Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Life, that doesn't sound good ("I'll cry if I want to"). I hope you ended up having a terrific day.

Rant: I had a ton of dreams last night... but I only remember snippets of snippets lol. In one, I was at PT and a therapist said my feet stunk. I ruffled and said I don't see how because I use powder in my shoes and I wipe my feet with alcohol wipes when I take my shoes off. He went off the do something, but one of the ladies was there. I brought one foot, then the other, toward my face to sniff and felt justified in my indignation :cackle: :roll:
I had that dream because, the other day, I wondered if I was somehow starting to get athletes foot. The bottoms of my feet have been ?? sore and a wee red.

And, as soon as I remembered that dream, I forgot the other snippets I woke up recalling :bang:

Rant: My nose is extra congested today.

Wail: I don't think Ginger Baby is going to make it. Any time she tries to walk somewhere, she wobbles and sometimes falls over. She's still eating and drinking and she had that worming medicine... but I think it's too little/too late.

Curiosity: I'm wondering if the shower somehow triggers that. My buddy Simon did the same thing. He was sort of sickly and very dirty, so I took I shower with him. He started wobbling the next day too.
But why/how would that be the case? I'm VERY careful with the showers. I keep the cats close to my chest, my back shields them from direct water contact, and I don't wet their face (except passively). I have them dried straight away by wrapping them in a towel and then using body heat to warm them up.

Is it still too much of a shock? Could it be triggering something like a stroke? If it's a shock and worms are involved, does it make the worms more active (?)? Or, if they're already sickly and the have a shock, does it do something weird to their immune system. Does Ginger Baby have the same weird mutated disease that Simon had? I'm trying to think of the genealogy of the colony. Of course, their are foreign parties I'm unaware of (the feral males out hunting females), but I'm certain the females are of a different blood line.

Blah... time to scrounge up some breakfast...

Wail: Ginger Baby is still holding on. I may put her out of her misery, though, if she becomes any more pitiful or starts displaying pain. Right now, she can't even stand up without falling over. She's been eating and drinking, giving and receiving love, but she is going down hill VERY quickly. Just this morning, she was still following people around the house.

Rant: I made myself sick :roll: I bought a 52 ounce Frozen Coke and I drank all of it in about 5 minutes :barf: :cackle:
But, I've not felt very well all weekend. I've been fight headaches and my stomach has been KILLING me. I feel gut punched to the extreme and found myself craving Petpo Bismo (even though I despise the stuff :lol:) which made me remember the last time my stomach was like this which was back in the early 2000's. :wtf:
So, I'm going back on my liquid diet for a time.

Rant: I need to break down and see a Dr. about my heart. There's a 20 point difference, in blood pressure, between my left and right arms. A variation of 10-15 points is cause for concern :panic:

I can't believe just how sick I feel from chugging that drink! It doesn't taste very good once it melts, so I was trying to beat it ...

Interesting: My arm hurts a bit tonight, so I hooked myself up to my TENS. Then I wondered if I could use it with my TMJ, so I set up 2 of the pads on my checks, and the joint that aches. It's making my lips and nose twitch :laughtillhurts:

Time to switch some clothes into the dryer then get gaming...

Rant: Either my BP machine is secretly finding a way to take drugs or my body is completely and ridiculously out of whack. I blame the BP machine :chuckle: There's no way my body could be as off as the machine claims, yet I still live.
I was feeling all kinds of out of sorts yesterday. It felt like I was "trying" to get a migraine and I was incredibly grouchy all day. I also had weird bouts of dizziness, while sitting, off and on all day.
I had just cleaned some of my room, so I was standing up yet idle (hadn't been actively doing anything for a few minutes). I figured I should take my BP:

(L) 146/89 97 (RL) 176/122 93 What the heck :panic: So I took it again: 183/122 103 Eh what? That's not possible.
So, I gave up on my lower arm and took it how it's supposed to be taken: 152/91 91 *whew* Not great, but at least it no longer appeared I was dying :lol:
I took it one more time for good measure: 136/102 99 :bang: :sniper:
I gave up and went to bed lol

