My name is the Truthbearer, and I am new to this forum. I discovered this site while I was trying to gain knowledge about dreams. It caught my attention because of an experience I had long ago, which I still remember, for it left an impression on me. I had a dream which was following the regular caotic order of one, until I decided to see what time it was. I looked at my hand and I had my watch on, a watch that I had just lost 2 days before. So, I stared at it for a moment and I remember thinking I had lost it. It couldn't be right. I am dreaming! That was my conclusion, but as I thought that I guess I decided to wake up, to prove it to myself.
I have already learned about lucid dreaming for a couple weeks now, I started to keep a dream journal, though lazy ass I am I only wrote about 3 entries.
Anyway last night I have what I believe is my first lucid dream, where I kind of took control of my dream. The problem is I don't know if I was really lucid. In the dream I was in weird old house with my parents and some weird things were happening. So, I don't remember why I decided it was a dream, and, my all time favorite dream happening, I started to fly away. Since I learned about lucid dreaming I always made that my first goal, to fly.
Anyway, I remember having problems going higher when I wanted too, and I kept saying I am dreaming, when I said that I momentarily did fly higher. I remembered some things I read and I thought I want to appear over there, in a building that was seemingly very far away. But I didn't, I couldn't. So I started to fly to it. When I got there I reminded my self I was dreaming again, but this time that made me wake up.
My question would be, how do I know if I was really lucid dreaming, and it wasn't just my unconscious' way of justifying my flying in the dream? I have been thinking about lucid dreaming, so that could be posible. Besided I didn't feel in total control of my dream, in fact the only thing that I could do was fly, which is as much as I wanted, but it would still be nice to feel more in control of it all. The way you guys have described it I can create my own universe, do as I please. In this dream I am doubtfull about being lucid, I was just able to bring this ability to a universe pre-established by my unconscious, I couldn't create one at my will. I felt like I wasn't really that lucid but playing along with the chaotic paths of my dreams.
That is my doubt, wheather there is the possiblity I didn't really have a lucid dream, I just thought I did. I do remember saying to myself that I was dreaming but couldn't that just be part of the plot of the dream? Could it be my minds way of justifying what was going on in the dream. I am rather confused about all this. All I can say is that I hope to continue to experience this sort of dreams, and eventhough I may have not been lucid, I still loved being able to fly. Feel free to post any comments or answers you might have.
P.S I know I have already posted this in the newbie forum, but seeing as this one is more active and it also clasifies in this one, I decided to re-post it. I was told by Seeker and Lowercase society that this was a lucid dream. I believe it might have been, although, oddly enough it didn't feel like one. I guess what I am trying to say is that it wasn't vivid enough to feel lucid. I didn't feel as real as I hoped it did, eventhough the flying feeling was as awesome as everytime I have ever dreamnt of flying.
