Feel sorry for Truthbearer thread....

[Truthbearer]

not! I am very very very pissed and dissapointed, but I know I'll get over it soon. I can feel my stomach turning, I can feel myself sickening by the second. I can feel my blood boil and my bile rise, until I am overcome with more emotion that I have been in quite sometime. I hate it, yet it feels so good. I want to loose myself in this rage, let myself feed it and let it control my actions. I want to make those that made me feel this way suffer. I want to releive my anger somehow. I want to strangle a living creature. I want to crush a world with my hands. I know these thoughts aren't justified, and know that they lack merrit. But I will continue to let them grow, I will charish every bit of it and forget all about what really matters. It feels too good to give it up. Hating is such a relieving feeling. It really does bring out the best in me. I don't even care about what is making me mad anymore, I have gotten over it. The feeling is all that matters, and I will not let it fade away. Not until it changes me. not until it consumes me. Not until it gives me the drive I need to do what I am supposed to...

[wasup]

Oh Mr. Hulk are we now...

[Naruto]

Pooooooooooor Truthbearer.... Nah, don't worry dude, just do whatever feels right to you.

[Amethyst Star]

Originally posted by Mystery Men \"Your temper is quick, friend, but until you learn to master your rage-\" \"-your rage will become your master. That's what you were going to say, right?\" \"Not exactly.\" Don't worry about it Truth. Too much of anger will make you sick, trust me. If it's just been this one incident, see if it gets better. If you doubt it will, then leave and find something else. There's a lot out there. Just keep your chin up! Behold the power of the positive! -Amé

[MSG]

Originally posted by Truthbearer I want to make those that made me feel this way suffer. oh sh....

[Evanescent]

Ahh you think you got it bad, my life revolves around anger and rage and other things of the sort. Take this for instance, once ffx sat down across from me in school and accidentally kicked me, i kicked him back, so for fun he did it again, thing is i didn't do it for fun, so for no reason i hit him right in the face and knocked him on the ground, i didn't even know i did it really(i don't think) i was like sorry dude. It's funny now tho.

[Umbrasquall]

Haha you serious.

[Evanescent]

Yea man i just nailed him. I hit him pretty hard. More of a surprise to him than hurt him.

[Naruto]

Hm. Yeah other people have it worse. I'm not going into details but personally my life has been incredibly rough in some spots, mostly revolving around family issues and lots of stuff. But truth, or anybody, really... Ive been through tough times by myself, and it sucks a lot, so Im around if you need me

[Evanescent]

oh thats just the funny spontaneouis thing. I got a bunch of different storries i won't tell.

[ffx-dreamz]

Originally posted by Truthbearer not! I am very very very pissed and dissapointed, but I know I'll get over it soon. I can feel my stomach turning, I can feel myself sickening by the second. I can feel my blood boil and my bile rise, until I am overcome with more emotion that I have been in quite sometime. I hate it, yet it feels so good. I want to loose myself in this rage, let myself feed it and let it control my actions. I want to make those that made me feel this way suffer. I want to releive my anger somehow. I want to strangle a living creature. I want to crush a world with my hands. I know these thoughts aren't justified, and know that they lack merrit. But I will continue to let them grow, I will charish every bit of it and forget all about what really matters. It feels too good to give it up. Hating is such a relieving feeling. It really does bring out the best in me. I don't even care about what is making me mad anymore, I have gotten over it. The feeling is all that matters, and I will not let it fade away. Not until it changes me. not until it consumes me. Not until it gives me the drive I need to do what I am supposed to... She must be on her period. oh, and what evanescent said was true, I was like "Wtf was that for?!?!" and yea..I should have nailed him back.

[Evanescent]

Heh he wishes, even if he did it would enrage my spontaneoususnus(heh) even more.

[CT]

Originally posted by Evanescent Heh he wishes, even if he did it would enrage my spontaneoususnus(heh) even more. thats just pathetic, nothing to be proud of. Get a grip on yourself, or remember to take your ADD pills.

[wer]

<div class='quotetop'>QUOTE(\\\"Truthbearer\\\")</div> not! I am very very very pissed and dissapointed, but I know I'll get over it soon. I can feel my stomach turning, I can feel myself sickening by the second. I can feel my blood boil and my bile rise, until I am overcome with more emotion that I have been in quite sometime. I hate it, yet it feels so good. I want to loose myself in this rage, let myself feed it and let it control my actions. I want to make those that made me feel this way suffer. I want to releive my anger somehow. I want to strangle a living creature. I want to crush a world with my hands. I know these thoughts aren't justified, and know that they lack merrit. But I will continue to let them grow, I will charish every bit of it and forget all about what really matters. It feels too good to give it up. Hating is such a relieving feeling. It really does bring out the best in me. I don't even care about what is making me mad anymore, I have gotten over it. The feeling is all that matters, and I will not let it fade away. Not until it changes me. not until it consumes me. Not until it gives me the drive I need to do what I am supposed to...[/b] I'm just kiding. Unleesh the rage! Muhahahahaha! Sorry

[baconmastermind]

A wise man once said "If someone pisses you off, instead of lashing out at them, go buy a punching bag, and work out on it for 8 weeks. Then go to the house of the person who pissed you off and when they answer the door say 'Hello, I'm conducting a survey for the census bureau. May I ask you some questions?' when they say 'yes', Say 'Does this hurt?'. Then beat the crap out of them. They won't be able to do anything since you've been working out on a punching bag for 8 weeks."

