Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Rave: For the first time ever in my life, I used back pockets for something, which opens a plethora of possibilities of what I can put inside the other pockets! Yes! No more, "8 hours to live without X-object," and my order for Ganoderma Delgada coffee arrived today even though I'll have to get it tomorrow inside a parcel. Asian herbals, I love you so much.

Rant: I'm down with fever again. Bangalore weather is horrible; everything feels so cold and damp. Yuck!

Rave: Debated all evening in a facebook group where there was a post discussing islam. Lmao religious people are so easy to offend. You show them logic, they respond with namecalling. Quite entertaining, actually.

Rave: I bought myself a tuner for my stereo as an early birthday present. And it matches my amplifier (I might not always dress nice, but I gotta make sure the stereo matches).
Rant: I don't have very good reception. I can't get the one channel I wanted, but I can get another one that also plays NPR programs.
Rave: The station I wanted to listen to (they play better music when not playing NPR programs) is supposed to be tripling their broadcast signal this December.

Rave: I had to work overtime, so extra $$$.
Rant: I had to work overtime, so less free time. The goal is to get everything done during the rest of the day today so that tomorrow I can just vegetate for the whole day.


Edit: Oh right, this was the other thing I was going to rant about.

@sefalik OMG 3Mb/s!!!! That's like super net here!! I get 1Mb/s if I'm lucky (Yeah I understand the difference between MB and Mb )

Speedtest.net by Ookla - My Results
here is a test i just did xD

@Milly you are a worry Oo btw is a space heater like really futuristic or does it heat the atmosphere idk about this technology

@sefalik Um my download speed is 1/6th of that and I share it with everyone else in this household

@Anju poor you ...don give it too me...to late the perils of da internet viruses

@LinkZelda endless pockabilities of things that you can now lose...I always find money in mine i've forgotten about, mind you

It's really messed up with happened in Paris last night. And there are rumours going on that IS might attack Amsterdam, Brussels & Berlin next. Me and my friends are actually going to Brussels next week to see bring me the horizon live. And the concert is completely sold out so there will be like 2000 people. And honestly I'm quite scared of going.

@Meoh I forgot how to english I meant a radiator.
My Sister is living in Paris. I know she's careful and stay put but she's scared and me too :/

Originally Posted by Milly

@Meoh I forgot how to english I meant a radiator.
My Sister is living in Paris. I know she's careful and stay put but she's scared and me too :/

nah don't be scared. Paris is a big place. The odds are slim.

Her flat is very close to where it happened infortunatly :/ but my father is in Paris with her at least.
Managed to talk her into going to sleep, going to do the same. Last night was insomnia night. sweet dreams DV, take care

Don't take up vaping if you're only trying to save money. I spent about $80.-$90. a week on my marlboros. I now spend at least $30. a week on my vaping unless I need coils, which bumps it up another $20.
My kids roll their own cigarettes. They get a big bag of tobacco for $12. And tubes for $2. The tobacco usually lasts them 2-3 weeks. They buy the tubes weekly.
Vaping is amazing health-wise, though and I can't recommend it enough. Just be sure to get a good e-cig and not one of those $20. starter units. The tanks go bad too quickly and the batteries are iffy at best (I've had them completely die after just a few days).

to everyone. I hope and pray everyone is staying safe!!!

I looked up deet a few months ago. The data against it seems questionable. I mean, it can't be GOOD for us, but I don't think occasional usage will kill us. During the warmer season, I live wearing the stuff. I go through a can every couple weeks to keep the fleas off of me.

Vegas is okay so far. Hubby won't leave my side, however, so I haven't gotten any crafting done yet. I accompanied him to his meetings yesterday and just sat outside the room, on the floor, on my iPad �� Now I'm living in the restroom so I can watch shows in warmth and light.

I have discovered something I am in LOVE with and wish I had discovered eons sooner: that back brace. Interestingly enough, my legs don't ache as much after I've spent the day wearing it. I'll need to study that some more to see if it's actually true or just timing.
It does, however, hurt my hips. My back aches as low as low can get without being my butt bone lol, so I wear the brace very low. I don't know how it can hurt my hips, but boy the ache is fierce. Maybe I just have to get accustomed to it.

Oh yeah, one other thing. Am I weird or does anyone else know what the heck I'm feeling?
Whenever I'm in certain buildings or certain floors (as in stories) I feel like I'm on a boat. We're staying in the Trump Tower, on the 56th floor and I only had that sensation once last night.
But at the mall, good golly I felt like I was drunk. We were on the ground floor of an Apple Store and I almost couldn't tolerate being there... It was even worse once story up in a GameStop.
What the heck is that about?

Originally Posted by sefalik

Edit: Oh right, this was the other thing I was going to rant about.

