First lucid dream! Amazing but I need help figuring out the meaning of something.
So it started last night at around 2 AM when I woke up and decided to try a WILD since I had time to kill. Didn't work as I ended up normally falling asleep but before I fell out I kept repeating to myself that I was gonna have a lucid dream.
Cut forward a bit and I'm in my school cutting class and just chilling in the hallway with some friends. Decide to go down to the gym and for some reason my mom is waiting there along with my god mother. This is about where I start questioning the reality around me. My godmother tells my mom that we'll be right back, we need to go talk about something. Suddenly we're in some stairway that I've never seen before in my school and my shirt is off and my godmother starts reaching in my underwear and playing with what she finds lol. (ahh before you get grossed out she's in her 30s and madd attractive, and has always been very liberal and relaxed). Then she starts telling me that she's always known I've been attracted to her and at that moment I felt so at peace, no clue as to why except for the mess I woke up to later on :eek::(. Suddenly out of nowhere she's gone and to quote Sonny from the Godfather, I'm standing out there with "just my dick in my hands".
So I walk further down the stairs and I look up to the side to see this couple in their 20's standing by a river. The guy jumps into the water but the girl stayed there and started to undress and bend over for me and put on this whole show :lol:. That's when I realized this was all a dream and everything rushed over my head and I was standing in this suburban neighbourhood with rivers where the streets should be. It was so fascinating, the concept of being in a world that only existed in your mind/ literally being in your own mind. Everything was almost so vivid, as if I had just finished smoking some really good weed. The first thing I decided to do was walk to the water and start observing objects closely. I picked this flower that was conveniently placed right in front of me and held it right up to my eyes and started rubbing it and it was so real. In a way it was realer than anything else I'd ever seen before. On the ground below me there were all these toys scattered through the grass so I decided to pick one up. This is where the issue sort of starts. It was a plastic branch and had little Christian crosses sticking out of it, clearly a message from my subconscious. I got a little scared, but more of a surprised/ wtf type feeling. Not wanting to start debating the issue I tossed it to the side. The rest of the dream was random nonsense and I slowly lost lucidity, floated away, and woke up.
I'm what you could call Agnostic or an Atheist (not even sure) and have long ago denounced any idea of a single god that everyone must worship, as well as believing that religion is nothing more than a way to control a large amount of people to do the elitist bidding, but this experience puzzled me. I don't know if the crosses were a message from my subconscious, or if me tossing them to the side meant me finally completely dissociating myself from Christianity. Can anybody who's an expert in dreams like this try to explain to me the meaning and significance of what happened?