The blood pressure cuff causes a lot of discomfort when I take it as it should be taken at the upper arm. Hubby said it's acceptable to take it at the lower arm so I gave it a shot. After last nights readings, though, I think I'll live with the discomfort :laughtillhurts:

Can blood pressure machines go bad? It never gives me consistent results. I readily accept that things can change, naturally, on their own from minute to minute... but come on. Not THAT much!

I was very jittery when I woke this morning (not unusual lol), so I took my glucose: 106. Not perfect, for fasting, but not bad. And definitely not low enough to cause jitters! I also took my BP: (L) 119/94 87 (R) 138/83 86 :bang: But I can live with it :laugh:

Meh: I still feel a bit out of sorts today. My stomach wants to rebel but I don't have time for all that lol. I have to leave, for PT, in less than 30 minutes. Maybe allergies are causing some of my complaints. I'm loopy-brained and a little light headed. But I now feel some pressure in my ears. I didn't have my allergy shot last last week. Hmmm...

Rave: I discovered an amazing soup line: "Well Yes!" I bought Harvest Carrot and Ginger, not expecting to like it, but it's been my favorite so far.

Rant: I have to re-think my whole liquid diet thing though. The soups I like are pretty high in Sodium. 590mg in that last soup. That better than the cream of chicken, but not much (and it's MUCH better than the Ramen I used to eat :cackle:
There's also been made a link between soda consumption and high blood pressure. It's not from the caffeine though, because coffee drinkers don't have the same risk.

Great... now I feel a little like barfing. There is a bug going around.... blah.

Today I just had the first OOBE on purpose and shouted eurika out loud:lol:

I had a terrible last few weeks with the anniversary of my significant other's passing. To make things worse, I had to get to work out of necessity. It's stressful. Moreover, my suicidal tendencies spiked over the last few weeks too. I wish I can stay in my dreams with my SO and forget this reality. O^Q

:clairity: LucidBunnie I hope your days have gotten a bit brighter. :clairity:

Rant: There is, indeed, a couple of bugs going around. Meh. Sorry I've been absent.

Rave: My youngest came into town to visit. She arrived this afternoon and leaves tomorrow night. A very short visit, but wonderful regardless. Plus... the puppy sort of likes her now. I put on his harness and muzzle and I had her give him treats and talk to him until he calmed down. He was loving on her and friendly... until she gets up to go to the restroom or something and then he goes back to barking like a mad beast. It's definite progress though :smitten:

Sweet dreams, DV.

Everybody who are interested in dreams, should at least once play the dreamlike game Alan Wake. She is structured like a book. Here a short preview to the story:

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Part action game, part psychological thriller, Alan Wake is a pulse-pounding thrill ride. When the wife of the best-selling writer Alan Wake disappears on their vacation, his search turns up pages from a thriller he doesn't even remember writing. A dark presence stalks the small town of Bright Falls, pushing Wake to the brink of sanity in his fight to unravel the mystery and save his love.

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And the game PC trailer:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VrOctYqaSno

Xbox360 trailer:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sSB4QcQMm6E

That game looks very interesting!

Rant: Sickness is still going around. Now everyone is coughing up phlegm; there's a bit of laryngitis, and I have a very sore throat. Plus, I'm in intense discomfort bordering on pain... because of gas :wtf: :chuckle:

PT wasn't a walk in the park today, either. I told my lady that reaching across myself to, let's say, wash my left shoulder- is still next to impossible. So she stretched it. She took some measurements (insurance re-evaluation), then stretched it again. I don't think I've ever said "Ouch" until today.
When I did the "wall crawl", I was amused by muscle twitches. Once I moved to the pulley, I asked her about them because my arm was active as if it was going through convulsions. She told me to dial it back a little :laughtillhurts: Some twitches are to be expected, but I shouldn't hold a position or try to work past it once the twitches start.

