Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

^ Oh fun... Hope you don't have your "Time of the Month" on Christmas or New Years. Nothing like a gift that you can't take back.
Rant: My right leg is killing me. I think I pulled a tendon.

, IC. THANKFULLY, I do not celebrate the holidays. It's just another day, for me. BUT... I think hubby's kids are only in town during Christmas, which means we'll be having dinner with the gang. Which means, the Stonecoal restaurant and a 30-40 minute drive each way.
Bah! My hormones should be winding down by then.

I hope you feel better soon! Remember RICE- rest, ice, compression, elevation. And Ibuprofen I hope you're well enough to enjoy what ever festivities you have planned

Rave: The drive to the city went exceptionally smoothly. Minimal traffic and SUPERB gas prices ($2.35). He was done right before 1:00. Hubby could also speak afterwards and didn't feel much until we arrived home.

Rant: But I had to take his scripts to Walmart, and Wally World was an absolute zoo I became extremely overheated, so I took my arms out of my sleeves, and wore the turtle neck fuzzy sweater as a scarf lol (I had a tank top on underneath it ) I looked like an idiot, but I barely cared. I was on the verge of passing out.
... I felt that way partially because of dear Mr. Monthly, but mostly because I'm in pain with my shoulder today. More than I've been in a long time.

Humorous: I was still wearing my shirt that way when I gave hubby his stuff. I complained of my shoulder and he exclaimed over the dimple. I told him I've always had shoulder dimples and showed him the other shoulder. Seriously, dear. We've been together for how long now?
BUT, the one with my broken arm IS much more pronounced. Hmmm...

I am doing nothing for the rest of the day Elder Scrolls Online is calling my name....

Huh.. I thought I posted here after my Dr appointment...
It went very well. He said my bone has completely healed... but I should still take it just a bit slow so I don't over tax my muscles and such or dislocate anything lol. He said my dimple is more pronounced and my shoulder is more "concaved" because my deltoid muscles aren't quite strong enough to keep everything in place.
He also said the huge knot is probably soft tissue over the plate

Rave: I just watched one of the best friggin movies that I've seen in a very long time. It's called Bird Box, from Netflix. I was enthralled throughout the entirety.

Meh: But yesterday, on the other hand, I watched The Predator (2018) and... it was THE cheesiest, most profanity laced gorefest that I've seen in memory It captivated me, but in a different sort of way. Almost like watching a train wreck and not being able to look away

Meh: I've caught up on my sleep but I still feel exhausted... AND I think I'm going to stay up all night to tackle my room. I HAVE to get this TV and Xbox set up before my step-daughter comes to town

Raves: My e-juice arrived today, in record time! And I'm still thoroughly enjoying Elder Scrolls Online. It's not EQ2, but I still love it. A guild invited me to join while I was still trying the game for free- which makes traveling to different areas a breeze. Yet, I don't know how to travel to other areas of the map any other way I can't wait for the Holiday Event to be over so I can play the game normally and fully immerse myself. For the Event it's travel here and do this, travel there and do that. You get exceptional rewards for completing tasks, so I'm focused on that and getting places the fastest (and cheapest) way.

Hope everyone is well and enjoying any time off from work or school y'all might have.

**EDIT**
Oh yeah. Humorous from yesterday or the day before:
I was nagging my daughter Miley because she still hadn't taken care of the literbox in the bathroom. I was in my bedroom, my eldest was in my doorway talking to me, Miley was in the next room playing video games.
We were kind of arguing back and forth, then Miley ended something with "Bitch, please!"

I then got out my "serious" voice and said: "Excuse me, what did you just call me?! I NEVER talk to you like that, so why do you think it's okay to say to me?!"
To which she replied: Blah, blah, blah "It's just an expression! I wasn't calling you anything..."
The face of my Eldest was beet red. He was embarrassed for us.
Miley continued arguing about semantics and Ray defended me, saying a person just never speaks to their mother that way.

The humour in all of this is that Miley actually got right up and took care of the job. Semantics or not, she KNEW she crossed a line and didn't press her luck any further. I was secretly glad she said what she said because it saved us from days of back and forth and the job from getting worse and worse.

Rant: It took me almost 3 minutes to recall the word "semantic". Synapsis? Semaptic? No and no... grrr... FINALLY, I got it

I've been doing just fine.
Merry Christmas and lots of love

Welcome back Yuppie. I was beginning to wonder where you disappeared to.

