Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

I miss those times where, the only place you read the lyrics for your favorite song is through the CD booklet.....not a youtube video.

Hathor. I was literally just thinking about that the other day. I mis-hear a lot of lyrics and back in the good old days, I could remain oblivious forever. The lyrics paper didn't always come with (and here's my age showing) the cassette.
I definitely prefer having YouTube around

*whew* Thank you, Dianeva. I spoke to Biesty a little the other night as well. I realize the world goes on and on but I was more worried that all my stuff might slow the game down? I don't understand the graphics of the game much at all. Like, if I'm on the surface, and there's vast spaces of land around me, my game is fine. Distances load a little slowly, but everything seems normal. If I'm under ground though... vast space tends to glitch my graphics a little. That''s why I tend to mine rooms (5-9 blocks in length and three blocks on either side of the stairs lol)
I'll have to see the waterfall, sounds pretty

The cobblestone and dirt is in my "mountain" range. I was tired of bad guys spawning in the space so I added sort of caverns with no torches on the lower level hoping they'd pop up there instead

Glad to hear you got a "B". Hopefully the other grade you're worried about will be just as good!

... I am beat. There was actually only one cemetery we visited. There was a story about why he needed to go there yesterday (it was her birthday), but I didn't press. And he didn't offer lol We had a really great day until the end. He became super crabby and I *think* it's because conversation turned to depression, medication and him reading in a medical journal that antidepressants trigger self-injury in some people. Then I told a personal experience. I should have known better lol *sigh* It was all years past, but he's really sensitive to that subject.
He couldn't get home fast enough after that. He kept nagging me to pass people and I told him I wouldn't because there were too many curves on the hill. I had a safe opening a few times and took those and each time he told me "Good job" Butthead
I asked him why he turned into Mr. Crabby Pants- if we needed to feed him or he needed a nap and he said his back was killing him. So, it might have been just as simple as that.

We walked all over the cemetery. Probably for 2 hours. It was located on a very steep hillside (stupid location for graves because soil erosion was damaging a lot of the sites). He didn't have a map of the graveyard and didn't know where his friend was. There was one person there, at the top of one of the hills, and hubby wanted to talk to him. I wanted to go to an opposite hillside to sneak a cigarette but hubby suggested we work on one spot at a time (but branching out). Then we worked from the bottom up on the other hill closer to where we parked and where I wanted to search originally. I found her grave close to where we parked

Then, on the way home, early in the trip, I quickly pulled over into someones driveway because there was a wolf spider on the arm rest on my door *shivers* He laughed at me about that one because we had talked about the wolf spiders in my room earlier in the day, and how I was leaving one of them alone because it was living on one of my plants. "I thought you liked spiders?" he teased. 'Only if they don't get into my immediate personal territory!'

I took half a didrex (powerful diet pill) on the way home. I didn't get sleepy throughout the day at all which was miraculous. I died, right after I ate, after getting home though. I slept for 9 hours and kept waking up with kinks in my back or neck and then to an outer earache. Ugh. Maybe it's time to invest in a real bed

Well i was listening to lots of old 90s songs which i had CDs of them, and while i was listening the songs, memories came up of me reading the lyrics and trying to understand what the song is saying. And how odd of me i also cried on certain songs lol
~I will make this a rave lol, if you keep talkin' 'bout me all the time, yer new girlfriend won't be 'round for long....

Boy is that true, Hathor! New partners do NOT want to constantly hear about the ex!

My rant is... ?? tonsil stones. At least that's what it feels like. But it's on the wrong side. I tend to get them on the left side only. There's a pocket in my throat that catches everything (it's neat, because when I push behind the pocket it looks like an ear inside my throat Yeah... I'm too easily amused sometimes). What's even stranger is that- whatever the object is- feels like it's behind my lymph node. It's way too far down to see.