Rave: They laughed at me today, at PT. As I was doing my wall crawls, I saw a "large" cellar spider along the baseboard. I picked him up... kept dropping and losing him, then finally got him outside safely. I felt bad because cellar spiders are INDOOR spiders... and the temps are nearing freezing. I just placed him on the window sill right outside and hoped he'd make his way back inside. Where I had found him, though, was an invitation to quickly get stomped on!

Rant: The girls got screwed at the car place. The dealership said they were washing their hands of the whole thing. The engine, on her original car, is blown. They're going to have it towed it... which is going to cause tension with hubby. Hubby's off tomorrow. He needs a LOT of rest. This week has been brutal on him. I've not broken the news about all of this to him yet. Hopefully, he'll take it well enough to direct the dealership to where he wants the girls car to rest. Otherwise, they're likely to just dump it in the middle of the driveway which is REALLY tick hubby off.

Rant: I've still not done anything with my room. I need more storage boxes but I haven't been able to afford any yet. Next week, though, I should be back to getting my full allowance and I can pick up a few then. I REALLY want to get to that xbox :D I'm just not even going to bother though until I can make room for everything.

Rave: PT said my range of motion and strength are amazing :banana:

Hope everyone's well. It's been too quiet here.

I had PT again yesterday. They started something called ASTYM where they work out scar tissue using a tool and cocoa butter. She kept asking if this and that hurt or was tender and was confused (and somewhat amazed lol) when I said nope.
During a lag in therapy, I was stretching myself out. I held my wrist in front of me (elbow bent and out to the side), then I stretched/pulled it in front of my chest to my left side. And my shoulder "popped". Not in a good way, either, but more as in popping out of place.

My other shoulder doesn't do that. I asked them about it and they seemed almost concerned and told me to stop doing it lol.
I'm on the verge of taking pain pills for my shoulder tonight :bang:
I don't know how much the popping is a result of my usual double-jointedness and how much can be attributed to the break and/or recovery.
It *almost* concerns me too. I'll be keeping a close watch on it!!

Rant: Hubby's dragging me out to the Farm again tomorrow. I'm still sick and would much rather stay home. My ears have been stopping up and I've been running an on-again-off-again temperature (99.9 lol)

Meh: I never did find my $32. in rolled change. I halfway fear I threw it away :mad: I have a bad habit of transporting stuff in Walmart bags.
So, I ended up rolling nearly the last of my change: $29. I must've been hording that container for more than a couple of years! I hated using it, but the cats needed more food :bang: They are now going through just over 16 pounds a week! Probably closer to 20 pounds. It doesn't help that the new kittens are being fed in the bathroom and the kids don't always close the door... which means the puppy eats most of it :sniper:

If any of y'all are in California, I hope you are staying safe. :clairity:

Bah! My arms are never in agreement as to what my BP is, so when it gave me consistent readings of 154/110 for both, I knew it was time to call hubby for BP meds. I took 1/2 of one (@40 mg total) at around 5PM. At 7PM, it was still high, so I took 1/4. By 9, it still hadn't budged much, so I took the other 1/4. :bang:
Now, at 1AM, I broke down and checked it again. 147/110 in one 145/99 in the other :sniper:

When I went over to hubby's to get the meds, I used his cuff to see if it was in agreement. It was.
I have no idea why the heck my body is being so weird tonight. I had cereal for breakfast, a 52 ounce frozen Coke and Cherry Garcia ice cream for lunch, 1/2 a honey bun and a mini Slim Jim some time this evening. Not the best food, granted, but not enough to cause the spike. I only took 1/2 a Provigil after my cereal. It should be completely out of my system by now.

BUT... I've not gotten much proper sleep in the last couple of days, my cold is getting worse, AND I started my period. Lovely lol.