Rants: I am EXTRA sleepy and in extreme discomfort today. I only managed to get about 5 hours of sleep last night. The top of my thighs is what's causing me so much grief. Sitting on my feet has NOT been cutting it, these last couple of days. The heating pad helps a bit... but not nearly enough!
I've fallen asleep about 4 times while wiring this

I'm still pooped today. I got 11 hours of sleep last night though
I woke up okay, then went out for dinner and barely ate anything and *WHAM*!- I was overtaken by sudden and extreme sleepiness.
After that, I dropped hubby off at home then rushed to Walmart to pick up meds and then to Speedway to get a Frozen Coke. They were out of Coke though I'm somewhat forcing down Frozen Mt. Dew mixed with Cherry. Meh.
The Frozen Coke won't be available until Saturday. I'll try to soldier on til then

I've finally woken up a little which is both a blessing and a curse. I have PT at 2:15 tomorrow, so I really should try to get to sleep at a reasonable hour. I'm feeling fairly "meh", so that shouldn't be too difficult. Nothing really sounds all that interesting enough to keep me up.

The weekend should be pretty relaxing because his son will be taking his family to DC to visit some of his wife's friends or relatives. We're going to go eat at a fancy place on Monday. We might get together a couple more times, but hubby goes back to work on Wednesday; his daughter leaves town on Tuesday and the rest head home on Thursday.
All this socializing is exhausting me

I hope everyone has survived their holiday.

*Semi-coherently* What?? Who me? I was surprised that I was able to type this semi-coherently. Thanks... Still in pain.
https://www.dreamviews.com/general-d...ing-dream.html

Rave: Christmas was okay, we went over to my sister's house, watched movies and stuff. The dinner was good. I did some magic card tricks and stuff. I even made my niece laugh so hard that the soda came out of her nose.

Cry/Complain: My lower back hurts. It's uncomfortable to stand up straight so I end up hunching a little, even though I know that's not actually better. And I have two lumps? Right next to each hip? They are sore to the touch and I don't know what the fuck they are. I suppose they could be knots. I'm too awkward and dumb to have health issues, no one taught me how to deal with them so I hope it just goes away, because otherwise I have to figure out what doctor to go to? And go to new places with new people? Where I don't know how to talk to them or what questions to ask. That sounds AWFUL. No thank you.

I'm also going to complain that I'm at work and large, capable men, always ask me to load up their cabinets. I'm a tiny woman, fuck off please.

Brief rant -- I was rear-ended on December 19th and my neck and lower back are still quite stiff and sore. Some mornings, it takes a bit of work to get out of bed. I was hit by a 17yo who decided that texting on the cell phone was more important than the life, safety, and health of their own self and others around. Luckily for the other driver, her car got hung up on my trailer hitch instead of going completely under my truck. I sure do hope that she's ok as she was also hauled off to the ER. My cervical spine discs C5 and C6 are compressed as found by CT images in the ER and I'm sure there's another couple in the lower back. I need to get some images of my lower spine. Christmas and New Year's are putting delays into scheduling radiology appointments. It's crappy, but not bad enough to go back to the ER for images. I'm writing letters to the states and federal gov't to increase the enforcement and penalties for distracted driving. People's misuse of cell phones are causing a lot of destruction to people's lives, not to mention the cases where lives are completely lost. ...I want a large bumper sticker on both of my trucks, "HANG UP AND DRIVE!"

Brief rave -- I've finally pulled myself out of a funk I've been in for the last 9 months. I was laid off in March and started a new job in July. The new place started as a nuclear war and slowed down to just lopping grenades at each other. I don't understand why there has to be so much drama and politics in business. Finally, things have settled down as the company moved into a new office building and has picked up a couple of new contracts. I think we're on the uphill climb now, though the company is not utilizing me to the full extent that they can. I sure hope that it keeps going uphill because I'm about to show some of my good cards to them. ...cards I do not show to someone unless they are able to build some trust and respect. Trust and respect are earned, not assumed.

Brief broadcast to all -- Please do not let the cell phone distract your driving. It may seem like the car went only a little over the line or whatever now and then, but it can seriously impact or terminate your life and the lives of others. Whatever the reason for the text is, the response/reply can wait. If something is important enough to require immediate attention, the other person will call you instead of texting. A phone call is a lot less distracting than texting as you, the driver, may keep your eyes on the road instead of the phone.