My allergies have also been insane these last couple days. That's my own fault though for loving up on our kittens. They are too stinking cute. Our only male is such a whiny, clingy fellow. The others are becoming very affectionate. All but one take after their father and have long fur. We have: Mr. Snigger a.k.a Paulie Junior, Molly a.k.a Tiny Tiny (she's a clone of her mother), Squirmy Wormy (who's been into everything since she could walk), Fluffy Butt (almost completely black and the fluffiest), White Nose a.k.a Jagger (absolutely beautiful with dark fur but white on her nose and face).

Our other cat, Climber just gave birth. She had them under a pile of dry wall my daughter tore up and placed in a corner of an unused room. We've yet to see them.
I MUST get these animals "fixed"!!!!

My Peace Lilly is dying I think I over-watered it; and then it got too cold against the window.

A rave is that Destinee got a job at Subway. This is her third job in 6 months. Hopefully, she'll stick with this one!!! I have to take her to Goodwill at 9:30 to find a pair of black pants.

A rant/rave is that I bought some e-juice yesterday. I was very tickled to see they had a Juicy Fruit flavor. It tastes just like the gum too. But, it does not agree with my stomach. I feel that constant starving pain again.

I don't know a single word of lyrics from even my favorite songs. I just never pay attention to lyrics? Occasionally I'll randomly decide I want to listen through an album while reading the lyrics, but even then I forget them shortly afterwards.
I've never been able to distinguish words in songs anyway. I remember one of the first CDs I got. For the longest time, I thought he was saying "...kick your acids." That makes no sense, and I don't know why I thought those were the lyrics, but I did. Then one day I read the booklet and found out that the lyrics were "...kick your ass in."

Rave: I'm actually getting some stuff done this weekend beyond playing minecraft. Actually, I haven't played any minecraft. Friday morning I stayed over to work a bit of overtime, then I stopped at my parents place to borrow their garage and clean my car. I'm going to make a call on Monday to schedule a day for me to go in and get it fixed (broken button for the trunk + smashed mirror). Then I went to the record shop to buy one album, but as it usually works out, I walked out with three.

Last night I did a good bit of decluttering. I got all the cables organized/managed at my desk, cleaned out the inside of my PC, and put stuff away/got rid of stuff that's been just sitting out for too long.

Then this morning I went out for a quick chilly bike ride as the sun came up. I got a new cartridge for my turntable a few days ago, so after the bike ride I got that all set up, and it's quite nice sounding.

Granted, all this has left me with a mild lingering headache, but I'm now ready to sit back and have a beer and go to bed. So a good day, and I still have off tomorrow. This spring weather is finally getting me up off my ass, it seems.

I'm going to end up bald because of stress. I'm under too much pressure lately because of having to choose more, more and more things, which I don't know how. I don't know what am I going to study next year, I don't like anything and I'm afraid of getting into something I do not want. Also I have to move and don't know where. I'm scared of not knowing how to meet new people and not knowing what to do. Insecurities are killing me.
Also final exams are near and more pressure is coming, yay.

Originally Posted by Astaroth

I'm going to end up bald because of stress. I'm under too much pressure lately because of having to choose more, more and more things, which I don't know how. I don't know what am I going to study next year, I don't like anything and I'm afraid of getting into something I do not want. Also I have to move and don't know where. I'm scared of not knowing how to meet new people and not knowing what to do. Insecurities are killing me.
Also final exams are near and more pressure is coming, yay.

I'm back to repeat what I seem to tell nearly everyone on this thread at some point. Join a club that's the absolute easiest way to meet like minded people.

but first..
You will inevitably meet people from your course, which will become friends if you try communicating with them straight away. Nearly everyone there will be a new student, usually just as lost as you. Introduce yourself as soon as you meet someone at your first lecture and stick around with them, get to know them. Since it's your first day and you are probably in the same group as said person there is large chance you will be seeing them all throughout your orientation day. It's very hard not to form friends in the first few days.
Usually returning students are more friendly too, being comfortable with the system already they usually react easily to introductions.