I have 3.5 downstream and 1.5 upstream and it's barely enough to use Skype or Netflix and some others but then I don't have regular TV, I just flat refuse to pay $100 month for entertainment, Been a cord cutter for years.

Turn out that writing self indulgent fantasies makes the NaNo challenge easier that I thought, who would have guessed I got over the 30 000 words mark this afternoon. At least half of it will never be read by any other eyes than me, lest I spontaneously combust out of embarrassment, but it does mean that I haven't burned* myself out on my more serious project.

*this is, by the way, an accidental pun. It's absolutly terrible, so I'm keeping it.

Rant:Just thinking about all the time i wasted in my life , doing so wasting even more

Rave:At least i listen to some good music at the same time

Originally Posted by Kaitakaro

Rant:Just thinking about all the time i wasted in my life , doing so wasting even more

Rave:At least i listen to some good music at the same time

Music = Life

Problem solved
HMPH

Rant: went out to Red Rock Canyon today and they no longer carry my fanny pack
Rave: ate some amazing sushi and perfect Miso soup afterward. Staying at the Trump Tower has been wonderful. We just walked across the street to the mall and ate at Panda Express (fast food Chinese) three nights
"What do you do during your week in Vegas?"
"Went to the mall and ate fast food."
We are a couple with simple pleasures

These floors are still driving me nuts. I don't think I actually feel the, moving... I think I'm highly sensitive to vibrations- floors near elevators/escalators/heavy music/heavy foot traffic. It's very disconcerting. It feels like I'm trying to walk on a ship.
Other than that, it's been a great trip. Can't wait to get home though. Hopefully hubby will pick up the new Fallout game somewhere between now and then

Hope everyone is well and safe.

Rant:
Life is so unfair, I lost my soulmate/twin-flame and everyone seems to go about as if nothing happened! The world goes on even though my own world is shattered to tiny fragments.

Originally Posted by lucidbunnie

Rant:
Life is so unfair, I lost my soulmate/twin-flame and everyone seems to go about as if nothing happened! The world goes on even though my own world is shattered to tiny fragments.

Sorry to hear that
Everyone does move on, and I know it's not that simple to you. It's very hard. You are shattered right now. Everything blew up. But luckily just trust time, it heals. IK it's cheesy, but it's true . Just give it time.


Rave (about LDing): I'm getting back to serious DJing and PM training. It's hard to stay motivated for LDing after 2 years of not much nice experiences and lots of frustrations, but ik it takes time, and that's why even though with low motivation and almost no real desire for a LD (cuz ik the next LD will always be short in my lvl of skills), I need to keep practicing, cuz that is what makes it better later. Recall is the main keep for vivid LDs, and PM training will make my MILD stronger, along with WILD practice in the weekends so I would be able to WILD too (Getting back to alarm-DEILDing now too). I'd have to solve the shortness of LDs later too, but for now let me worry about becoming great in recall and induction. I used to be really good at that but I fell in a rut for months and now I'm slowly but surely getting it back, and it's faster now that I made it before, much faster. Man I need motivation for MILD though. What a pickle. In the 2 week competition, I had enough motivation to pull off 4 MILDs. Wonder how I can get motivated now. Just thinking about goals now doesn't work cuz I know that i won't be able to last even if i get a LD. I need to get over that attitude though cuz IT is what causes short LDs. Man what another pickle i am in

wow this kinda shifted to a rant xD

lucidbunnie. I second what Louai wrote. It is difficult but peace will eventually come for you. Sorry about your loss.

Good work, Louai You're a much more patient person than me
I think I love regular dreams because they're doorways into the subconscience. They help me figure out what's going on with myself behind the scenes so to speak.

The second day we were here, we took the shuttle bus to the convention center and there was a dead cat on the side of the road. That night I dreamed of clubbing dogs to death with the corpse of a cat. WTH. The next night, I dreamed of killing dogs and I slit the throat of a gorgeous large dog (looked sort of like a pug). The next night, I dreamed of killing animals again. When did I turn into such an evil person.

Last night, though, I dreamed deer were coming into the house through the AC vents I rolled around on the floor with them, pet their bellies etc. then a large Moose came in through the front door and I yelled at the kids "get him OUT OF HERE!" He had huge antlers and I was afraid he would hurt the deer or himself.

When I woke up I realized I've been stressed out about my animals back home. Did I kill them by leaving them in the care of my kids?

Anyhow, we leave tomorrow. Today, we're taking it easy and packing. Hubby might want to venture out at some point to look for the Gold and Silver Pawn Shop. We'll also go out to eat sooner or later even though I have lots of cereal left to get through before we leave.

Rant: I woke up with a headache.

