Originally Posted by
NrElAx
Zhaylin, im feeling quit depressed today too. Actually this whole week really. Are you naturally prone to depression? I know you said you didnt have a good high school experience in that one thread. My depression is related to my pain pill addiction I just got over with, and I dont even remember if I ever got depression outside from drugs. I know even weed would make me depressed the next day, but I know that actually is a side effect for some people. I remember the next day after smoking weed during high school, I literally just starred at my wall for like 20 minutes because I felt so down. There's this thing called PAWS during opiates withdrawal, which stands for post acute withdrawal syndrome, and one of the symptoms is depression. I remember 2 years ago, I had gotten off opiates for the first time, and I got so depressed that I just wanted to off myself. But I actually read, that so many people get the same exact feelings, and so people have actually gone through and have killed themselves because they dont think life is going to get any better. The truth is, some people do have permanent dopamine or serotonin damage from long term opiate use. Which us usually from hard opiates like heroin. Luckily for me, I never got into heroin ( well its not really lucky). The other night was really bad. I had gotten drunk and at the end of the night I felt so down that I jus sat in my car and just started crying for soo long. Alright, that's enough talk because I sound emo. Well I guess technically I am "emotional" right now. Moral of my rant, and im sorry for the downer story, is that no one should touch opiates unless you need it for pain and get it prescribed.