Then there's parties, good way to meet people in bulk. Usually a bad way to meet interesting intellectual people, though every now and then there's someone worth being friends with.

As I said earlier, the best place is clubs and societies. By frequenting them often you will quickly become acquainted with the crowd there, who are usually more interesting and diverse individuals. Making new friends is easy since you can casually chat away to anyone as you pursue whatever activity the club or society hosts. People of similar skill level will automatically amalgamate into groups.

That's about it, can't say much more other than that you will be fine if you even have a minute amount of communication skills.

Can't say anything about your future course other than, don't do it if you aint sure you're gonna like it.

As the Irish say, chill the beans, you'll be grand (calm down, you'll be fine)

Sounds amazing Sefalik!! Send me just a tad of that energy?

Astharoth.

Rave: I had some rather awesome dreams. One was about a lady from my Kingdom Hall. I don't think I've ever dreamed about her before. In the dream, she and I were very close friends. Something was going on with her house, but I don't recall now. At one point, I looked into the night sky and a sort of rectangle was cut from it and brilliant pinks and purple danced with the stars.
In another dream there was a kidnapping or something and civil war. My group was trying to get someone released and teleported to us through Chrystalology or something.

I only slept for 3 1/2 hours, but it was wonderful sleep, for a change, and my dreams were very in depth and nice. There were other dreams, but the two I wrote of were the most interesting

I guess my only rant is that I woke up with reflux. I also have a small welt on my stomach where something bit me. And I slept fully clothed

Ah I feel like shit, and I don't even know what exactly is bothering me.
Sometimes I'm reminded of how shit everything else. I mean, things are okay most of the time. But I still haven't accomplished shit, and neither am I on a road towards accomplishing anything. I don't have a thing that's really me, a passion, something I just love doing. I don't feel at home at home. I don't like living with my dad, and I have no good relationship with him. I'm lonely, I'm awkward and have no confidence. The fact that I've never had a girlfriend, while not an issue that's very simple in my life, still feels like a sign that I'm not attractive or appealing to anyone. I'm a goofy funny guy that people like but nobody has ever loved me. My father doesn't know jack about me because we never talk and he pretends that everything is fine and he'll only ask about the most trivial things as though trying to hide the fact that our relationship is a ship that sunk years ago. I don't feel like I'm doing a good job at the job either, and I pretty much know it isn't what I want to do - it's fundamentally an issue if I want to continue doing this because of what I am. It's not a problem, but I hate secrecy. People tell me I do well, that the kids like me, that everybody wants me to stay because I'm doing good, but I'm not feeling it. When your job is literally to deal with a hundred tiny tasks; where you don't even know whether you succeeded or failed, where you knowingly have to refuse half of them, where you know you can't do everything and you never know which ones you're actually supposed to do... It's stressful. I'm not good at being an authority, and neither do I want to be. Even if they think I'm doing the job okay, it's not working in my head. Last Wednesday I just broke down and cried in the teacher's room. I cried! I don't cry, I literally haven't cried like that in years. I'm very glad I did, though. I haven't felt that genuine in as long. But it seems like it's a descent into madness, and it didn't go away. In fact it seemed to accelerate and I couldn't function at all when I arrived on Friday. They told me to go home and then get an appointment at a doctor. I'm almost certain that they're going to listen to me saying what I felt, and they'll determine that it's nothing. But it can't be nothing, can it? No this is just the way I am. I've always been dancing with depression and sometimes everything just fucks up... I guess that's just how it is for me. I should stop expecting myself to be able to do everything everyone else can. If I can't continue at this job then so be it? I can just say fuck it and not show up. I wish I could just do that sometimes. There's been so many things, appointments, deals, what not, and sometimes I just want to turn off my phone and hide in a forest for a couple of days... Once again I'm glad I feel genuine. This post isn't nearly as thought out as my other posts because I really am just ranting. I feel like complete shit and I feel like I could have been something, but I've been stagnant for years and have missed out on all the practice I could have had. How will I ever make something of myself like this? I don't think I can live with just being some guy with a job and money to sustain himself and that's it... I'm a crestfallen phantom, just some weak entity that wants to do something but apparently not enough, because I can never drag myself up for long enough to get good at anything.