Meh, my shoulder was feeling extra yucky tonight so I put in 2 hours with my TENS unit. Feels much better now. It just seems like I'm sliding backwards :huh:

Rave: The trip to the Farm was wonderful, despite feeling like poo :armflap: The worker tackled everything like a boss and did a great job. Turns out, he also works on plumbing, so we may get some repairs done here once the weather warms up again :banana:

Rant: I shouldn't have to stop posting pictures of animals because of some asshole's ignorance.

Heh, I just raced over to your nature thread, IC, to see if I missed something!
Unless it's against the rules or it's just causing more drama than you're willing to deal with; try to brush the jerks off. You will never be able to please everyone all the time. I, for one, hope you keep taking pictures and sharing them :smitten:

Meh: Nothing really going on, over here, in my neck of the woods. A little more chaotic than I'd prefer, what with being re-drafted into taxi duty and all... but not nearly as chaotic as it COULD be :chuckle:
I did, however, have to taxi early this morning and then again in the afternoon and evening (squeezing in my PT from 3-4)- which means I didn't even try to sleep last night :wtf2:

Rave: Night before last, though.... :boogie: ... I managed to get in almost 8 hours of blissful sleep.

Rave: 7 Days to Die (experimental) has FINALLY dropped. I played a little between errands and I'm so happy it's here! I just REALLY hope they didn't kill the game with all the changes the developers made!

Hope everyone is well and looking forward to a holiday (US peeps anyhow...) :hugitout:

No, it was actually something in real life. A hunter trespassing on my property... We have "No Hunting" signs around our property. Yet, we have hunters tearing them down and trespassing. One hunter got out of his truck, walked into the field and got ready to shoot the deer. Didn't even look to see if there was a sign or even if there were people out there. My brother told him to leave.
If it was a few minutes earlier, he could have shot me. I was taking pictures. It wouldn't even matter if I was wearing orange or not because where I was, I was kneeling, you can not see me from the road. And as a hunter, you can ask a landowner if you can hunt on his or her posted property. But you have to ask and receive verbal or written permission, which he did not.

Ah, yes. I'm glad you're safe!! We have the same problem at our "Farm". There's an old, 2 story barn on the property. People used to trespass all the time to hunt. They would even knock out slats, from the wall of the barn, for a vantage point :mad:
We've not lived up there in a VERY long time. One of the neighbors (who actually drove the school bus), finally asked for hunting rights. In exchange, he put up a barbed fence around the property that's against the road. He added gates with padlocks and put up more no trespassing/hunting signs and helps maintain the property.
He's been invaluable. We have 83 acres there and he even cleared some old paths and access roads.

He even put up some hunting cams and has seen bear :eek: I think he's only interested in the deer though. A lot of people around here live off their kills.

Bah! I have more to type, but the girls are ready to go to work already :crying: At least I only have taxi duty once day a week :lol:

**EDIT**
Rant: I've been having a full-fledged migraine for the last 3 days. I just remembered my CBD vape juice today :cackle:

Rave-ish: At least it's not a very painful migraine. It's mostly just mood altering with visual disturbances.
Last night, coming home from getting food, I drove down a back road I always travel. I past some storage sheds and saw a flash of red. I "saw" a very young boy in a red jacket. I turned onto the main road, then made myself turn around to double check. I told myself, out loud, "You realize what you saw was just a fire hydrant or something, right?"
But I knew I had to look. What if it WAS actually a kid. What if he was lost or in trouble.
It was, indeed, just a fire hydrant :roll:
I dropped off hubby's food, and while leaving his garage, I saw a shadow dart inside. I was sure it was a cat, and glanced around for it.
Then, it finally hit me, that I'm having a migraine :roll:

The "contrast" of the world has been wonky. I keep thinking one of my light bulbs has burned out but they haven't. It's such a weird friggin thing, THINKING you can't see as well, but knowing there's nothing actually wrong with your vision :cackle:
The pain has been exceptionally minimal though. It's mostly a very slight pressure around my temples and the very base of my neck.

