UHC update... my shoulder is partially displaced but the gap is in between the need for the sling OR surgery. There MIGHT be a bone fragment broken off and floating there so a CT has been ordered. |
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Very strange, but I'm just now developing bruises from the break. My arm is also hurting a bit more today. |
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Last edited by Zhaylin; 08-13-2018 at 04:49 PM.
UHC update... my shoulder is partially displaced but the gap is in between the need for the sling OR surgery. There MIGHT be a bone fragment broken off and floating there so a CT has been ordered. |
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Ugh... I’m still only sleeping in bits and pieces. My elbow was killing me, so I took my arm out of the sling and stretched it (the Dr even told me to do so; and to curl my lower arm for circulation and what not). I was afraid to though because my shoulder seriously feels like it’s going to pop out of place. I don’t know if it’s supposed to feel like that or if it’s something to be worried about. |
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I am miserable. I tried to make myself cry with very limited success. But now I’m all the more miserable for it because of post nasal drip and dry eyes. Hopefully, though, the dry eyes will work in my favor sooner rather than later and help me fall the frick to sleep. I also just took 2 Benadryls to help me. |
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Last edited by yuppie11975; 08-16-2018 at 05:08 PM. Reason: Double post
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I haven't cried since.... I can't even remember. Not in the last 10 years at least. It's not that I don't get sad, I just seem to be incapable of crying for one reason or another. Sometimes I even try and force myself to cry because I feel like it would be beneficial to me, you know, cathartic and all that. But, nope. Still can't do it. I'm sure I'll manage when something truly harrowing happens to me. Anyway, figured I'd drop a bit of an update seeing I'm pretty slack. It's not that I don't read this thread regularly, I just struggle to find the energy to type out my own posts. Regardless, I always check in on your daily updates, Zhaylin. So, recently I moved from living on my university back home. I'm finishing my degree online. I've got 8 classes left to go, so... nearly done. I don't really like my degree, but I figure I may as well finish it at this point with all the time and money I've invested in it. I almost feel as if university is kind of a scam, unless you are super certain about what you want to do and you're following a formalised pathway onto a trajectory that you've got all mapped out. Otherwise, it's just kind of a thing that people feel obliged to do. It makes your parents proud, people revere it, everyone champions it. When I was in highschool, we were basically all told repeatedly that if we didn't go to university we'd have no real success in life. I don't know what the motivation behind telling people that is, but I certainly don't think that it's true in hindsight. Looking back I wish I just learned a trade, like an electrician or something like that. Recently, I've been thinking a lot about, well, I've been pining more than I've been thinking, about going back in time and starting over. Having an opportunity to make all my choices again. I know that it's not healthy to dwell on the past, and that people often place weight on the past when their actions in the present could dramatically alter their future, but, I still can't help myself. Anyway, living at home has been okay. It has its ups and downs like anything else. My main joy lately has been my motorcycle. It's super fun and I'm getting better at riding every day. A couple weeks back I was going around a roundabout and I slid out and dropped the bike. I had some pretty bad road rash on my leg, but no serious injuries. It was embarrassing more than anything else - there was lots of traffic around to witness it. No one stopped to help or anything, so I had to lift the bike up all by myself. Normally this would be a challenge because it's rather heavy, but with all the adrenaline and embarrassment coursing through my veins, I somehow lifted it as if it weighed nothing. To this day I'm still pretty nervous at roundabouts now, but overall I would say that my riding is getting better. It's pretty funny if I think about it, I'm more tentative about riding a roundabout at 10KPH than I am taking a corner at 110KPH. I'm not sure what caused me to slide out, it could be tire tread, tire pressure, gravel on the road, rider error, or a combination of everything. It's funny, when I was researching tips on how to be a good rider, one thing that I saw repeatedly was 'Learn to accept responsibility for your errors' and when I read it at the time I thought 'well, duh'. It seemed silly to me at the time that you wouldn't own up to your mistakes. But, when I crashed, I didn't really want to blame myself. I forced myself to be rational and acknowledge I made an error, but it was more difficult than I thought. Anyway, there's my long self important monologue pretty much over. I'll attach a few photos of the bike before and after I repaired it. I hope everyone is doing well. Lots of love. |
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Here is the exhaust heat shield after I sanded it down and sprayed it. (Decided to change it to black to conceal the scrapes a bit better, and also I think it looks a bit nicer) |
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Glad you didn't hurt yourself!!! |
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Well thanks EbbTide, I'm glad you enjoyed it. What specifically did you find provoking? I appreciate your comment, I just didn't consider my post to be particularly profound. |
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Yup... |
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Thanks Yuppie. That was a very old pic (of me lol- have I changed that much ) |
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Last edited by Zhaylin; 08-20-2018 at 05:57 PM.
Bah! Surgery, it is. |
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Do you browse the forums much zhaylin, or only this thread? I was wondering how many active users there are floating around these days. Also, have you heard from woblybill recently? |
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I'm usually in this thread or the Lounge. |
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I went through and read over my dream journal last night. It's pretty interesting looking over stuff you wrote around 6 years ago. I'd like to get back into lucid dreaming, I think it's amazing, the only issue is that it's rather time consuming. Do you lucid dream much these days, Zhaylin? |
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Nah. LDing is way too time consumingf and my sllep suffers too much for it. Plus, I enjoy deciphering what my subconscience is processing. |
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The nerve blockis wearing off and pain is replacing it But it's still not intolerable yet. I've been trying to keep ahead of it with Tylenol and Hydros and CBD. I have a very addictive personality so I'm trying to go easy on the Hydros. |
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Last edited by Zhaylin; 08-24-2018 at 10:14 PM.
Sorry to hear you're in so much pain Zhaylin, I hope you feel better soon. |
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Happy day to you, Yuppie. Hope you can do something nice for yourself if nothing else |
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They gave me 7.5 Oxy cut with 375mg tylenol. it's not working much better, but I'm not currently wishing for death or for my arm to just fall off. |
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I used to religiously smoke weed from the time I woke up until I went to sleep. Did this for around 4 years, but then I started feeling anxious whenever I smoked, so I ended up giving it away for good. Probably for the best, it made me very lazy. Also I save a lot of money not smoking. |
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My brother is a pot smoker. He got into heavier, deadlier stuff for a few years but finally put it all behind him. Except for pot lol. He’ll be a stoner til the day he dies. |
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One persistent problem I have with my life is that I always feel disorganised. It's difficult for me to commit to certain things because the idea of having to keep track of it is overwhelming. It's kind of hard to explain. For example, the tasks I do daily are kind of check list based, and I feel wrong if I don't do them. So, when I wake up, I have to make my bed and make sure that my room is aligned correctly. That everything is in its correct position. It's basically an obsession/compulsion. I refer to it as 'Organisational OCD' (not an actual medically recognised term). It's really hard to explain even. If I try my best to just ignore my urge to do something then I can just forget about it pretty easily, but I typically end up doing it because it feels nice. Kind of like scratching an itch or whatever. I should probably see a psychologist about it. I just feel like it prohibits me from making personal progress because all my goals are associated (in my mind) with this sort of attentive anxiety. I'm not really sure if you guys will understand what I'm trying to describe, it's difficult for me to even quantify it. |
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