Rave: Had a co-worker that likes the Legend of Zelda games, and seems like a hardcore fan of it compared to me, and Nintendo in general; when Epona becomes your inspiration to try horse-back riding, that's saying something. Her child-like disposition that emitted when we found things to talk about was pretty cute, and I say that in context of being a child at heart, mind you. How she went about her thoughts of certain games like LOZ: Twilight Princess, and its ending that made her cried, along with throwing her ex-boyfriend into that equation somehow, and me just staring into her eyes while she eventually started smiling back was a nice, genuine moment. She went from a timid person to completely dominating the conversation, but it’s nice not having to be the conversationalist for once. I think my face was red for a good bit while I went back to working, and never thought she would make me blush.

Looking back at it, I felt if I had more time during my lunch to talk with her, I could’ve asked her about lucid dreaming, and blitzkrieg’d her with some experiential cases of mine. She seems like a person completely unaware of the concept, and would’ve developed an affinity for it for the sake of communicating more with me. If we happen to stumble upon each other, I think I might do this, but I always look back at the person who told me about lucid dreaming, and he’s completely gone now. Just a random conversation that completely changed my quotidian lifestyle and sense of novelty for nightly sleep. I guess at the end of the day, it’s about spreading knowledge and awareness, and not expecting anything back from it.

I seem to completely undermine the experiential cases of mine for awesome topics to talk about, and being about 1% of a word-slinger to them about the whole endeavor. But it never seemed to be an enticing thing to do in raising awareness of lucid dreaming since it could conflict with their current convictions, and them feigning interest in it with, “Oh, that’s cool…” Though, I think this is just an excuse, and seems to be a nice introduction to comradery, or in this case, just dating her. That whole transformation of a linear, quotidian lifestyle before lucid dreaming, and the augmentation of a blank canvas that seems to come when attempting it, and integrating it as well really can change a person in hopes of a larger sense of liberation, I guess.

I seem to be used to just interacting with older women, and how they’re seemingly completely absolved from that naiveté when talking to someone about my age has more of common ground due to the lack of our experiential learning of certain things that the older ones who tend to emasculate me about in a teasing manner. The latter seems to objectify me, but I’ve grown used to it, but the former seems more enticing even though it may lead to others having a weird concept that I’m more sociable than I seem to think against.

Friend, or transient love interest, it seems that adventure with someone in recalling our dreams, talking about what occurred, and how we dived into our cognition on a nightly basis makes it easier to reconcile the disposition we had of being so engrossed in the process without being predisposed in the win-lose situation that leads to a burnout at some point. Doing that again with anyone else seems interesting, albeit the experiential trial-and-error I had that translated into an easier time lucid dreaming if I have interest in doing so is a nice fallback.

It probably just gets easier to do if you get used to the potential that said gregarious ties may become transient moments, rather than feeling that action-to-id stuff with lucid dreaming with others was the only thing you could do that sustained its novelty. I never speculated about this contributing to those frequent burnouts before, but it’s a nice reconciliation.

Damn, I love lucid dreaming, and all of the experiential totality that it entails.

Thanks Louai and Zhaylin, hopefully I might get her back as a spirit guide.

Rave:
I had a dream of my gf today! We were talking randomly. Wish I had become lucid and we could have hugged. I really miss her comforting presence and tender love.

I give up smoking. My money situation sucks and I can't buy cigs anymore. Smoking was a waste of time during the 6 or so years I smoked.

Your passion, Link, makes me want to get back into lucid dreaming You also expanded my vocabulary. I had to look up quotidian.

I'm staying up all night. It seems pointless to go to bed which boggles hubby's mind. If I go to bed now, I'll toss and turn for an hour or two then have to be alert and ready to roll by 4:45AM. I can't do that. I'd wake up miserable and sluggish and cranky. But I'll have no problem napping on the plane for 4 hours Driving home will be tough but still easier than trying to sleep now.

So much for a nice easy day. We ventured out at 10 to find the pawn shop of Pawn Stars. We were in there all of 10 minutes before they shooed everyone because they were going to film lol. Then we hunted for the In and Out Burger joint, ate lunch, then went back to the room to chill for an hour. After that, we made a practice run for the airport, then hunted for a Vape shop for 3 hours. My Garmin let me down. The address was 6485 NORTH Decatur. But whenever I typed it in, she changed it to SOUTH. we drove the entire south Decatur all the way there through exceptionally heavy traffic. Hubby treated me to $32. In e-juice though

Now I can but Fallout for myself. I'm good on juice and coils for the next 2 weeks or so.

I've been feeling beside myself all day. I have the memories of a dreams jabbing at the back of my brain. Flashes of memories: flying on a Pegasus; minecraft-esq building; zombies beating on a door; another planet and time loops; memories from childhood and my grandmother and old friends. I can't make sense of the flashes or put them into any kind of order and it's driving me bonkers. Especially when real memories collide with dream memories and I can't diffentiate between them.

Gah!

While drinking, I found out most of my friends assumed my wife and I have a BDSM/sex maid with a friend of ours.