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      The World Hates Me. Why?

      Like the subject says, the world hates me. And yes, before any of you read any further this IS just another vent/rant that really NONE of you need to read. So why am I posting this? No idea, sorry. I just need to vent.

      Over the past week, I've gradually gained a pretty firm belief that the world, the ENTIRE world, is conspiring against me. Why? Here's what happened, in no particular order:

      The bank's been fucking with me, and tried to change my account type and raise my fees.

      The university's screwed with my enrollment, and told Studylink I'm not a "full-time student" which is CRAP, because I AM.

      Studylink, the stupid government fucks who are meant to be giving me a student loan, have decided NOT to, because of the information the university sent them. Despite my best efforts to convince them otherwise, they seem adamant in holding the (quite frankly) IDIOTIC belief that I'm not a full-time student because of a pile of useless fucking incorrect information the university sent them.

      V, the dude whose car I crashed into last month, has only JUST sent me a quote for repairs to his car. Other than being a month late, it's fucking extortionate, and he's obviously trying to fuck me over.

      Aside from the extortionate amount, it's LATE, and the insurance company won't accept it, so I'm probably going to have to pay for repairs out of my own pocket.

      Repairs to my own car already put me into overdraft.

      I have a history essay due in about a week, and the fucking thing's 2000 words. Normally, I'd be able to cope with it, but...

      I ALSO have a shitload of case readings and briefs to write for Law.

      The day AFTER the essay is due, I have a law test.

      The week after that, ANOTHER essay is due, this one for law.

      Now, USUALLY, I'd be able to cope with all that. But instead of giving me a brief respite, the world has decided to fuck with me once more:

      END RANT.

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      Blue, you can choose to be okay with all of this even though it seems impossible. It is not impossible. You will be okay if you choose to be.
      The world is something that you control. But it can seem hard to change the situation, you only have to change how you FEEL about it all. That is much easier.

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      Originally posted by Tom_Peace
      Blue, you can choose to be okay with all of this even though it seems impossible. It is not impossible. You will be okay if you choose to be.
      The world is something that you control. But it can seem hard to change the situation, you only have to change how you FEEL about it all. That is much easier.
      How I feel?

      Oh, okay, that's easy, thanks tom.

      I'm happy, now. Happy, that I'm sitting at university at 9am up to my eyeballs in work and stress, and with less money than a beggar in bangledesh. Happy, yeah, that's me.


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      I am here.

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      Dear Blue Meanie,

      And just think... it will all only get worse. After all, who will ever hire on and promote anybody who doesn't know how to work on computers, can't deal with University, Government, or Insurance Offices without screwing up all the details, who can't plan for a multi-tasked workload, and, if that avatar is your own photo, has severe grooming and hygiene problems.

      Jeez, maybe you should save yourself some time and simply go find a shopping cart with four good wheels (don't you hate it when one of the wheels is a wobbler) and stake out claims to a good street corner now. It is so clear you are destined to be a homeless loser, .... why, its a shame you could not Major in it... Street Survival 101.

      But actually you only need to start paying more attention to the details of life. The typical observation that Old Men make concerning young people is that they are 'stupid', actually it is probably more as though these young people don't know anything and don't know what they don't know. Things blow up in your face and it comes as a complete surprise to you. So you need to ask questions. And you need to learn how to be friendly with Office People. Now, I suspect you give every Customer Service Person a huge rash of shit, and then they do everything in their vindictive powers to screw you over. If you had been friendly to them, they would have been on your side.

      So you might have an attitude problem. It is not so much that the World Hates you, as I am sure it does, but it is more in the sense that the World is defending itself against you.

      Afterall, you are studying law. The World is only trying to stop you while it still has a chance.

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      Hehehehe... THANKS Leo.

      No, I'm serious, that REALLY cheered me up.

      Hehehehe...

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      Yet my "I am here" was not good enough!!! Is that what your saying?

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      But I have to say. Leo. That was an excellent response.

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      *laughs*

      leo, that was the most delightful post you've ever made...


      “If you have an apple and I have an apple and we exchange these apples then you and I will still each have one apple. But if you have an idea and I have an idea and we exchange these ideas, then each of us will have two ideas.” (or better yet: three...)
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      No theory, no ready-made system, no book that has ever been written will save the world. I cleave to no system. I am a true seeker. - Mikhail Bakunin

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      Yer studying law?

      I hope you're taking names and notes. Sounds like you'll have a few good cases there to start your career off... and you won't have to be splitting the take.

      The mental anguish alone should be worth a few mil, methinks. I'll take 5% for the referral.
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      Aww, Matt. I am so sorry that all of this stuff is happening to you. I know that although your going through tough times now, it won't be so bad later. I know everything will turn out in the end. Anyway, I'm here and if you ever need to talk to your adoptive mummy about anything, you can.
      Shine on, you crazy diamond!

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      All I can say is that I'll be thinking about you and I really hope that things start looking up soon. As Gwen said, if you want to rant some more I'll be more than willing to listen.

      Keep that ninja-hat on.

      -Amé

      "If there was one thing the lucid dreaming ninja writer could not stand, it was used car salesmen."

