Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Two nights ago my dad comes in the house, after mountain biking, dripping blood everywhere. My mom has a panic attack, screaming incoherently. My dad literally bleeds on me while I undo his shoes and socks (yuck). Eventually we get him all bandaged up. He has a really bad laceration on his arm, a huge hematoma? on his leg, scrapes everywhere, and, the xray later revealed, a broken clavicle bone.

So, last night, my son is talking to my dad about his injuries, and other medical stuff. He did pretty good, using words like "tachycardia" and "atrial tribulation" (don't ask me what they mean). He doesn't get it all quite right, though: "Grampa. Can I see your autopsy report?" :rolllaugh:

BTW, things my son finds really fun:

-Reading the dictionary.
-Reading wikipedia articles.
-Reading my car manual (no kidding, this may be his favorite thing).

Sometimes I log into dreamviews and come to this thread just to see what's going on on @Zhaylin life.

I don't have much to complain about. Recently walked out of my shitty employers... employment. I have never done that in my life but things were at an all time bad and I felt like I needed to leave at that moment. And it worked out, I already have a better job with a better company and I couldn't be more happy.

I went back to school last semester and it is going well, however a mid term came out of no where and I was completely unprepared. Hopefully I didn't completely bomb it.

Hope everyone is well and hope Zhaylin comes back to update us soon!

Lonely.

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Originally Posted by Photine

Lonely.

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I don't know you but, :hug:. I know what it's like to feel lonely, and it isn't easy. It's really hard. Hang in there. I hope you feel better soon.

Had a car accident, last night. I'm fine. I'm sore but, fine.

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Originally Posted by HumbleDreamer

Had a car accident, last night. I'm fine. I'm sore but, fine.

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Oh man! That is terrible. I am glad you are ok.

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Originally Posted by sivason

Oh man! That is terrible. I am glad you are ok.

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Thank you. :)

Rave: I had my first successful dream teleport! I changed the dream scene to my current apartment by jumping through a mirror it was amazing. Woke up, recorded my dream, and then fell into another Lucid. Jumped through a different mirror and was snowboarding down a mountain. So so excited I managed to do a more "advanced" lucid technique.

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Rave: I had my first successful dream teleport! I changed the dream scene to my current apartment by jumping through a mirror it was amazing. Woke up, recorded my dream, and then fell into another Lucid. Jumped through a different mirror and was snowboarding down a mountain. So so excited I managed to do a more "advanced" lucid technique.

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Congregations! You did it!! I'm so glad to hear that! Keep up the practice, Ametem. :D

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Rave: I had my first successful dream teleport! I changed the dream scene to my current apartment by jumping through a mirror it was amazing. Woke up, recorded my dream, and then fell into another Lucid. Jumped through a different mirror and was snowboarding down a mountain. So so excited I managed to do a more "advanced" lucid technique.

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Dream View party time! Woohoo! That must have felt awesome. Good work!

Rant: Yesterday having WILD and chain of three DEILD, everything was normal until my third chain. I enter in dark place, couldn't see anything, stumbling on something, only to fall in the ocean, sinking fast. I was about to shout "I really hate black water" when 20 meters in front of me a huge monster appeared, moving really fast with big open mouth.:holycrap: I shut my eyes and immediately trying to open my physical eyes, thankfully waking up:pissed:

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^Congrats!! You can probably make friends with that monster in your dreams. I wouldn't be surprised if there is really something like that in real life.

Rave: It's nice out. It's warm.

Rant: Still a little sore.

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Originally Posted by HumbleDreamer

^Congrats!! You can probably make friends with that monster in your dreams. I wouldn't be surprised if there is really something like that in real life.

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If it was really in a dream...:wink:

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Originally Posted by michael79

If it was really in a dream...:wink:

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So are you saying this is your reality? What makes you feel this way?

Really great day. My dad is back from surgery, it went well, and now he has this air conditioner machine hooked up to his shoulder. But he's ok. :)

I had my formal observation the other day, it's a big deal and determines my pay grade for next year. It's very stressful, for all teachers. I did a lesson with the kids interacting on a jamboard, then showed slides of various cells on my digital microscope that projects onto the google meet. Then, on my lunch break, I actually drove down to the nearest canal I could find. I climbed the steep dirty slope and scooped up the water, I got my shoes all dirty in the process, BUT, the kids got to see little amoebas and stuff swimming around on the microscope. Then, they did a plant cell city activity where they had to import images of city places to represent organelles in the cell, and ended with an exit ticket on their progress and how they would reward themselves for their hard work. :) I had my post interview today, and got 7 (seven!) innovating scores!! And made my required goal (whew!!!). I am very happy.

Also, I had dream messages from one of my dream guides the night before my observation telling me that the activity was too easy, and that I needed to make it more rigorous. So the next morning, I did. The admin who did my evaluation commented specifically on that. He praised me for not "dumbing down the lesson for the ESE kids" and keeping it challenging. :D

Sorry it's so long. Just very happy and wanted to share it. :)

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So are you saying this is your reality? What makes you feel this way?