RANT: My blood pressure is still being an absolute PITA. It wants to stay at around 159/107 :panic: Taking Provigil or not, doesn't seem to sway it one way or the other. Leaving the house, however (for whatever reason), seems to consistently raise it. Is that because I'm MOVING, or am I starting to have agoraphobia? That would be REALLY strange. I dislike leaving the house, but not because I'm afraid of anything. And it shoots up even if I WANT to leave.
I need to start taking BP meds preemptively and see if that helps.

RAVE!!!! My iPad Pro arrived today ahead of schedule. Y'all have NO idea how happy that makes me :banana:
Here's hoping I remember my passwords and that it syncs to my PC okay.

Meh: For anyone planning on getting an iPad or some other tablet... bigger is NOT better lol. I got the 12.9 inch screen and boy is it going to take some getting used to!!! Touch typing is more awkward. I'm constantly hitting other keys by accident. I'm also going to have to adjust the text size because reading on it makes me feel cross-eyed :chuckle:
Also, the keyboard folio isn't really worth it IMHO. Unless you're going to use your device at a desk, it's just (again) awkward. And I'm not comfortable using it as a touch device with the keyboard attached because you have to fold it which exposes the keys (UNPROTECTED) to wear, tear, and dirt/dust/debris.
I've not used my pencil at all yet. I'm trying to find a good journal type app that incorporates it. There's one thing (forget what it's called), but it's something like $9. and I just don't have that to spend right now.

All in all, I am still super hyped and pleased. It's just going to take some getting used to. In fact, I think I'm going to go back to bed, just so I can play on it some more :cackle:

Rave/Rant: I slept marvelously last night. The first time, in a VERY long time, that my sleep was darn near perfect. I'm not sure exactly when I crashed. It was probably close to around 5AM. I didn't wake up until 2:40 though!! A week ago, or so, I discovered YouTUbe videos that are 10 hours long of basic rain sounds. I've fallen in love with them. The kids make a lot of noise when I'm sleeping (laughing, coughing, showering before work). Now that my AC is turned off for the season, I hear everything. The YouTube videos have helped drown them out.
I turned one on before I went to bed last night. I was up, for at least a couple of hours before I fell asleep. When I woke up, the video had played through completely. Which is something I've never done before lol.

The Rant is that, I used my CPAP machine last night. It's the first time I've used it in over a week because of the flu. When I woke up, it said I got less than 3 hours worth of sleep on it :bang: Now I need to test the signal. I've had this problem a few times and finally looked into it.
It's never moved from its spot.

I just checked my Fitbit data. It claims I actually fell asleep at 4:52 AM and had me awake at 2:40 :banana: I spent 1 hour "restless or awake" with the biggest chunks being at 6:30 and 11:30. Not bad at all...

Rant: I'm still fighting this migraine though :mad: Which is just friggin ridiculous. I can hardly play 7D2D at all because it just worsens everything.
Rave: But I am still VERY thankful that I don't have a lot of pain with it!!!

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Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Meh: For anyone planning on getting an iPad or some other tablet... bigger is NOT better lol.

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Ohno. Haha. I ordered a 17 inch foldable touch screen laptop on black friday:chuckle:
I'llbe using it formusic production software, so I figured bigger is better for that. Hope it's not too akward to use it in tablet mode.

hehe, Grats on your new toy, Vader! I don't know how it would be for what you're using it for. But gosh, 17 is even bigger :cackle:
I guess it would mostly come down to your vision, preferences, and distance from the screen. The further away, the better for those larger screens. At least for me. If you're using it in a reclined position or sitting at a desk, it might be awkward. If you're standing, it would be better lol. But you MAKE music on apps and stuff right? Synth (?)?
It might be better to use it as the laptop.
If you're used to a smaller screen, be prepared for an adjustment period :chuckle:

Rave: PT put me through the wringer today. It was wonderful :laughtillhurts: They added more strengthening exercises. They're simple things, but boy I still couldn't fully do some of them!!
The ones they added were "boxes" and "rainbows". You use a resistance band against a wall. For the "boxes", you start out (1/2 an arms length against the wall) with your hands together and the band looped in each hand. Then you bring your arms out, down the wall, then bring them together again; having worked a box-like shape.
For "rainbows", you work in segments. Same distance from the wall, but your arms at about the 9:00 position. You pull your right arm to 12:00, bring the left up; then move to 2:00. Then you reverse it.
I was feeling very lightheaded, at the end, because I always forget to breathe :cackle: :roll:

I'm pretty sure I'll be using my TENS unit tonight!!!
I'm still having A LOT of muscle spasms during PT. My arm definitely does not like being raised to the side (like when you raise your hand when you have a question), nor being raised in a similar way but at 2:00.

Rant: I slept like poo last night. I played on my iPad until nearly 6AM rofl. I tried waking up at 9:30 :sniper: but I told myself to think again :lol: Ended up sleeping until 11:30. It was very poor quality sleep though :crying:

Rave: My "cape" is getting a lot of wear this year. I like wearing tank tops and shorts to PT. I just put on long socks and throw on my cape and I'm good to go. It's amazing how warm it keeps me. I get a lot of strange looks but a lot of compliments too.

**EDIT**
This is great. Weird, but great. You might enjoy this, Vader https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ph5OW9p-GHM

Rave: I just watched one of the greatest friggin things ever:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pM70TROZQsI
Which may be a testament of just how sleep deprived I am (especially seeing that I never even saw Shrek :cackle:)

Meh: I didn't sleep last night. I just didn't feel like it, truth be told. I finally got my laundry done... but GOOD GOOGALLY what a friggin hassle and a half that was.
I had to wash the washing machine 4 times before I could wash my clothes in it. My son washed momma dog's blanket and the amount of shed fur is concerning for our septic tank and pipes and longevity of our machine! I did 2 quick washes, finding lots of hair after each. Then I did another and it looked like a felt blanket disintegrated inside the drum :panic: So no. I actually did FIVE empty quick washes.
Never again. I'll have to buy a vacuum or something to clean her blanket beforehand.

Question: When sharing the Shrek remake to FB, I stumbled over a word I use a lot... but I don't think it's the right one.
An artist can draw on paper, or create something digitally, act, or write. I call those "creative medians".
I googled the word before I shared it and it doesn't seem to fit (at first glance?).
What's the word I actually mean to use?

:clairity: for everyone.

RAGE: Today was supposed to be of taxiing, PT, Shopping, Taxiing. I didn't wake up until 5PM yesterday, so I didn't really feel like sleeping last night.

By 10AM, lol, I HAD to sleep and managed to get in a couple of hours. Then I got up, wasted time for 20 minutes, then took the girls to work. Came home for 20 minutes then went to PT. I began PT in high spirits. I was chatty and felt fine... ASTYM, assisted stretched, 1 pound weight in various ways for some 15 minutes, stretches, curls. Felt fine. I did the pullies for 3 minutes, the band exercises for some 5 minutes. Fine.
Then I did the "boxes, rainbows, steamboats" against the wall. Then I started to do another very basic wall exercise and NOPE.

I suddenly felt extremely light-headed, nauseated, chilled yet hot, and my bowels felt loose. Friggin great. It felt JUST like a vasovagal syncope episode. But why the heck? I tried sitting for a couple minutes, but that wasn't happening, so I laid right down on the floor. My therapist brought over a foot stool, which wasn't nearly tall enough, so I could elevate my legs. My eyes welled with tears because I was so flipping embarrassed. But I laughed and smiled at everyone to put them at ease.
After some 5-10 minutes, I was okay enough to leave.

