I'm so Stupid...

I fell Inlove with someone that can't and wont love me back....

Sex is just sex... (I get that but I had feeling long before this started..)

I feel like my heart is breaking.

I know better... and I'll keep the fasacade up...
it's not hard after that travisty I one called a relastionship ended...

My DG said that I had to love him....
that it will play out as I expect..
and things will remain in my heart as they should..

I don't want it to play out like I expect... I think my life would fall apart..
(my little heart couldn't take it)

he's going to leave for Monteal
I'm going to work... and hang out with friends and get drunk (alcohol my sweet lover)

my hearts going to break...

He's the only man he's ever made my knee's go weak..
and Made my heart race and skip beats..

It'll never be what I want it to be.... *sigh*
And i'll keep my game going so long as I get to be that close to him.
and keep my emotional attactment to him, hidden..

what does it matter anyways.

Some one I need a drink... lots and lots of drinks....

I'll drink with you :P Gots'ta be the good stuff, tho...

You're not stupid. I made the mistake of falling head over heels for a girl a little while back. I was so sure she loved me too, but I was wrong. She started seeing someone I disliked in lieu of me.

Out of spite, I asked my current gal out. That meanie I fell for now hates us both.

I didn't expect it, but my gal and I ended up being perfect for each other. You just never know what kind of good can come from something bad.

Keep your chin up. :D

Thanks...
I needed to hear that.

Good stuff what's your fav I like vodka, cherry whiskey, coolers, gin, rum....
and the list goes on lol

You are NOT stupid for falling in love. You're a normal human being. I know it's kind of corny but when I was going through a rough time I kept repeating to myself, "whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger." It REALLY helped. A good one for you would be, "this too shall pass." Just keep saying that to yourself when you start to get down. And it's true, it will pass. In a year or two you'll look back on this time in your life and you won't even remember what it was like to feel this way, trust me.

You seem sweet, I really hope everything works out for you. Just lean on your friends for support. And us too! Good luck. :happygolucky:

Friends...I have few and far between my only joy
is that this guy is leaving for monteal...
and probably not returning...

He's to young mentally for me...He has yet to get his shit together...
if he wasn't sucha knob...
I would enjoy a casual relastionship with him...*sexually*

Still I don't regret falling in love...Just the timing between him and I is horrible..
*Not to mention he's a friend of my ex's how is my best friend so...yeah...*
Gotta work today.....

Still feel pretty stupid for letting happen what happened after all these years....
(I can't tell you how many road blocks I threw inbetween Him and I to prevent this same senerio from occuring)

anyways...
thanks ... "what doesn't kill me makes me strong..."
though it still hurts like hell....

Happy Holidays guys.

Feeling emotional pain is how you can tell that your heart is still beating. Let it make you stronger.

btw...I'm a vodka person... :wink:

Quote:

---

Originally posted by vystral
Feeling emotional pain is how you can tell that your heart is still beating. Let it make you stronger.

btw...I'm a vodka person... :wink:

---

*pounce*

You are now my fav person lol

Vodka is my drink of choice.... (most of the time)

Unless I'm drinking alone then it's whiskey or Rum....*BUT WHY IS THE RUM GONE*

anyways

Love is ok.. it's the feelings it gives me that make me crazy...

Right now I just wish I knew where he stood on things..
He's so tired and sad (though he claims other wise on the sad part)
I wish I could make him smile..
I never felt like this.. I would do anything for him to be happy...
I want to find some way to help him out..
he's got so many things on his shoulders..
blah..

I'm going out tonight...
and part of my thinks he might show up there.


I also now have to deal with another senario...
I'm not ready for anyone or anything..
I don't want anymore relastionships....
lifes just too much on it's own right now..

but I want to get to know people...
I want friends..
I want fun....

I want him....

And right now he's not ready either... so
in a bizzare turn of events...
everythings working out fine....
lifes not bad...
finally

:cheers:

here's a drink

oh and hey, your sig is really stacked :P

but you knew that :l