That I met late into my Sophomore year of high school. Ever since then, she has taken up a totally disproportionate amount of my thinking space compared to what she reasonably should. Even when I moved to Alaska I thought about her from time to time. I moved back to Colorado and haven't seen her again. Not yet. I have talked to her plenty. It turns out, the feeling I have is mutual. She told me how she felt on the phone. Apparently I wouldn't get out of her mind after I moved away.
We are both very attracted to each other. It's just... objectively I'm not sure how good we would be for each other. You know? We have enough in common to do things together and not get bored. But the way we each live our lives is different on a pretty fundamental level. It probably won't help that we live an hour apart.
I've considered saying, "Screw it, I want this." And then going for it. That's how I've lived up until now. (A lot of the time.) This would be my first 'adult' relationship, though. (She isn't an adult, I guess, but I'm out of school now. And we aren't very far apart age-wise.) I figure it deserves serious thought. Both her and my emotions would be invested so much that it requires more than a flippant attitude. I know that if I even just start hanging out with her it would be something serious and not just a 'fun time.' (Which is the kind of relationship I've told myself I want right now, though I don't really need one at all.)
Maybe the worst part is that she is dating someone. I think it might be pretty casual and she may not be very invested in that thing. If it is serious, though, I would feel too bad trying to break anything up. Even if it isn't a big deal, is that too messy of a situation to get entangled up with, in ya'lls experience? I'm not trying to throw this on you guys and I'll definitely be making the final choice but I have... limited first hand knowledge and want to know what you all have learned.
Would this relationship be doomed to fail? Will I likely regret it if I don't go for it? Do you need more information?
(I considered putting this in the Help section but I don't want the conversation to be too heavy. Just throw out your thoughts and experiences if you would, please.)
Thanks, DVers.
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