Look, I don't know how old you are, and I don't want to be seen as urging 14-17 year olds to experiment with drugs, but I can't emphasize this enough, especially based on your (no offense here) apparent ignorance regarding them:
YOU SHOULD REALLY EXPERIMENT WITH DRUGS.
Seriously, throughout my childhood I was a pretty depressed kid. I shut myself off from the world, emotions, people, relationships, everything. The reasons for this are complex and obnoxious and not terribly interesting. The point is this: If it weren't for (in this order) alcohol, weed, ecstasy, mushrooms, and LSD, **I would still be that miserable, depressed kid**. I know there's so very much in our culture that tries to program you to think that 'drugs are bad, mmkay,' but they're only bad if you ABUSE them. Among many, many other positive effects, marijuana relaxes you and puts you into a state of non-tension that gives you the space necessary to take a step back from whatever it is in your life that causes you tension or prevents you from being what you want to be. Once you have this space, once you have this 'higher' perspective, you are free to do and be WHATEVER you actually want to be. You can step back from everything in your life and realize what you need and want, what you don't need and don't want, and begin to shift things accordingly. In a fundamental way it alleviates what I can only describe as 'soul sickness', or depression, which for me was a state in which I was so deep in a hole that I could not even begin to think about how to climb out, all I could do was desperately feast on anything that gave me the slightest, transient comfort. Nothing, NOTHING in life is more important than expanding your perceptions and broadening your horizons, and that is EXACTLY what drugs (at least, the drugs I'm talking about. You should probably stay away from the big baddies like meth, heroin, coke, etc., though you're free to do whatever you please) can do for you. Smoking weed relaxed me and opened my mind to just how amazing the world we live in can be if you just retune your focus, it brought me out of my shell and the bottomless pit I was trapped in. I CANNOT ENDORSE ITS USE ENOUGH. Seriously. Seriously.
Before the first time I took ecstasy at a rave, for example, I *hated* people. I'm not exaggerating. If you've read Catcher in the Rye, 18 year old me makes Holden Caulfield seem Charlie Bucket from Willy Wonka. The feeling of rolling at a rave with all those people, how everyone was just accepted for who they were without pretense or posturing, how everyone could just BE and everyone unconditionally supported and loved each other... it utterly changed my life and perceptions of people. I went from bitter, hateful, misanthropic conservative to excessively empathetic bleeding-heart liberal in a few short years.
At the very least you owe it to yourself to TRY it. Lots of people will tell you lots of different things about a given substance, but the only way to truly know anything is to experiment yourself.
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