First experience... or is it?
Hey there! I think I may have had a lucid dream yesterday, even though I decided that day to start taking this seriously. But I'm not really sure, sometimes I think that realizing that I was dreaming was part of the dream and I just went with the flow instead of actually becoming aware of what's happening. Well, let me just write down the details so you'll understand :)
After lunch I decided to take a little nap, as I was feeling a little sleepy. I also listened to some music on a headset - just put about 9 random songs from a band I found recently (I only knew 2 songs, the others were just chosen randomly) in my playlist, decided to rest while listening to the music. Maybe get up after the playlist has been played 2 or 3 times.
Anyways, I did fall asleep. I was in a game - something like a 3D platformer, played from first person view. Looked kinda minecraft-ish. And I was listening to music while jumping around, I had white earphones. After a while I realized I can jump bigger, basicly just step through the pits. I kinda felt my legs change, back to normal. But that didn't feel strange. However, after that I took out my earphones, and after that I didn't hear anything. Not like everything was silent, but like as if I was deaf. Now that did feel strange, so I started thinking. I don't remember exactly how, but I concluded that I must be in a dream :)
After that I felt really happy and excited for a moment, then everything started to fade away. I was in a dark gray space, and my whole body felt numb. Like I was lying on my stomach, and was floating in nothingness (does that make sense?) I tried rubbing my palms together, I read somewhere before that it helps if you're losing control. It was really hard to do so, but I guess it worked. However, after that everything got really chaotic, and it went down fast. You know, like I was trying to do everything at once. (I thought I would be calmer when the time comes...)
So first the scenery changed to a little terrace, where I kissed a girl. (Don't judge me... :) ) Then it changed to a green meadow, where I decided I'd try flying. I couldn't, the closest I got to was jumping a little higher than usual, and descending really slowly (like floating down). After that I was on a beach where... well, this is where it gets strange, I tried to knife someone, i don't know why, I'm not really an aggressive person o_O But I couldn't "create" a knife in my hand, so I just ended up putting my fist on her (not punching). And she looked kind of unreal. Like a badly detailed doll. After that she turned into a real-looking girl and we kissed. :shock:
After that I thought I woke up, but there were strange things I didn't realize back then:
1. It was really dark even though it was around 15:00
2. My sister, who wasn't even at home at the time, was peeking through the door
3. My father came in the room, and put a towel on my bed (?), and I couldn't hear what he said, because I was listening to music on earphones. But I couldn't hear him even after I took them out.
4. The earphones were the same white earphones as before, even though when I went to sleep I had a black headset on.
5. I was lying on my stomach instead of my back (in reality I lay on my back.
And after that I woke up for real. At first I thought "OHMYGAWD, that was so awesome." Now I don't really know if it was the real deal. I mean I feel that "realizing that it's a dream" was also part of the dream, and I simply dreamt that because I finally got motivated enough to start (so like dreaming of the result I want to achieve)? I mean I just started a dream journal that very same day. And it kind of felt I wasn't too much in control. Especially towards the end, where it got really chaotic. I mean I would never try to kill someone, why would I do that when I should be able to control the dream?
Anyways, it was really unexpected, so maybe I'm just confused because it accidentally happened on the same day I decided to "train" myself, or I simply got overboard and messed it up... What do you think?