[Evanescent]

Originally posted by CT+--><div class='quotetop'>QUOTE(CT)</div> <!--QuoteBegin-Evanescent Heh he wishes, even if he did it would enrage my spontaneoususnus(heh) even more. thats just pathetic, nothing to be proud of. Get a grip on yourself, or remember to take your ADD pills.[/b] I don't have ADD and it was something i am not proud of...i even told him sorry multiple times. I am not proud of it yet i think its funny now.

[MSG]

Originally posted by Evanescent I don't have ADD and it was something i am not proud of... it sounds like you had it but now you dont and your not proud that you had it before you didnt have it... i would edit that if i were you BTW i think i have ADD is there like an online test or sumthin>

[jacobo]

rage is bad. hate is bad. on the same note don't let people step all over you... rise above it... it feels so much better than striking back... if you understand the situation that is.

[gameover]

there is nothing wrong with rage. If you supress it it will get worse. But if you dont find the reason behinmd the rage and understand it from within, it will continue to go on and on.

[OpheliaBlue]

Hey Truth, love you man. I hope you get all that shit sorted out real soon. {{{hugs and kisses}}}

[WerBurN]

meh, i know you wont, but i gotta say it anyway: dont do anything stupid...at least think your actions through first... and another thing: ADD DEOS NOT EXIST! if there is such a thing, everyone has it, simply some exert some willpower and focus, and others use a fake disorder as a crutch...the human mind can only maintain focus for something like 7 seconds before it has to change subject, even if only for a moment...this is NORMAL...you just have to learn to constantly set it back on track ...personally, i suffer from frequent mild hyperglycemia, which deosnt do much aside make me eat/drink/urinate more than is regular, but also the less frequent (at least anymore), mild to moderate hypoglycemia, which among other things, makes me get absolutely pissed at just about anyone/thing that interacts with me for no/next to no reason...this means, whenever i forget to eat stuff with sugar in it for a good while, i feel like breaking things...ive hurt my friends before, ive done stupid things like punched through windows before, i often end up purposefully hurting myself (biting into my arm for example)...largely cause i cant think straight (hypoglycemia is what you get on you way into a diabetic coma...im not diabetic however, but im close)...in the end ive learned to control this sort of anger, which is good, cause i havent gotten pissed at anything in years...the way it was before, nobody would hire me, my friends would be scared of me if i even began to get slightly irritable, and it just wasnt healthy...and all in all, i would say that my life, without all the needless anger and hatred i would occasionally feel, is soo much better! i love the fact that whenever i begin to get angry, i can calm myself down, think rationally about a situation, and then be normal...i find, when someone is doing something that should horribly piss you off, if you can not get irritated at all by it, it makes them irritated, and pissed...and you know the feeling they are feeling and that they cant control it, and it makes you feel really good, that you are above your own emotions...

[gameover]

Yeah I have the oh so horrible ADD....supposedly though I also don't believe it exists. I think I just didnt like shcool.

[MSG]

Originally posted by WerBurN+--><div class='quotetop'>QUOTE(WerBurN)</div> urinate more than is regular[/b] Originally posted by WerBurN+--><div class='quotetop'>QUOTE(WerBurN)</div> biting into my arm for example[/b] <!--QuoteBegin-WerBurN@ ive done stupid things like punched through windows before oh sh.... <!--QuoteBegin-WerBurN it makes you feel really good, that you are above your own emotions... ok good. Phew!

[Truthbearer]

I was so damn mad when I posted this. Basically, I just felt frustrated and pissed off all day after I learned that I had been screwed over by the company that I used to work for(technically at this time I still do, but I'm quitting tomorrow at noon). My rage kept building more and more during the whole day until I finally was just completely consumed in rage. I just couldn't contain it anymore, and I just exploded, internally. I didn't do anything stupid(other than this thread). Next morning everything was ok again...not because I gave it more time or I slept on it, but because the next morning (1:30pm , yeah it was my day off) I recieve a call from another company which I had interviewed for, forseeing that I would be screwed over. They offered me a position in which I make much more money(a rather significant amount), greater benefits and stability. Everything happened with such timing and chance that I can't help but think that it can't just be coincidence. I was asked to train on Thursday, Friday and Saturday(my days off at BOS) and now I start to work at the other place tomorrow. It just fit in too perfectly. I don't believe it is just a coincidence, there are just too many things that had to happen for me to take that job and all(much more than those that I am posting). What has me the most satisfied is not the extra cash, but the fact that these people seem to truly care about their employees, and they are giving us a royal treatment in every possible way, which is a great change from being screwed on everything possible, the BOS philosophy. I feel at peace with everything now, and I can't wait to go tomorrow into BOS and telling my boss I quit. It will feel so satisfying, like getting released from my chains. I have assimilated this anger, and made it just part of my learnings in this plane. Once again I feel emotionally stable and complete(as much as I felt before at least). Anyway, I won't bore you with insignificant details anymore, but I am truly at peace with it all for now.... P.S. Did I mention I will be working the graveyard shift (2am -10am)

[OpheliaBlue]

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY to everything (except the graveyard shift thing...although I'm sure you'll make it work. You're still a young lad .) Anyway, I'm so damn glad that all worked out for you. Like it was meant to be or something. Kinda cool...we're both starting new jobs. But yours definitely has more perks. So go buy me a damn camera, rich boy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!