Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

People shouldn't constantly bring up shit from the past.

I hate when you want to yell and scream at someone but you can't because you know it'll just make things worse. So you just sit there quietly taking it all in while they continue doing whatever it is that infuriates you.

memorizing dates = useless

Finals next week.
Aghgghhggghhh

Today I went to a bar whose trademark is selling used books. The reason I did so was because I wanted to buy a book I knew they had as a present for a friend of mine. I thought I would stop by while I was downtown earlier today, but it turned out they didn't open till 18.00. Fair enough. So I went home and took care of some other things, and then came back. I met some people I knew and drank half a beer, when they suddenly told us they were closing early today. Usually they close at around 2.00. Today the decided to close before 23.00. I have to get that present before 16.00 tomorrow. I am feeling very, very disappointed right now.

Fucking migraines GAH

Wake up, feel fine. Watch some tv and wondering why the right side of vision is flashing and going fuzzy. Try to remember if I was drinking last night, but no, no alcohol was consumed. Shit, what if i'm going blind. What if I need contacts or glasses. Fuck, fuck.

Pain in the head. Headache? Dehydrated? Drinks a shit load of water. Still pain in the head. Shit. Loud noises hurt head and can't look at light. Shit. Shit shit shit.

Looks in the cupboard for painkillers. Remembers that I told myself to stop taking painkillers. Closes cupboard. Swears. Curses. Stomps upstairs with dog. Closes blinds and feels like a vampire for my need for darkness during the day. Jumps back in bed, throws covers over head. Dog jumps on bed and licks my face. Tries to eat my bracelet. Shrugs off dog but gives her a cuddle and moans to her. Dog goes to sleep. I go to sleep.

Wakes up with dog on my face and fur in my mouth.

Yay for migraines. And dog saliva.

The dog is called Phoebe.

GAH

anytime I see the name "pheobe" I pronounce it "fee-obe" xD

I just call her "Pheebs" haha. She's a springer spanial. And loves people's beds, which recently has been my bed. She also half ate next doors cat, but they don't mind.

She's my little baby Along with my labrador Scooby, who is her bitch, which is funny cause he's male and she's not.

That's not funny. God, this is what migraines do to me. *Sigh*

Originally Posted by Raspberry

Fucking migraines GAH

Wake up, feel fine. Watch some tv and wondering why the right side of vision is flashing and going fuzzy. Try to remember if I was drinking last night, but no, no alcohol was consumed. Shit, what if i'm going blind. What if I need contacts or glasses. Fuck, fuck.

Pain in the head. Headache? Dehydrated? Drinks a shit load of water. Still pain in the head. Shit. Loud noises hurt head and can't look at light. Shit. Shit shit shit.

Looks in the cupboard for painkillers. Remembers that I told myself to stop taking painkillers. Closes cupboard. Swears. Curses. Stomps upstairs with dog. Closes blinds and feels like a vampire for my need for darkness during the day. Jumps back in bed, throws covers over head. Dog jumps on bed and licks my face. Tries to eat my bracelet. Shrugs off dog but gives her a cuddle and moans to her. Dog goes to sleep. I go to sleep.

Wakes up with dog on my face and fur in my mouth.

Yay for migraines. And dog saliva.

The dog is called Phoebe.

GAH

Aren't you 15 0.o

not knowing the true age of gameoverlord

I have had a fantastic day. I rode my bike to the forest and had a blast mountain biking through the trails. As the sun was going down, the sky was a beautiful hue of purpleish pink as I sat down in a field of wildflowers to meditate. I faced the sun which felt wonderfully warm on my skin that was complemented by a cool breeze.

At one point I felt the desire to open my eyes and upon doing so I noticed a swarm of bees flying around from flower to flower. I stayed completely still observing them as they ignored me and carried on with their business. The wildflowers had a brown center and the petals were red that faded into a pleasant yellow towards the end of the petals. At one point a bee landed on a flower very close to me and I observed it as it scurried around the flower, pollinating it, and giggled at how fuzzy and bizarre bees look up close. I pulled out a joint and watched the sun set over the green trees.

Anyway it was a great day.

Originally Posted by erible

not knowing the true age of gameoverlord

continuing to not know XD

assholes smoking cigs outside of the library, blowing smoke in my direction. fuck you guys.

Sounds amazing StormCrow

I'm still battling fruit flies and my gallbladdder- though I believe I stopped a full fledge attack (thank you laxatives but methinks I'm starting to rely on them too much).
Yesterday I went out to eat with my hubby and step-daughter. She looks amazing. She's so stinking intelligent it awes me. I couldn't help but smile when she commented that she could always "fall back" on an M.D. She said it with no arrogance which amazed me even more.
The food was outstanding. I knew I would suffer for eating, but a person can eat only so many roast beef sandwiches and veggie chips It's one of the nicer restaurants within driving distance and we had the buffet: beef tenderloin with mushrooms and onions, potatoes au gratin (sp), pasta with spinach, a spicy soup in some ale base. But the desert was to die for: taramisu (sp) and apple caramel cheesecake. There was much more, but that's what I ate. I wanted to try a weird concoction of shrimp in grits, but I wasn't brave enough

Now, I have to fight with my daughter to get up for school... and early this evening, I pick up my other daughter who's going to throw a fit when she's attached to my hip all weekend.
Oh, and something weird is going on with my child support "credit" card. But I can't talk to a stinking live person whenever I try calling. I get Netflix and Hulu on the card but it says my zip code is wrong even though it's never changed. So, I'm going to have to cancel it and get a new one. It works fine at the store but about $50. is missing.

Originally Posted by gameoverlord345

Aren't you 15 0.o

Yes. I do drink from time to time.

Being a teenager eh?

LOL yeah

This thread needs more owls goddammit.

On a completely different note, i wish winter would hurry up, i can't wait to go snowboarding in July

it's too hot outside D;

I just found out this guy that I used to sit beside and talk to in eight grade math class was stabbed to death in the parking lot of our old high school. We weren't too close but he was a nice guy. =/

Originally Posted by stonedape

This thread needs more owls goddammit.

Sorry to hear that GavinGill

We have next to no food in the house and I'm hungry. It's lunchtime. What can I eat..? D:

Wow, GavinGill. Sorry to hear that.

Sounds like my house most of the time, Raspberry. Drink lots of water to hold off hunger until found can be bought.

My rant of the day is ANXIETY!!! I still wish someone could logically explain my anxiety to me. I don't freagin *feel* anxious but I HAVE to yawn every couple of minutes to get a proper breath. It's all in my head and I super oxygenate myself or something which makes me need to yawn more. That's my only symptom and happens no matter what I'm doing. It's driving me bananas and is happening thanks to Nuvigil. Nuvigil isn't even keeping me awake like it's supposed to, but it does make me more alert so I've been able to read again and I'm less prone to day dreaming my day away. But I could still sleep 18 hours a day. Maybe I should get back on Seroquel (which I still have a bottle of) to help balance out the anxiety... Hmmm...

Going to the library today so my 15 year old daughter can print off some pics. I have to have her back at the Facility by 5Pm. Her visit was cut short by a day because she snuck a cigarette during her last visit and it showed up in her urine test. I didn't realize they could test for nicotine. I hope second hand smoke wont give her a false positive.