Wow AnderJ! Glad you're reasonably okay. I hope the doctors can get you completely fixed up SOON after the holidays. The holidays throw everything into chaos and back logs
And, thank you, for the timely reminder about cellphone usage. Here's a bumper sticker https://www.zazzle.com/stop_texting_...26349067965852

Also happy to hear you're settling into your new job. I detest politics (and chaos and anger) so I wouldn't have lasted a day

Amurehna, I hope you feel better soon. Can you take ibuprofen? If it's muscle related, the knots could be from inflammation and the meds could help bring it down. Also, a hot bath or shower and a heating pad could help.
Don't feel bad about not knowing stuff. I'm still learning new things. And remember that Google is your friend : I have to get off my butt and look into things too. Like, what the heck sort of Doctor do you see for TMJ (jaw pain)?

IC, Wow, what a dream! You really should write a book. Details, in dreams, are incredible. I'm rarely ever able to recall them to the level of your post, though.
Glad you had a good time with your family

Rant: Hemorrhoids. Seriously? What the heck? I've not been constipated or anything; haven't done any heavy lifting that I can think of. Just boom!- showed up out of nowhere last night. It's considerably larger than any I've had to deal with in the past. I actually broke down and used my cellphone to take a look What the heck? So, then I turned to Google: "rectal Hemorrhoid cyst or tumor" Found a bunch of blah, blah, blah, so I then turned to Images. My goodness! I thought I had it bad
But, yeah, just hemorrhoids
If it doesn't go away or shrink soon, I'll be turning to a rubber band. Hubby gave me some cream.

So... I'm sitting, as best I can, on a heating pad

Otherwise, everything is fairly peaceful and quiet today. Hubby's going to send me out for food later, but that's it. I hope the Coke man made it to Speedway today. I seriously need 64 ounces of Frozen Coke. Yes. I NEED it

Rave: I finally got a bit more of my bedroom sorted out last night. There's now an acceptable path to my bed
I got one level of my metal shelf cleaned off and have 2 containers there for clothes. But, I'm done with clothes. I have 50 articles of clothes hanging up- Summer, Winter, a couple sweaters, a shawl, 1 for scarves. I wear nearly none of them. Then, I have about a dozen cammies/tank tops and some 6 pairs of shorts. I do NOT need all of those clothes.
I'm going to try on a bunch of stuff later and whatever I don't like, I'll give to my kids or donate. I can no longer tolerate pressure under my armpits . If it's not baggy, then, it's going!

Rant: My CPAP machine isn't registering my hours

Wow, anderj101! Hope you feel better!!

Zhaylin, I'm okay at it. I'm used to writing dreams that are long just not sure if some of them make sense. I can't say that I'm a novelist, I would doubt that a publisher would even look at my work. They would probably just the door in my face. I am hardly a Tom Clancy or a Michael Crichton. New post I hope it isn't confusing or something like that: https://www.dreamviews.com/general-d...ml#post2231174
Other Giant: https://www.dreamviews.com/dream-int...all-dream.html
I've written movie scripts before that is about 110 and 120 pages. I remember writing one in college with my friends Boothy and Kevin...

Rant: I'm a half asleep. I went to bed at 4:20 am. Why I'm up right now?? I don't know. And I think I have a fever from the shit that is going around... Crap!

Rant
Yesterday evening my Sig Sauer p220 .45 trigger jammed at the local shooting range, while blowing off some steam, so now I need to buy a new trigger

Took a fainting spell in the shopping parking lot today... I'm fine now, though. Thanks. Just a bit tired, just tired. Coffee will not help. Rant: My heating blanket is broken. It fried and I just got it for Christmas.

Sorry to hear about your Sig, Gordan. I hope you can get it repaired or replaced quickly and inexpensively.

IC That sounds very scary! Perhaps you should see a Dr?
Sorry about your blanket. Can you take it back to have it replaced if nothing else? There's no reason it should just up and die so quickly!

Rant: I got no sleep last night. I had taxi duty early, so once 5:30 arrived, I gave up on even trying. I had the girls dropped off and was back in town by 9:30... at which time I went to a walk-in clinic. When the receptionist asked the reason for my visit, I told her I wasn't sure they could help me and told her my problem. She called the back and was told if it was severe, they'd just send me to the ER, but the Dr would see me if I wanted. I told her that would be best because I just didn't know/couldn't tell if it was an emergency or not.

The Dr took a look at me and said 'Yeah, that's a really large hemorrhoid... Don't get me wrong, I've seen bigger, but yours is up there... and the problem is, I think it's thrombosed [blood clot] so you should see a surgeon ASAP.'

Great... But no one could be reached today, so now it's the waiting game. He called in a script of Lidcoaine (sp)/swelling relief but when I called Walmart to price check it, they said they told the Dr's office, they didn't have any and have yet to hear back from them.