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      Awww... thanks, girls. I feel all warm and fuzzy and stuff now.

      But naw, I'm good, I think... I've put up with a lot of shit during my life, and I'm sorta used to dealing with not only my own problems, but other people's as well... I'm pretty emotionally tough, have had to be, and I'm not the depressive type. Angry and frustrrated, yes, depressed, no.

      I'll be fine, I just needed to get angry and rant a bit. I'm at uni now, trying to get my assignments out of the way, and once I've done that, I'll be able to cut up the other problems and deal with them seperately.

      Oh!!! It's time to give a motivational quote, from an unusual source, my favourite (modern) band at the moment:

      "Take all your problems, and rip 'em apart!"
      Little Acorns, by The White Stripes

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      <3

      It's all a matter of relativity. The chance that this bad-luck streak continues is like small.

      just enjoy the fact you don't live in africa and have aids.
      “What a peculiar privilege has this little agitation of the brain which we call 'thought'” -Hume

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      You know, you are not alone in that at all!
      A lot of times, I hide from people in person because I am afraid that they'll hurt me. In 7th grade, it was really bad.
      Luckily, I found refudge from those mean people, and that refudge was in my LDs (may sound a bit crazy, but it is true), and I still would rather stay in them than face reality after calming down in them for many years.

      The bank's been flipping with me, and tried to change my account type and raise my fees.
      That hasn't happened to me, but someone with the same name as me has used it to get me enough misdemeaners to last a while (who flipping has the exact same real name as me!)

      The university's screwed with my enrollment, and told Studylink I'm not a "full-time student" which is CRAP, because I AM.
      Aughh! Just last month, the same thing happened to me! They called and said that I wasn't in class for some stupid flipping reason. I told them I was, and it turned out the teacher made a mistake, but I paid the penalty for it!

      V, the dude whose car I crashed into last month, has only JUST sent me a quote for repairs to his car. Other than being a month late, it's flipping extortionate, and he's obviously trying to flip me over.
      A few years ago, the same thing happened to my sister, thanks to some moron, and she had to pay for it, and needed a loan out of my paycheck. I told her if the moron ever showed his flipping face again, I would knock the daylights out of him for permanently damaging her neck.

      I have a history essay due in about a week, and the flipping thing's 2000 words. Normally, I'd be able to cope with it, but...
      Hey, I would find that pretty lucky, because I have to do 3 tests (I repeat, 3 really hard $10 each tests) in order to pass MM2, considering it is a concurrent class, and if I fail one, it'll cost me another $10 to take it! Flip!

      I ALSO have a crapload of case readings and briefs to write for Law.
      I just had to do a bunch of homework as well, and it wasn't easy (then again, I don't work too well on teams, so that is probably why)
      The day AFTER the essay is due, I have a law test.
      The week after that, ANOTHER essay is due, this one for law. *
      Don't you just hate it when you get that much Hwork. I got so much last week (and even had to do it on Sunday, which I am normally not allowed to do pretty much anything that day) I had barely enough time for VGs!!

      MY COMPUTER BLEW UP!!! *

      Like, no flip. I mean actually BLEW up... I'm not exaggerating. There was smoke... SMOKE, darnit! This is no flipping joke. My computer is ROOTED.
      Ouch!! I remember one time that my vaccum at work blew up and burnt my pants off, and fell into my hair as well!

      So, I find out it's the power supply, so I replace that. The power supply's faulty, and THIS one blows up too... the store had set it to the wrong voltage. And now, of couse, they're saying it's my fault and say I should have checked to flippin' voltage.
      That is really hard when a computer crashes. My last one crashed b/c some moron on AIM inserted a virus in it that made it not able to work anymore, and it cost about $5 G to replace it, and until then, I had nothing, and couldn't check on Dreamin of Gamin darn it!
      So, I go and buy another power supply. This one works. The comoputer starts, the fans go, and all the hard disks start spinning... but NOTHING HAPPENS!!! There's something ELSE wrong with the computer as well. I'm guessing that my motherboards flipped too.
      Aughh! I remember that happening to a computer at school. It was really hard, because then I had a crapload of homework, and my modem crashed, too, so I couldn't use the Internet for research/tutorials/music.

      I'm sitting in an empty computer lab at university on a sunday morning, cos it;s the only place I can go to get reasonably priced internet and do my work. I'm not kidding, this place is EMPTY. There's 100 or something computers, and I'm the only sorry craphead sitting in here.
      I had to do that too at a library last summer in order to come on here, because the modem crashed and we had to get it replaced, which took 2 flipping weeks!

      So. My life sucks. *

      END RANT.
      Don't worry about it! Just remember that I have a lot of troubles, too! That doesn't stop me though from doing anything at all! In fact, all the more reason to have LDs and get away from all of that!!

      So, let's you and I go together and conquer the world as it is thrown at us, okay?

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      Flipping Ahahaha
      Your definintly from utah Nes...


      Anyway, it's kind of after the fact but I'm going to say someting anyway.
      Do yo know who the pillows are. clicka da link...

      http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SHst4hS1EnI

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      :finger: "I have a finger for you." Then you get up and fight back.
      I may not be the tallest, the fastest or the strongest, but
      I ain't scared.

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