my body is killing my soul

i cant deal with the pain anymore. io cant do it. all i can do is cry so badly and want to die. i cant work im scared to move im losing all hope so quickly im so depressed i want heroin or death and i cant have either

just try to take things slowly...live each day for that day...just take baby steps...eventually you'll get there; out of where you are now...remember, you have friends here that are willing to support you, and are there for you...dont give up, people usually want to give up most when they're almost there...

I would suggest going to the hospital if its that bad.

I would suggest sharing what exactly is happening to you :(
No one should be left in a situation as you describe - there's always hope.

Please help us help you...

i have central pain syndrome. in 90% of cases it occurs after a stroke. because i didnt have a stroke the doctors wont listen to me. even if they did listen to me, 99% of doctors dont know about it and there are no medications that can help. im sure opiates would help me stop caring, but because of my drug history that wont even touch that. the worst bit about it is in comes in cycles, it had been gone (or managable) since march and i got to the point i was so positive i was healing and then suddenly last thursday i just crashed. never been so miserable and in pain and wanting to die. im supposed to go away on saturday and im so scared becuase it is about 7 degrees hotter there (which makes it worse) and i am alone for 8 days with my own horrible negative thoughts

here is a link: centralpain.org

I read through the site and I just can't imagine the feeling. But the fact that you've dealt with it this far must mean something. It's awful that doctors won't listen to you, but a support group will. You are part of something which will allow you to feel what other people are feeling in the same situation. The more people who get together, the quicker a solution can be found. Just remember that you're never alone. I only wish I could feel what you're feeling, if only to be able to help you through your depression.
Please don't let it end like this, you would leave a depressing void in the world.
I wish I could be of some real help and just make the pain go away, but I just want you to know that you do have a purpose, no matter how fucked up it sounds...There's so much yet to be experienced from the world. To give up now would be to hinder progress for oneself and other people.
Please take care, we all want you around! We all have so much to learn from one another.

please..hold on a bit longer...here's a hug http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/hug.gif

try doing the things that you once loved doing as a child..simple things...and what werburn said..baby steps first..do things that are only positive..try meditating

once again..here's my love for you babehttp://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif

take care....

if you've managed to make it through your drug problems, and you seem to have come out clean (although, admittadly i dont really know you very well), but if you can make it through that, you can make it through this...please dont give up...you've come so far already, why give up before you've gone all the way? to give up on life now, would be to waste all that effort you've put into living up til this point...please keep going...think, at a certain point, it can only get better, right?

the other have said so much already but... i feel the same. the human body is capable of so much, from inflicting that much pain on itself to managing to handle it, as you already have... all i can say is to try to hang in there, and keep looking for a solution... and hey, sometimes problems solve themselves, or go away for months at a time, right?

I can just pray that you feel better. You have my deepest sympathy. :) :)

I know I can't talk from experience, but I suggest taking a look at life through different eyes, and maybe in doing so you will find reason, meaning, and purpose. Pain can be a irritating thing, trust me I've had my digits of broken bones, but aslong as their is a strive or a passion, that pain blocks and eventually goes away. By thinking positive even at the worst of times, will prove worthy in the long run because then u can look back an cherrish that moment of strength, and feel proud of yourself.

I've had my chronic depressions where I've wanted to kill myself, but after fighting it even at the worst of times, I can finally look back and feel that I've accomplished something most could not. And that pride has brought a deeper success to my life. There is a time to die, it's just not now.

thank you i dont know if ill make it through this day but ill try

please do try...if not for yourself, for those you love...