I just know, with 98% certainty that I don't want to be rubber-banded. Lance and drain the sucker and be done with it. Wearing a rubber band for a couple of weeks sounds like torture.

As it is, I'm supposed to chug a ton of water every day, avoid foods like cheese, not lift anything and stay off my feet as much as possible for the next few days.


When it rains, it pours I wonder just what else my body has in store for me

Curiosity: Since the problem presented itself, I've been in a heightened state of sexual arousal It hurts. It's NOT sexy, so what the heck gives rofl? My guess is it has to do with nerve bundles and the blood vessels being engorged? I mean, I know men have pleasure sensors in their bum, but do women? It's all very weird but interesting

Coolbeans

I find out on Monday whether or not I need surgery for this new problem I'm glad I'm not dying. Monday was the earliest I could be seen .
I can already tell 2019 is going to be a major pain in my butt

Rant: My body is finally saying NO!!!! to frozen cokes. It's causing acid reflux

Rave: Everything else is fairly fine and peaceful. All of the guests left by Thursday, and hubby went back to work on Wednesday... so everything is slowly getting back to normal. I also found a new forum (the layout is almost exactly like DV lol- down to many of the same smilies, "Quick Post" and "Go Advance"). It's about MBTI and other personality tests/results.
I've discovered Enneagrams and Sociotypes, which has been very interesting (and immensely sonfusing And, yes, I realize I typed that wrong, but that's JUST how confusing it all is )

Meh: Hubby's sending me out for a healthy fish dinner at 4:15 (an hour from now). I can't recall the last time we ate together at his house. It's been a while because he kept me at arms length while I had "the plague". It'll be nice to share a meal with him, but that involves leaving the house first

I hope everyone has been well.

Rave: The fish, last night, was exceptional. I almost wished we had bought 2 so I didn't have to share It ended up being more than enough, though. Plus, it was crab crusted, which meant more acid reflux. If I had eaten an entire meal myself, it would have been unbearable!

Rant: It is much too quiet here! Where is everyone hiding

Rant: I have to buy some Protonix this week. It's for acid relux and I've not had it for a week. Which would explain why everything has been so much worse this week Ranitidine, even 3 times a day, doesn't work nearly as well as 1 Ranitidine in the AM and 1 Protonix before bed.
I also need Provigil this week.

Rant: PLUS... my baby brother called and asked for a $100. loan. I forgot I have to get my meds, so I now have to ask my mom and she can spot him $50. and I'd cover the other $50. The full amount just isn't feasible and I can't ask hubby because hubby HATES my brother (initially justified, but good God can that man hold a grudge. Forget about it friggin already!)

Rant: I am still EXTRA exhausted. I got in almost 12 hours worth of sleep last night and I can still barely keep my eyes open (after an entire Provigil too!) Bah!

Time to game for an hour... then hubby might send me out for a very late dinner...

Busy mostly!! Dog Sitting for someone. Trying to stay not sick.
I'm chatting on Discord. Writing my latest dreams and of course, I'm causing utter chaos in my wake. Other than that, nothing much. *shrugs* Here: https://www.dreamviews.com/tasks-mon...ml#post2231319

Whew... what a dream, IC
Glad you're staying busy (if that's what you enjoy).
Your post reminded me that I have yet to buy a new mic lol. But, meh, I tend to hide from people so I can't justify the expense now that everything had to go get all fancy (I loved my cheap $5.-$10. stand alone mic from Walmart which I used for goodness only knows how long. It was a dinosaur )

Rant: I can't believe just HOW utterly exhausted I am. It's ridiculous. Even while gaming or watching something, I fall off into micro naps (complete with dreams). I'm not seeing any blood when I use the restroom, but a huge part of me thinks I'm anemic. It's the only thing that makes sense. Thank goodness I see the Dr. tomorrow!

Rant: I'm freezing. It's not 72 degrees (finally up some from 70). If I'm not moving, though, it needs to be MUCH warmer for me to be comfy. My heater, though, doesn't seem to want to pick up the slack. Recovering from 64 degree sleeping temps seems to be too difficult.

Rant: I also have taxi duty tomorrow AND have to try to figure out how to transfer money between Walmart stores. Bah!

Time to go crawl back in bed and hug my heating pad for a few hours lol.

Question? When I described the dream character for the task of the month. Can you picture what he looks like? Could you draw him?