Originally Posted by Maeni

I feel like complete shit and I feel like I could have been something, but I've been stagnant for years and have missed out on all the practice I could have had. How will I ever make something of myself like this? I don't think I can live with just being some guy with a job and money to sustain himself and that's it... I'm a crestfallen phantom, just some weak entity that wants to do something but apparently not enough, because I can never drag myself up for long enough to get good at anything.

I Just want to say this post spoke to me. I sometimes feel the same, in a way. It seems like you just shouldn't keep doing whatever you're doing. I mean you're obviously unhappy with your life, and it isn't the best technique to wait for life to change of its own accord, because that's unlikely to have much of an impact unless an apocalypse hits or something and then you have to put down your phone forever and become a different person. Maybe that's why the apocalypse scenario, or any other forced adventure, is such a fantasy for a lot of people, because it would shock us into changing and out of our shitty lives, because it's so difficult to make those kinds of changes on our own. But that's really what has to be done. Your life isn't likely to change unless you actively do something different. Like deciding what you actually want in life, what would make you feel fulfilled, and begin taking the first little step toward it. Just my opinion, what I've been trying to try. I'm a fucking wreck lately too.

Speaking of doing different things in your life and expect to be good and do what you feel happy about, i didn't want to brag about and rave the thing i did that someone, a stranger commented on my video slideshow i made and put on youtube.
The feedback made me cry because i know i got talent on something, and this person said i have good talent and taste for music and also video, i didn't expect it. I know i am more than i'm worth! And no one can tell me other wise now that i can't do things to make me be seen as talented and have something for me, i'm still considering making another video project.

Maeni, Dianeva, Hathor, no words of wisdom just
Grats on that comment, Hathor That would've made my day too.

And I think you're right about societies love of the apocalypse and such. That and, while people might be content and even happy with their lives, they're boring lives for the most part A little escapism can be all a person needs (and deep down wants at that!!)

No real rants here. I woke up freezing, but not freezing enough to hop into the shower. It got down to 41 degrees last night I was sound asleep by 8PM and I didn't wake fully until 5AM. It was good sleep, too.
My only minor complaint is that I'm hungry but I can't eat until 6. I write everything down. Because of my weird sleep schedule, years ago, I decided that my day begins and ends at 6AM. When I wake up, I eat and take my meds but I can't do that right now (Some of my vitamins upset my stomach unless I take them with food).
SO- maybe I'll take that shower anyhow, just to kill time...

**EDIT**
New rant. I'm such a sucker My daughter's been asking, for at least a month, if I can keep a dog until her boyfriend or his family can get a new residence. No, has always been my reply. Kierra, the dog, had been staying with the family Destinee had previously lived with... but they can no longer keep Kierra there. They would have taken her to the pound if I couldn't watch her. Kierra is part Pitbull and our pound would have killed her immediately. Her boyfriend's family moved and they can't keep the pitbull there- thus, the problem.

I told my daughter that Kierra can stay until Sunday and then I'll take her to the pound myself. *sigh* Kierra is an excellently behaved dog. But I can afford to feed her no more so than the other family. It's Anthony's family's dog, they need to find her a more permanent home. But they don't provide her food or anything. I told my daughter that people would be more willing to help out if the family would, at least, pay for her food. She's a big dog and eats a lot.

The cats are flipping out- but not too badly. Destinee walked Kierra through the house on a leash. Climber was cautiously curious. She kept her distance and her fur was barely ruffled.
Kierra wants to play with the cats. But when the dog was introduced to my room, I saw what the other part of her bloodline is: Black lab. She saw my bird and "pointed".

