Love, Life, and the pursuit of.....something?
So this post is a cry for help I suppose, or perhaps a rant I've been saving for months but didn't know how or where to express it. Hopefully your opinions will help make me less alone and confused.
My situation right now, is that I'm 19, living with my mom, and working in a restaurant with no social life. And I must say, my life is pretty dull. I'm at a crossroads right now and my options are infinite. I really don't know what steps to take to help me live a meaningful and passionate life. Living in a society that revolves around money is very limiting to the creative and intellectual mind. So what's a guy to do?
I am not won over easily with material goods. I do not buy things. Extreme happiness and contentment to me comes from being outside of a city, not from inside shopping malls and bars. I have a love for love, beauty, passion, and truth. Contrary to the popular craze, I am not on a quest for money. Rather, I am on a quest for meaning, reason, and truth.
Working and consuming distracts me from thinking clearly about the real questions in life, the questions that really matter when I'm lying on your deathbed. I want to experience everything there is to experience before I die but I fear I cannot do this slaving away for the almighty dollar.
Am I brainwashed to think that if I don't have lots of money I will amount to nothing? That is certainly how it feels. Has this society subliminally imprinted it's ideals into my mind? Can I live without the pressures of money? Do any of you live without the concerns of money? If so, how?
I could go on forever, but I'm not that cruel, if you want a novel about what's inside this bottle pm me. I suppose this post is aimed at my elders among this board who have more experience than me and can give me some advice, but also it's to the people who are in the same boat as me, that can share their situation as well.
Thanks to those who reply ;)