I sense his essence. I have aphantasia to one degree or another. (https://www.bbc.com/news/health-34039054)
Like, if someone says "imagine an apple", I see a very slight shadowy outline of a basic apple. Color will flash briefly before disappearing. It's hard to hold on to the image at all... almost like seeing a shadow out of the corner of your eyes, but when you turn to look at it, it's gone.

I think in words and your words painted a seductive scene
(It's very strange to me that my dreams are more vivid than real life- full of detail, color, activity, and picture perfect memory. So, the images are stored somehow, I just can't access it consciously.)

Rave: I do NOT need surgery. He says it looks like it's shrinking on its own and I just need to be patient. Humorously enough, he SEVERELY dislikes "Preparation H" and similar creams. He says there's a 50/50 chance it will do anything at all... and when it seems it does, it might actually just be your body taking care of the problem.
He pushed fiber and fluids and I told him about a possible diagnosis of gastroparesis. He was taken aback that they tossed that diagnoses out without further testing. He ordered a gastric emptying test for me. Maybe I can finally get to the bottom of this bloating!!!!!!

Rave: I REALLY liked him. He didn't even have me gown up. He just raised the table, had me lay on my side, then had my skirt lifted and undies lowered (there were 2 nurses in the room with him, who partially covered me because that's whats expected lol. Seriously, what did the blanket over the front of me accomplish? My skirt was still tucked down )
He talks a little too much and talks over you a little (as people tend to do when joking and relaxed).
I don't know if he's a Family Doctor or Specialized.. but if he's General everything, I think I may have found my new guy!

Rant: Despite being strangely exhausted, I didn't sleep (much more than the occasional micro-nap) last night and this morning. I did take a decent nap while waiting for the Doctor, though. My sleep is thoroughly annoying me.

Rave: But I found a new favorite iPad game: Merge Dragons! Good golly that game is friggin addictive!!

Rant: Woke up sick and threw up everywhere this morning. I puke all over my sister's dog, Tessie. I have a sore throat too. I have no appetite. The world's against me I swear... My sister's dogs don't make things easy either. Yes, I'm dog sitting. Every time I would finally fall off asleep, they would start barking at god knows what. I feel pain all over. Getting up when you are shivering non-stop because you have a fever doesn't help... "Oh, fun!!" I have had a bad week.
Eh, I must have a little allergy to my graphite pencils. What the hell. A little drawback for being an artist, I guess.
On the bright side is that I got better at drawing, I think. But, I still have a long way to go.

I hope you're feeling completely better, IC. Sounds terrible! Sucks about the graphite. Maybe you could get some surgical-type gloves to wear when using it? You're skill is friggin amazing. That portrait you shared in another thread was absolutely amazing.

Rant: I didn't sleep for nearly 2 days. I had the gastric emptying study yesterday, so I couldn't take any of my reflux meds. On Monday, I was scared of sleeping through my alarms, so I couldn't sleep that night. The night before, I stayed up because of discomfort from lack of meds.
Last night, I passed out. Now, I'm finding it nearly impossible to stay awake.

In fact, I woke up with an "EEK!" because I felt something wet through my blankets. Apparently, when my alarm went off, I grabbed my bottle of e-juice to top off my tank.. then fell asleep with the bottle open and proceeded to spill almost all of it out because I fell back to sleep in the process of it all...

RAGE: My skin is friggin annoying the dickens out of me. In fact, I had to go home during the study yesterday, just so I could slather up with lotion and change clothes. My skin is itchy, crawling, burning, "tight", and dry. I couldn't figure out if my clothes were contaminated with allergens or if it was just dry skin. I think it was both. I've had to shower every single night the entire week- which dries me out to a ridiculous degree.

Rant: I keep falling asleep WHILE I'm typing. Sorry if it's disjointed lol.

Now, it's about time to take off- again- for yet another Dr's appointment. It's a follow-up on the hemorrhoids and to go over the results of yesterday's test (which was 4 1/2 hours long!) I doubt he'll have the results of that test, though. I'm very curious about the results!!

**EDIT**
It's been confirmed that I have delayed emptying. My results were something like 5, 50, and 82%. "In the some study using this acquisition protocol, the normal values were 10%, 65% and 90%, at 1, 2 and 4 hours, respectively."
To me, though, that doesn't seem like such a big difference.
SO, I get to have another endoscopy done. This time, though, the Dr assured me he WILL take a biopsy- whether he sees anything unusual or not.

Always great to see Zhaylin is still here, at least a familiar name still sticks around.

I just realised we have a discord but I've no idea how to start a convo there. I can't even remember how I managed to start a convo here in DV when I was young. I guess age does something to people, I grew more socially awkward.