We're already going to have a problem. Destinee is supposed to keep the dog in her room, but she's letting her roam about now. That's not going to work...

Last week sucked. My computer stopped turning on as I may have mentioned--motherboard died. Whatever. Got that replaced, and my hard drives won't boot. Last night I finished my new build, and other than some higher than I'd like temperatures, I am in a very good place with this rig. I hate having to spend money last minute like that.

Life has been really good otherwise. Meeting lots of cool people.

I need to to come up here and build me a machine, Tiresias Great job putting yours together.
Glad life has been good

My next computer case needs slats for the air intakes that I can place removable, washable air filters in (like with an AC). My room is a dust magnet. Every time I take the side of my case off to clean the vents, I end up making things worse I do not understand computers.

My rant is breast tenderness. I should start my period tomorrow and I've been taking way too much caffeine again. I need to track those things.. and there's an app for that I bought a health app when I first got my new iPad. It's an awesome app that lets you track endless things. I can't seem to get over writing everything down in my notebooks though. I need to get over it that, though, because the app seems much more useful and practical. Like, in my notebooks, the front 2 pages are for just my cycle and weight. I merely write the numbers and date for quick reference. The very last pages are for my meds and define the abbreviations I use. Everything in between though? It's very difficult tracking down specific things unless I recall the general date. I get around 6 months worth of info into my 200 page little "Fat Book"s

Anyhow... my boobs were so sore last night I couldn't sleep on my stomach. That's not a big deal because I've been out of that habit for a couple of years now. Every now and then, though, I want to. TO make matters worse, caffeine hasn't even been helping me much lately. Even taking 3-4 a day, I've been taking naps. Maybe it's cycle related, but I just can't seem to stay awake long. I could track that too...
However, breast tenderness usually gives me great dreams about pregnancy and nursing But last night, the infant was a squid I was looking into some deep water while some guy talked about eco stuff. A squid swam by, but in some of her tentacles were three babies. One looked dead, but she carried it along anyhow. And it had a unsettling similar human type face. It was a sad yet sort of peaceful dream.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

I should start my period tomorrow

What! Already? I thought we had the last period rant 2 weeks ago? lol
I never keep track of these things.. The other day my tummy felt weird and I wondered if it was time for my period again. I couldn't remember the date, so I had to come on DV to check the date on my post!

Rave: I watched The Perks of Being a Wallflower and loved it!

I got my grade for the class I thought I may fail, and it's a C! The worst grade I've gotten so far, but at least it isn't an F. So far I have A- B C. And I think the last class will be in the A range. I'm hugely relieved.

, Dianeva. Glad you passed

Anju, lol, unless I wrote the date down wrong It's happened before. I tend to start 5 days earlier (calendar days) than the previous month. I have the 12th written down for last month, so this month I should start on the 7th.

My rant is that my daughter told my son there were open interviews at McD's today at 4:00. So we drove down there and they're actually not until tomorrow at 2:00. I got a .40 icecream cone and I don't think I've ever eaten one as fast as I did today I'm very curious to see if it puts me to sleep. But it will be hard to say if it's my sugar or just run of the mill fatigue. I've already taken one nap today... BUT, I only got 6 hours of sleep last night so today's sleepiness is acceptable.

We pay our neighbor to mow our lawn and he was right outside my window earlier. I still managed to fall right to sleep.

It's been a fairly nice day so far. I should be doing laundry. I think it's supposed to rain the rest of the week...

I had a Pre-Calculus exam today. I thought for sure I was gonna do terribly, but my friend's mom took us out to breakfast, where I had french toast, scrambled eggs, bacon, and 2.5 cups o' coffee. We talked a laughed it up. Then he gave me a can of Kickstart, which is basically Mountain Dew mixed with Kool-Aid and super-charged with caffeine.

I think I did okay.

