Kevka's randomly occurred bad trip , yet awsome experience.
OK, first of all, before I had my first ever lucid dream, I had slept like 3 hours of the past 48 hours. I had been drinking for a few days and I was really very-very tired. It was just pure physical exhaustion.
So, I landed on my bed, not expecting any lucid dream or something. To put in fact, I had read about lucid dreaming and such before. Maybe the knowledge of such experience was one of the catalysts for my experience.
Before I had the lucid dream, I had many other dreams that night, before the lucid one. If I recall, I had like 4-5 different small dream-states before the real deal.
The final dream-state started in a back-alley. Gray enviroment, creepy place in a few words. I had my fancier clothes on, I was looking good, the weird thing is that how the heck did I know what am I wearing?! No mirrors or such around. Anyways, I was walking and suddenly came a witch-like woman who was babbling some things with crazy voice. She passed me and she looked very pissed. I don't know why, but when she was past me, I threw her with my shoe and started running (kinda lol moment). I paniced...suddenly I felt my heart beat really-really fast, and then BOOM...I realized that it was my physical form that the heartbeats come from. I have NEVER-EVER felt such fear in my life. I was scared to death. Uuphoria and fear came from the realization, and also from the encounter with "the witch." So, I grasped my chest and in my head I was thinking: "OH shi-, I'm gonna have a heart attack?!" over and over, like repeating the sentence in my head for 10 times. Shortly thereafter, my right arm started to go numb. Then I thought that probably my physical form is sleeping on top of my arm, thing I often do when I am sleeping.
I did not yet realize that I could have "powers" in lucid dream, but there are things coming up...
So, some shi- resolved and I kept going on. I walked into a covasack. There was an old white car parked. The enviroment was "dark" and "gray." Looked like abandoned.
So, I walked up to the car. There were like 4-5 "criminal-looking" guys around it. At first, I was very polite to them at first and asked something (note that I am a polite person in my everyday life). So I asked like directions or something, and no-one answered. They weren't not even looking at me, but into nothingness. They all had bitter-angry face. And suddenly, I had that panic-attack again. I felt that great fear again. I backed away from then and turned my back to run away. When I started running, one of them said behind my back: "Keep a low profile."(It sounded like a threat, it was said in my national language like everything that was spoken in my dream).
So I ran, and suddenly I was in a park. Like on threehouses made of metal. I climbed and jumped over treetops and fences until I got back onto a street and came up to a concrete tunnel, like the one where cars drive through. So I went in. In the end of the tunnel was an old man. He said that there is no exit from the tunnel. I looked around and saw a square hole. I tried to climb through it, and for my relief, I fit right through it.
The next part is the most freakiest, yet so cool experience I ever had in a dream, even in my life. I came to a part of a city, that looked like it was war-torn. Big pile of rubble and half-destroyed houses around. There were people. They were not ordinary people. They all had mutated and freaky faces. It was SO REAL, like high-definition. I can't even see so clearly in the reality. Like, every wrinkle and part of the face looked so real. Scary-real. Suddenly something amazing popped in my head, I was like: "Dude, I have friggin' superpowers."
I raised my hands towards the sky. I felt like a GOD. I made the sky turn into a fiery storm, with lightning and that kind of effects. It felt SO AMAZING! The next thing I tried was: I moved my hand across the sky and said out loud:"Let a great city rise!" Out of nowhere appeared a huge renaissance-ish city, a very-very big city. I admired what I had created. After a few moments I made a reverse-movement with my hand and said out loud:"Let the city fall into rubble!" And instantly, the city fell into a rubble. I felt so powerful, such an immense feeling that overwhelmed me! I also tried flying, but I really sucked at it, as I was able to fly only short distance and kept losing control of the flight.
After that, I suddenly was in a beach-side city. really beatiful ocean and mountains around. Very beatiful, there was no life in the city, but yet it looked like it was not abandoned or in ruins. I was situated in a penthouse-like apartment. Sounds good?...
NOPE! The apartment was full of those twisted and mutated people. Again, I was scared and terrified. But then, I raised my hands up and shouted at the top of my lungs :"I want everyone in this world, MY WORLD, to be normal people again!" I don't remember well, but I think tears were coming from my eyes at that moment. It was like a power-struggle, you know, like draining myself of power or something. Faces of those freak-people started to go into normal, but they again started to go into freak-state as I started to get drained of my power. I broke down because of the exhaustion and put my hands on my thighs to rest and whispered "I'm so sorry."
More weird things coming up.
The dream went on. The next thing I tried to do, was "summoning" some close people that I know. I summoned some of my best friends. I talked to them and they seemed so real. Like I was really with them in reality. Super-real. Yeah, now the fun part comes up...I summoned my ex-girlfriend, with who I am still in love with. AND...there was like 10 clones of her.
The dream went really sexual from this point. I started to have sex with one of the clones. The feeling was so real, like really having sex in reality. I even felt the warm feeling you get when you are with someone you love.
In the next moment, I started to flicker in-and-out of my dream and the reality. I felt pressure and falling from a high place. I was like "phasing" in and out. It went on for a while. And suddenly, I woke up. I felt really horrible and awful, scared and yet so amazed about the dream. I touched my face to see if I really was awake. After being convinced that I am really awake, I was too frightened to go to sleep again. After a few hours I went to sleep again and I did not experience anything lucid anymore.
The dream-phases and the lucid dream itself felt like it lasted for a few days. But in reality I had slept for only a hour or so.
In conclusion, the lucid dream came out of nowhere, without any thought or concentration for having such a dream before going to sleep. What was weird about the dream was that I was not in total control of the dream. I was able to use my powers, but I still was not in control of what was happening around me. I have put much thought to the dream I experienced. The dream really reflected my insecurities and desires. And I am really going through a tough period in my life, maybe the chaos in my dream reflects the chaos that is happening in my mind.
Anyways, even if the dream itself made me experience horrible feelings and moods, I am happy that I had such a trip. It's really the most weird and yet the most awesome thing I have experienced in my life. I am hoping to start experimenting with such dreams when I have achieved a different mindset and stability in my life.
But anyways, Here is my story, hope that it was worth your time. Willing to answer any questions that may arise.
