I hate how spiders don't understand that entering my home is suicide. |
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I hate how spiders don't understand that entering my home is suicide. |
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I hate this damned overpowering pains I've been getting these last few days... I can't work properly, I can't rest properly, I can't f****** practice my lucidity and recall which sucks because I'm really constantly pumped up and excited about it lately. I've got time, a lifetime actually, not going anywhere. I made my mind about this practice but that doesn't mean I can't get mad about it, I want consistency, I'm in to get it and my body just decides to cut me short for a little while (we'll see). The reason I can't keep up my practice properly is because from the moment I wake up to the moment I lay down (with few breaks in between) my back starts killing me, yeah right. It's a spine minor issue with an extremely painful outcome. |
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Is that my boyfriend out mowing the yard at 9:40pm? It sure is! |
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Ehhhh, I agree in a way, unfortunately I have found that even when multiple older people warn me about some things that pretty much everyone falls in to, even if I accept what they're saying, I never really REALISE it, or integrate it in to my consciousness, if you will, until I have gone through it myself. |
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Thanks bud, fortunately I feel way better today... *uff* what a relief. Last night I even had a killer sexy time LD and a strong non-SP HH event, strong as in mistaken for reality. This is especially cool because the other day I also had a more or less spontaneous WILD just by sleeping on my back which I never do because that's where nightmares come from (or so I thought since childhood thus now working like a charm). I've never been much of a WILD guy with only one or two recalled events in the past with dozens and dozens of DILD's, seems like I'm getting promoted (jk) haha |
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No no, you're right tommo, you didn't get off track, because that's exactly what I was thinking as well with how much we "have to go through" in learning and only having so little time expressing our new role in being experts or just intellectual about a particular field of study. I sincerely feel that there are people that could dominate any person with a PhD, and seeing how I gathered some insight from a few PhD students, most of the work they did to accomplish that was just a Completion grade to them. |
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Last edited by Linkzelda; 07-01-2013 at 03:15 PM.
For the last three years I've been bugging about not being able to have an entire day to do everything I want to do. An easy, yet immensely fulfilling day where I can get away and sort a few things out, then (in a sense) close one chapter and open the next. And today (well yesterday, since it's 7:25 AM atm) I finally did it. Even slept in until 2:15-ish in the afternoon, had three smoke sessions, took three, naps, and three long showers; and I still managed to get everything done despite all the downtime. |
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Last edited by GavinGill; 07-01-2013 at 03:35 PM.
because now it's martial law century, whoever joins anything connected to law enforcement/military automatically gets higher pay, but i advise not to join, they are 100% corrupted bastards, lost my job many times to security because i was doing my job right and i was accused for things i didn't do only to have an excuse to fire or lay me off. |
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Last edited by hathor28; 07-01-2013 at 04:29 PM.
Deeeeaaaaar Facebook, |
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Great i wake up 3am, my daughter woke me up because she is up. I know i had dreams but i keep waking up like 3 + times during sleep and forget my dreams! I know every time i wake up i feel happy and great because of the dream, now i am waking up not knowing why i wake up feeling happy but i know it's about D.G. |
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Last edited by hathor28; 07-02-2013 at 09:47 AM.
Yes, I'm an idiot! |
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All successful people men and women are big dreamers. They imagine what their future could be, ideal in every respect, and then they work every day toward their distant vision, that goal or purpose.
It's best to have failure happen early in life. It wakes up the Phoenix bird in you so you rise from the ashes.
I can never do an FILD because I'm never tired enough. That's right; I'm pissed because I get proper amounts of sleep. |
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I don't want to do this anymore. I miss having normal interests. Can't I go back to how things were before? ._. |
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I CAN'T FUCKING SLEEEEEEEEEEEEP!! |
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And now I'm working my way up a recall dry spell. Damn body, look at what you've done. -_- |
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The skatepark is soaked. I can't wait till fall. |
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I'm so very nervous right now. A few days ago I hung out with a couple friends, one of whom was sick. She looked totally miserable, and apparently she got it from her boyfriend who had it a week before. Today I've felt uncomfortably warm and sweaty all day, and about an hour ago I started getting these sharp stomach pains. I hadn't eaten much throughout the day, but... it still doesn't make me feel very good. >_>;; |
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Rant: My life has been a waste. I haven't done a damn thing other than chase highs since I was a little kid. All I ever wanted to do was learn everything about myself personally that I possibly could, learn everything about the brain in general that I could, try everything I could get my hands on, learn all the best techniques, and put myself in all the ideal situations to completely maximize my euphoria at all times. Well here I am. I know more about myself than I ever thought it was possible to know. I've been researching the brain frequently since middle school and now I've fucking run out of things to research, I've figured out everything I ever wanted to short of actually picking one apart in a lab. I've tried more drugs than I used to think even existed, and higher doses of those drugs than I once thought survivable. I got good enough at becoming lucid that all I ever had to do was want one to happen and nothing else, and it would. I practiced sexual meditation so much that I can induce my own toe-curling euphoria from thought alone. I used my knowledge of myself and the brain along with these experiences to reach new plateaus of ecstasy that I never even conceived of before. I found clubs, illegal raves, crack houses, and BDSM dungeons where I was and am welcomed like family. I got myself into situations where I'd never have to pay to get high again if I didn't want to. I fucking did it. I made it here just like I always wanted to. |
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Farewell Lyz! Which is not to say goodbye, at least not permanently, but to say literally I hope you fare well. |
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