Reflections - Thankyou DreamViews
This is my reflection of my time here. - Not entirely sure where to post this. It's a little bit of a rant, but without the senseless banter.
Notice this- I joined DreamViews back in April of 2007. That was over 9 years ago. I was 14 when I first found this place and started attempting lucid dreaming. Yes, I was an illegal. At the time, the age requirement of the forum was either 15 or 16. The mods found out, but because my posts were on topic and added to the conversations, I was allowed to stay. I just had to hide my real age. Through my terrible grammar, immaturity, and other accepting members on this forum, I was able to make a few friends and feel like I actually belonged somewhere.
Which brings me to why I'm writing this. I was digging through some of my old posts circa 2008 when I stumbled across my waking journal I had posted in over a period of about two months before neglecting it like I did many things back then. The first post mentioned something that struck a chord in me. I had mentioned starting a waking journal on DreamViews because my paper journals weren't secure due to an "unstable" home life.
"it sucks really. but i always seem to be optemistic over everything. if i were someone else... ide have broken down years ago."
It probably seems vague to anyone reading this. Between the ages of 9 and 18, I had lived in a verbally and physically abusive home I couldn't escape. I developed depression and had suicidal thoughts often. Because of this forum and its members, I was able to escape for mere minutes a day and not too much more at night in my dreams. And I really needed that. I don't think I would have been so optimistic if hadn't had this coping method. Now, I'm building a family of my own. I'm pursuing my passion for photography and videography and making it into my career. I made it out of that dark place; I'm not sure I would've been able to without you guys.
And for that, I am so thankful.