Originally Posted by TimeDragon97

I had a Pre-Calculus exam today. I thought for sure I was gonna do terribly, but my friend's mom took us out to breakfast, where I had french toast, scrambled eggs, bacon, and 2.5 cups o' coffee. We talked a laughed it up. Then he gave me a can of Kickstart, which is basically Mountain Dew mixed with Kool-Aid and super-charged with caffeine.

I think I did okay.

The importance of healthy meal before an exam is vastly underestimated. That and sleep. So many people skip out on both because they stayed up all night studying, failing to realize that no matter how hard they studied their mark can often be increased dramatically by placing their minds in conditions in which they can think properly.

I actually finished my first semester of grad school about two weeks ago. The class I was sure I couldn't get an A in, I got one, so 4.0 for my first semester. That feels amazing.

Originally Posted by Tiresias

I actually finished my first semester of grad school about two weeks ago. The class I was sure I couldn't get an A in, I got one, so 4.0 for my first semester. That feels amazing.

Congratulations, a 4.0 would be awesome. I wish that were my GPA. I plan to keep up with my schooling a lot more from now on.
There was actually one class this semester which I'd skipped a lot, and the first class I actually attended seems so professional and beyond my level, I pretty much assumed I was fucked. But I got through the difficult assignments and came out with an A-.

in order for me to keep a job and do the things i want in life, i need to be a clever and skillful liar. so far so good but it is slowly becoming more difficult to lie without the urge to burst out in laughter.

Grats on all those good grades, everyone!

Tropical. Lying is "horrible" but knowing how to is a good skill to learn (unfortunately lol). I prefer to twist my words up or omit things than actually outright lying. It's all the same thing in the end though. It's silly, but if I outright lie, I tend to feel guilty and tell on myself immediately "No, that's not true....."

My rant is that my tummy is raging today. Not period related (still hasn't shown up yet), but something I ate. Ugh.
I didn't crash until 2:30 AM and I woke at 11. I was annoyed I had slept "so long" but when I tallied up the hours, I got 8 hours. I kept waking up because my arm kept falling asleep lol I dreamed of secret passages in buildings (similar to ones I've had since childhood). But I was caught in the end because I couldn't remember where the last secret passageway was. I woke when I was caught lol. I don't recall who I was running from though.

Today's going to be busier than I like. I have to take my son to the open interview at 2... and then he has counseling at 6. I have to go to the smoker store and also buy groceries in between. Smoker Friendly is right beside McD's, so that will work out perfectly.

If hubby's staff hasn't cancelled patients yet and haven't planned their own vacations, I might be driving to Witchita (sp) alone. Hubby will do surgeries and see follow-ups then fly out for the auction. That's not until the end of the month though. I would actually prefer to drive out there alone. I can listen to music, sing, and act stupid. When hubby and I drive together, I'm buttoned up and everything is way too quiet (he hates the radio lol). I might even write a poem or song or something while I drive. Driving is the perfect time to do that... you're free from distractions (unless you count traffic and other driving obstacles ). Just carry a voice recorder.
I really, really, REALLY hope it works out that I can do this. I profoundly miss the RV. Hubby always go back to the bedroom and stays there nearly the entire trip

I feel awful for wanting to travel alone Hubby just stresses me too much during the drive. Pass this person, pass that person, don't miss this turn, we're taking too long! He's not actually as bad as all that. His need for silence is the thing that bothers me most. Silence puts me to sleep much faster which is why I entertain myself.
I need to get an iTunes card and download lots of goodies before we leave. Headphones are a great invention... they just hurt my ears after a while.

Anyhow... I guess I'll get on Minecraft for 30 minutes.. Oh yeah... rave... I finally installed a custom skin for my person. I'm a girl now

Hey guys, sorry it's been a while. The PSU on my computer died and I had to buy a replacement (that's what I get for buying a shitty part, I'm just glad the rest of my computer is fine) and it just arrived today.

I'm glad to hear everyones exams went alright! Mine went well, the only one I'm concerned about is genetics... it's a toss up whether I passed that class or not and I need to pass.