn't committed to anything yet. We're only in Chicago Friday-Sunday. But are we going to visit with his daughter for 1 or 2 days or more? Are we going to do anything else or come straight home? I imagine hubby will be completely tuckered out after the first visit with his daughter. Socializing wears him out and he'll already be completely spent after Chicago and the lectures he'll make himself attend.
      He surprises me sometimes, though. He has the entire week off, so he'll feel compelled to use it constructively. The cold weather, however, makes the odds even more in my favor though. If snow is forecast, at all, I'm 97% sure we'll spend 1 day with his daughter then race back home to hibernate

      Rant: It dipped down into the 30's last night, but I still slept with my AC on- set to 85 degrees. When I woke, the temp in my room was still 66 and much warmer than the rest of the house.... but my humidity was only 32% My eyeballs and nose are killing me.

      Time to stop stalling and get to work...
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      Insert mixture of Rant/Rave and RAGE lol:
      I saw my sleep Dr. today and he actually spoke with me some instead of the usual rush we're forced through. I explained my immense confusion regarding my diagnosis of Restless Leg Syndrome. Almost NONE of my symptoms match what I've read. Bouncing my legs help a wee bit, if there's no escaping having to sit like a normal person. The only thing that helps the DEEP, DULL, toothache like, constant pain in my legs is sitting on the one with the other bent against me.
      He said 'Yeah, that's NOT RLS' He then asked if the nerves in my legs have ever been tested and I told him no.

      He actually had a device there at his office that can read nerve responses... it looked sort of like an EKG, and it works sort of like a TENS unit. They zap different spots with electricity... which was almost painful at times lol, but not too bad all in all.
      He said he didn't see anything suspicious and asked if I have back or hip pain. Occasionally, sure, but nothing chronic like my legs.
      Then the appointment became more rushed. 'I'll write you a prescription for a cream. Let's see if that helps.'
      It's called EMLA and I laughed with the Pharmacist, saying that's ALL I know of the medicine. She printed me off some info which didn't help much.

      I'm supposed to apply it while wearing gloves, but not rub it in. And then it's recommended I COVER the area with a bandage or wrap. Just how big is this tube of cream going to be The entire area from just above my knees to just below my hips (by and large) are what hurts. I really don't think I can wrap that easily lol.

      It's rage inducing because I'm left hanging. But now it occurs to me that it might be sort of like a blind study. You know SOMETHING hurts, but not exactly what or why... so try this or that to see if it helps and, if it does, it might offer a clue to what's going on.
      I just really wish Dr's would say that: "I don't know, so let's try this."
      I pick up the med tomorrow, so we shall see.

      Meh: I only managed to get ONE HOUR of sleep last night. My appointment was early and I was afraid of sleeping through my alarm... then after the sleep Dr, I had PT, then had to stop by Ortho to make sure I could have full X-rays of my arm... and then I had taxi duty to pick my daughter up from work (I dropped her off on the way to the first appointment). Bah! I am BEAT. But my Provigil is helping me plug along. Hopefully I can stay awake until 1AM-ish, then sleep as normal (but perfectly )

      Intrigue: I was complaining to my daughter that it always irritates me that, when I skimp on sleep, I have to pee rivers almost every single hour even though I don't drink any more than usual. I told her "It's as if my body says 'Hey, we need to conserve energy and your bladder's not that important right now so deal with it'"
      My daughter suggested it may be a means of regulating my temperature, which seems interesting to me, because whenever I'm exhausted I do tend to become very chilled very easily. I'll have to look into that, but how would I even word such a query

      Rave: We brought the kittens back inside night before last. The temps were getting too cold and they kept falling out of their spot. Momma accepted the spot after we carried her to it and she realized what we were up to. She scratches the door to be let in and out

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      Rave: I've finally been approved to stop wearing my sling and to step up with progressive strength training

      Rant: I have another nasty headache. Don't feel like taking my pressure again lol. Earlier today it was 134/98 pulse of 104 What the heck is up with that annoying lower number?! It always wants to be high.

      Rant: The washing machine ate one of my skirts It is stuck in the middle bottom of the drum. I need to google the best way of getting it out. I tried tugging on it, as did Miley. We're worried about pulling too hard and having the skirt tear and leave fabric behind and also of pulling too hard and breaking the drum. I swear, if it's not one thing, it's another.

      RAWR: The trip is closely approaching. I still need to vacuum out the car. Tomorrow night, I ozonate it. Grrr... I also have to take Paula to the Dr at 9AM tomorrow to have her drains removed.

      BAH! Broke down and took my BP 137/101 108. What the heck?! My resting pulse is way too high too
      Guess it's time for 1/2 an Atenolol and bed if this headache doesn't subside soon. I don't have time for this crap...

      **EDIT**
      Seriously? I took that BP med and (some time later) it's now 142/89 109. Makes absolutely no friggin sense. It brought down my high number but raised the low one?
      My headache has GREATLY subceeded (how is that not a real word?), so that's all I really care about.

      Oh yeah... and I YouTubed my washer problem. The area my skirt is stuck is called the agitator and it seems like a very easy problem to fix. I just need to buy some rope from the Dollar Tree tomorrow.
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