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Astral spaces, my Man, astral spaces, not every time you jump back in your own mind space:wink:

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Astral spaces, my Man, astral spaces, not every time you jump back in your own mind space:wink:

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rant: I just went outside barefoot because it was a nice day and I stepped on broken glass. Then I found out that the was a broken window from the attic. My foot is bleeding.

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Astral spaces, my Man, astral spaces, not every time you jump back in your own mind space:wink:

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Oh, I see. Thought you were just joking at first. I have seen some freaky critters in the astral.

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Originally Posted by MoonageDaydream

I had my post interview today, and got 7 (seven!) innovating scores!! And made my required goal (whew!!!). I am very happy.

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That is wonderful! I am happy for you.

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Oh, I see. Thought you were just joking at first. I have seen some freaky critters in the astral.

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I ain't joking with shits like that!:chuckle:

Rant: In the middle of the night. Had a fever. Not sure it was because of the glass that was in my foot or something else. Has a little bit of SP too.

Not happy, I have to take a medication, and I hate taking medications (it's called gabapentin). My ENT prescribed it for my ear, I have to take it for one month to rule out a nerve problem. It affects sleep so I am wondering how it's going to affect my dreams.

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Not happy, I have to take a medication, and I hate taking medications (it's called gabapentin). My ENT prescribed it for my ear, I have to take it for one month to rule out a nerve problem. It affects sleep so I am wondering how it's going to affect my dreams.

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It is something that can cause "weird dreams." So it will not prevent dreaming. Sounds like a good opportunity for a fun variation in your hobby!

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Originally Posted by sivason

It is something that can cause "weird dreams." So it will not prevent dreaming. Sounds like a good opportunity for a fun variation in your hobby!

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Apparently. I've been reading up on it.. however, with the crazy, and I mean crazy side effects, there's no way I can take this. The brain fog alone people talk about, and memory issues.. no way. Found one article which talks about how it stops the production of a neurotransmitter (glutamate), and this can cause brain damage over long term usage. And apparently very addictive and horrible withdrawal symptoms. Yuck, not worth it. I'll stick with my heating pad and get a second opinion. Oh yeah? Also a side effect - suicidal thoughts and mood issues. No thanks!!

But it may have been cool for the dreaming. Oh well, will never know. :)

Scary Article

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Originally Posted by MoonageDaydream

Apparently. I've been reading up on it.. however, with the crazy, and I mean crazy side effects, there's no way I can take this. The brain fog alone people talk about, and memory issues.. no way. Found one article which talks about how it stops the production of a neurotransmitter (glutamate), and this can cause brain damage over long term usage. And apparently very addictive and horrible withdrawal symptoms. Yuck, not worth it. I'll stick with my heating pad and get a second opinion. Oh yeah? Also a side effect - suicidal thoughts and mood issues. No thanks!!

But it may have been cool for the dreaming. Oh well, will never know. :)

Scary Article

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Yes, it does have horrible effects on the side of physical addiction.

Although I have not personally been on it, I knew someone that took it for the same problems I have (pain/fatigue) and it actually made them much less functional. It was horrible to see how they seemed to be worse on it than not on it... Many people with conditions like mine have "brain fog" regardless of being on any meds or not, so for us that risk is sometimes acceptable, but the aspects of physical addiction in general are probably underplayed by doctors, I imagine.

Edit: The worst about that person was I couldn't find any way of convincing them to come off it. They were too afraid of feeling even worse for stopping. I don't know how they are now, but they weren't well at all last I saw them.

One of the medications I take now works in a different way despite working in a similar "area" of effect, and doesn't have quite so many horrible effects, at least based on my own experience and discussions with some people who had it too. But I think my medication is much more expensive than Gabapentin, so it's likely Gabapentin gets prescribed first in many of the applicable cases.

You should try asking your doctor for alternative medications to rule out nerve problems, because they exist, but may simply be more costly. Unfortunately, with any of these type of things, many of the potential side effects are the same between the medications that treat certain issues. You know, even anti-depressants can cause... depression, among other things. Certainly one I was on once did make me feel worse overall, one reason was because it made me put on weight and affected my self-image.

It's just luck of the draw with how your own body responds overall sometimes and you have to weigh whether potential risks are worth it versus what's supposed to be treated. Essentially what you did now. :D

With this talk about nerves, and Gabapentin, I'll just throw the name "Lion's mane" in there for your contemplation. It's a medicinal mushroom (not a psychedelic one) which has been found to be highly beneficial in regenerating nerve tissue, and boosting memory. It has also been used by DV'ers (myself included) for dreaming purposes (better dream recall). Unfortunately, it is also a highly valued delicacy.