I got to the car and it occurred to me that the only thing I ate yesterday was 2 slices of chocolate (5:30PM), a 2 cheese burger with bacon and medium fries (7:30) and 4 hot fries (11:30PM). Perhaps I was just hungry. So I got an Arby's Roast Beef and a large frozen coke... but I didn't take even a single sip until I could check my sugar.... which was completely fine at 94.
My BP was slightly elevated at 143/98

I've eaten and have had plenty to drink, but I still feel weak, shaky and fuzzy-brained. Gah!

Sleep deprivation has never been a trigger before. Is it one now? Or was I just in more physical pain than I was registering (pain is THE #1 trigger for me)? Or, do I truly need to get off my butt and have a stress test or something done? This is unacceptable!

Everyone's disappeared on me again :crying:

Rave/Rant: As much as I HATE having to drive the girls, I do enjoy the scenery. I have "eagle eyes" and use my periphery way more than I probably should :chuckle: But because of that, I've seen 3 hawks in the last 2 days.
Because all the trees are barren of leaves, and because the hawks (that I see, at least lol) like to face traffic, their white bellies give them away.
I LOVE seeing them. The rant is that there's never anywhere to, safely, pull over so I can take their picture :laughtillhurts:
Also, yesterday, I saw one of the largest crows ever. It was bouncing around the parking area near where the girls work.

Rant: I'm still not 100%. I woke, same as yesterday, feeling just fine. In fact, I woke at 8:30AM :eek: (I actually managed to conk out little after 1AM). As soon as I started moving around, though, the lightheaded feeling returned. :wtf:
I checked my pulse on the drive home, and it was staying below 75. :huh: My resting pulse is NEVER that low unless I'm sleeping :chuckle:
By the time I picked up my frozen coke, I felt shaky and STARVING- like someone punched me right below where my ribs meet (also classic "duodenitis" symptoms I get). So I picked up some BK as well.

I only ate 1/2 of my large fries. Haven't touched the sandwich yet (3 hours later). I've drank almost the entire 64 ounce frozen coke though :cackle: I bought another insulated cup just for the occasion :armflap::facepalm::buns: (my butt nowadays- big and way too bouncy :laugh:)

Just for curiosities sake, I took my sugar a little while ago: 120. I'm going to have to take it tomorrow morning before breakfast. Maybe 90 is too "low" for me? I may even try to give myself a sort of "stress test" tomorrow. I'll walk around normally, then take my pulse and BP... then do heavier exercises and try to trigger the syncope and see how the numbers change.

All that said... part of me thinks it's just pain. My shoulder just doesn't feel quite right. I tend to acclimate to certain pains in that the severity of it doesn't quite register (boy but how I wish I could choose WHICH pains to "turn off" rofl- like my back!!)
I see Ortho on the 21st. Don't know if I'll make it that long if this keeps up!!!

**EDIT**
Oh yeah...
RAGE: Some of my webpages are refusing to work. CNN and my Fitbit login. For CNN, I ran my internet diagnostic tool and it says my DNS server may be unavailable and to contact my internet provider (earlier it said http instead of DNS :wtf:)
The Fitbit page is just all messed up... sort of like it's all HTML only.
I ran Malwarebytes and everything was okay... cleared my cookies and history etc, restarted my machine 3 times... updated the router, restarted again. They're still messed up :bang: :sniper:

My machine *acts* like it has a virus, but none of my programs are finding it if there is one. I'll run Spybot when I leave to get the girls. Hopefully, that will do the trick...

Rage/Rave: I got suckered into taxi duty again today. Their ride didn't go to work because the powers that be, in our State, decided to run with Trumps idea to make today a Government holiday :roll: Schools were closed, so the ride was stuck at home with her son :bang:
BUT... twice, on the way there, I saw 2 more hawks in different places. Only, they were closer to the road and I saw their bellies were actually a reddish brown color :huh:
I could have sworn the others had white bellies. Now I'm going to have to turn to Google :lol:

Rave: I treated myself to a McD's big breakfast with hotcakes. So, so, yummy... but my stomach is going to revolt soon :facepalm:

I don't think I have the energy to work myself up today... maybe this weekend? I am extra sleepy.

Rant-ish: My zombie dreams have evolved because of the mechanical game play changes made in 7D2D :crying: :panic: I need to re-strategize how I survive the game and my dreams will quickly adapt. But it still sucks lol. I loved the way everything was BEFORE :mad: But Noooo, The Fun Pimps, had to go and make the zeds smarter and gave them digging and jumping abilities to match an improved tracking AI.
Bah!
:cackle:

Meh: I've been googling muscles and anatomy and muscle impingement. That words popped into my head last night, but I'm not sure if it fits or not.
Make a straight triangle shape from your chest and across your armpit- just to the point your fingers make skin contact. That's the muscle in question, but the area is about 3-4 fingers wide. Would that be the "short bicep"? That's where part of my plate is (but continuing to the shoulder head). It's STILL rock hard. I was told it is NOT the plate itself. So could the plate have, sort of, trapped the muscle? Is it dangerous? Will it work itself out? Will I HAVE to have friggin surgery again to remove the plate?
The 21st is too far away :lol:
It's not painful. But when I work it, I do have a lot of strange discomfort and tightness- except on the opposite side of it :wtf:

I hope everyone is okay out there in Lurkerville :P

**EDIT**
Oh yes... the saddest update of all. I had to put one of the kittens down last night. I think he was one of the triplets I liked the most: Chatty, because he was the most vocal cat I've ever met.
I took the kids to the store last night. When we returned, the baby was on Momma dog's blanket on the floor. He was limp and dying. No signs of obvious trauma. But he had dried slobber around his neck and upper back.
1) He was accidentally trampled while the dogs rough-housed, then one of the dogs moved him.
2) He was "snapped" (sort of like shaken baby syndrome in the animal world), then dropped onto the blanket.
3) He was dying of the illness, that inevitably kills 90% of all kittens, and one of the dogs moved him.

I'd *like* to think it was 1 or 3. The dogs behave very lovingly towards the kittens (clean them like moms etc). BUT, they are still dogs. The puppy likes to chase them and play, and Momma is sickly and can get cranky.
So, we're going to have to start locking them up in the bathroom whenever we leave the house or go to sleep. :bang: :crying:

I'm just peeking in after my long break from Dreamviews. It's a slow work day so I'm just poking around and looking at old entries. So hi again!
But honestly I just have one thing to complain about....corporate decided it was a good idea to start playing Christmas music the week before Thanksgiving. It's been the same list, sometimes the same song (different artist) back to back, and I hear the same song several times in 8 hours. It's so annoying and it's too loud to tune out and it's making me so irrationally angry.
I swear to god, if I have to listen to Jackson 5 yelling about Mommy kissing Santa Claus one more time I'm going to murder someone. =D

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Originally Posted by Amurehna

I swear to god, if I have to listen to Jackson 5 yelling about Mommy kissing Santa Claus one more time I'm going to murder someone. =D

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I feel a song coming on: "I saw mommy killing Santa Claus" ... :santa: :sniper:

That would make me angry too!
My favorite radio station does that with commercials and it drives me bananas. They'll play the same 2 commercials 3 times. I'm like, "Come on! I know you have other companies for ad slots. Mix it up a little!!!"
That only last, 4 minutes or so, a few times an hour. I would beat someone up if I had to listen to it for an entire day lol

That's hilarious, I love it XD

I have trouble listening to the radio for that reason. And the fact that it seems like a set playlist. There was a month where I was 10-7 just about every day, and on my way home they were always playing Royals by Lorde. I got so sick of it I took a long break from the radio lol.